i have been a fan of kpop for a very long time. i think this year i’ll be embarking a little bit over a decade. even as a teen and navigating the small space of korean culture i was exposed to through kpop and just the fan space as a whole i was constantly seeing antiblackness. if it wasn’t the idols mocking their members for not being pale by calling them dirty, dark, or that awful word then it was kpop idols having blaccents or mocking black voices, or treating blackness like a monolith or a costume. and if it wasn’t that then it was the fans being antiblack and calling black fans who were rightfully upset “sensitive” or mocking them.
i like to believe we’ve come a long way since then. but with eunseok using that word in 2026 i am taken back to that time of being actively gaslit as a young teen that i was being overdramatic for being rightfully upset. i know i wasn’t then and i sure as hell know it now too. i want you all to understand that word eunseok used is called a “dying term” meaning it’s not used in common speech and it’s rightfully being phased out of peoples vocabulary. eunseok using that word makes me cringe and unfortunately makes me speculate what other offensive and outdated vernacular he uses or ideologies he has.
i saw his apology. maybe he’s truly sorry. maybe he’s not. but this has unfortunately shown me his character and i am extremely turned off by it. i’ve been seeing the same formatted apology where they won’t even explicitly say why they’re apologizing for over a decade. i have no more forgiveness in me. the current world i’m living in i have no interest teaching him or having patience with him. because at the end of the day eunseok is a 25 year old man who has worked with black people professionally, has black fans, has traveled the world, and has unlimited access to the internet. why he would say something that is so close-minded and racist in 2026 tells me things about him that i don’t want to be associated with.
with all of this being said i am no longer writing fics about eunseok. this means no requests about him or answering asks about him. i will keep up the old fics i have written—for you guys—but i do not see myself writing another fic for him. please unfollow if this upsets you. once again, i have no more patience for these types of things and i have no interest in debating on this either.
