2h
how do i talk to my therapist about quitting the cpa when i'm literally 1/8 of the way through the first course. i'm like still "doing well", i sleep i eat i go to work, i got my assignments submitted on time but i'm so miserable i don't want to exist. i hate everything about doing this. i'm not like suicidal for real but i think about wanting to die so much more now. i keep making unfunny dark jokes about killing myself to my mom and i feel really bad for that. don't need to take it out on her. i can't tell if i need to stick to it and finish the course or if i should listen to my gut and quit. and face the reality that i gave up when the going got tough.
