#takealeap

Well... here I am... starting a blog.

I have had friends ask me to share more, because I have been known to be very raw in my writing of emotions, the ups and downs of life and even the heartbreak I have suffered. I love sharing. Why? I have wondered this myself. It’s embarrassing having to explain that while, yes, I have been posting photos of my wedding countdown, that we have broken up and the wedding is off. No, it’s not postponed, it’s cancelled. I wish I could say I’m talking about a friend or a movie reference. Unfortunately, to my dismay, this is about me. Yet, I still have this fiery passion to share my story with you. My whole story, my victories & heartbreaks, my funny and my not so funny & even the embarrassing. I find myself landing on that big question again. Why?

The best answer that I can think of is this: still I rise.

I am drawn to that statement so much so, I have it permanently inscribed on my arm.

Still I rise. 

I share because I will always rise again and I’d hate to leave out the happily ever after of my story. I can’t end it on, “the wedding is off”. I’d be a terrible writer if I left my curious readers on such a poor note. It’s as if I see my life as a novel and I am the reader on the edge of my seat waiting to see what is next. Come what may, I’ll be okay. I know that rhymes and may sound cheesy but I sure get a kick out some good ol’ cheese. The point is, no matter what happens I will come out on top because life is too short to hold me down. I never believed it until I was at my lowest of lows and rising up was my only option.

In my experience, some people will choose to remember the lows and remind you of them. They’ll stand far enough away to simply observe you, waiting for your next failure. You’ll feel their eyes on you and you’ll see the judgement in their faces. Just continue to rise baby, and soon you’ll see the judgement turn into jealousy. At that point they will have no choice but either to join you or watch you rise above so high they can’t even see you anymore. These people are not your friends, whatever they do or say has no affect on your story.

I will continue to post photos, videos, writings and blogs about my life because everyone’s life is a story worth reading. Sharing raw thoughts and emotions is, in my personal opinion, the epitome of vulnerability. And guess what?! Healing comes in the depths of vulnerability, and thriving within my healing is all I’m here for. Every day that I get to be earth side, shining my light & love is another magical day and I choose to live it as such.

peace, love, & magic, 

-ae

It's February 29th. Every four years February gets an extra day. This is to compensate the usual calendar year of 365 days falling short of six hours of our solar year.

It's a day we don't always have, out of the ordinary.

Let's make it count and do something out of the ordinary.

Sometimes I don’t want to be brave  I want to let go and scream; Sometimes I don’t feel all of my strength I want to stop running; Sometimes I cannot fully breathe I want break down all the walls.

I feel overcome by a desire — to become fluid — to see the boundaries dissipate I want to become free —  enough to take a leap And to not want to know where I am going.