Mistakes...
I know I'm allowed to make mistakes. It happens all the time. If my friends were really my friends, they'd understand that what I did never meant to hurt them. I would never explicitly say something to hurt them. If I ever told this to anyone else, I have a feeling they'd put me as overdramatic. I'd be too sensitive. I say the wrong thing all the time. I'm a typically quiet person. I never carry the conversation. But when I do say something other than to answer questions. I feel unentertaining. I'm not fun to be around. I say mean things. I thought that was our humor. Did I go too far? What is too far? I get hurt easily, and yet I still poke fun at others. Is it cause they do it to me? I want petty unconscious revenge? Today I talked about someone else's birthday party in front of someone who wasn't invited. I tried to play it off by talking about something else, but do you think they still remember? What if they ask the birthday girl if they are invited? The birthday girl can't say no. She's a people pleaser. My other friend there texted me later... "DUDE, you know she doesn't want her there." Why can't I just keep my mouth shut? Then maybe I'd never talk at all.
















