Hello Anon!

First let me just say that I' sorry it's been hard. Patches of rough switches are really difficult, especially as you adjust to how your System works. I really truthfully hope this passes for you soon.

It is normal, as I understand it. Periods of little to no switching, periods of rough switches and feeling drained in the front are all things we've experienced as well as the others around us. Sometimes the System just does what it wants and as normal as it is for you to be able to step aside, it's still up to the System who's fronting. 'controlling switches' only comes as a result of good System communication and it CERTAINLY isn't 100%.

You're not faking it. If you did not wake up and decide you were going to fake having DID, then you are not faking it. Systems go through a lot of rough times and it's a disorder that is covert, meaning we're hardly even supposed to now WE have it. I know it's hard and I know it feels like you're attention seeking, but you're not. You're valid, even when things aren't going normally.

Hey there Anon. That sounds Unbelievably frustrating, but you ARE valid.

We have a SubSystem that is disproportionately sized to the rest of our System. Where most of our SubSystems have 5-15 fragments, this SubSystem has over 40- and they are ALL the same character. We HAVE other alters/SubSystems, but they don't seem to split as frequently. Sometimes it's all about what our brain can handle and interpret, which might mean splitting the same introject in different forms. Your brain might be using how well you know that character as a vessel to help you understand what's going on with your System.

Hey there Anon, it did make sense and I understand how strange that must be for you.

A host or co-host can be an alter of any age. Some people's Systems are hosted by toddlers. It's not always the case that a System alter might act their age, so a middle/little hosting a System is really only a problem if that alter is unaware of how to conduct themselves in every day life. Otherwise, it's at the discretion of the System.

If keeping that Alter from the front was hurting them and your System, then it's likely that the System is pushing that alter forward. There could be a lot of reasons for this, but I usually assume it's either because that alter has some healing to do, or because they are currently best suited for the job. I try to trust my System to make these decisions. It's here to protect us, after all.

Hi there Carnelian.

I'm sorry to hear you're going through a hard time. Everyone makes mistakes and sometimes those mistakes can either feel or be pretty bad, but it's not always the case. I' sure whatever it is you're worried about, it's not worth trying to go dormant. Make sure to talk to your System and try to work it out with them. Maybe someone has a solution.

That said, I'm afraid I don't think I can be of help. While we certainly have had a few Alters choose to go dormant, none of our currently active Alters know how to do it. You as an alter are a piece of your System, if you're lashing out and hurting then dormancy really isn't the answer... It's better to try and identify why you are doing things, and work from there.

Hi again Anon!

I am glad you saw a Dr, but I'm sorry to hear you suffered medical neglect. That's always such a terrible thing to go through. On that note, another Anon (Linked here once answered) mentioned a treatment, so I'll be posting next.