Thinking you just have no sense of self, and that's why your "personality" keeps changing.

Feeling like you're watching someone else operate your body, with no idea how or why.

Having strange deja vu moments where you feel like you've done something, but you don't remember any specific details.

Feeling like years of your life weren't actually lived by you, but by someone else that still exists somewhere in you.

Saying things that you can't control or don't agree with and not being able to do anything to fix it.

Am I the only one who feels so much worse after this happens? No hate towards the person, they’re allowed to miss whoever they want but..sometimes it hurts yk?

We go to a sewing club once a week it's mostly older women we're the youngest who goes but there's a new person who's not much older than us who started coming. Last week she just ever so casually mentioned how she thinks she might have DID and nobody said anything. Nobody told her she was faking, no "oh but that's too rare there's no chance you could have it", no treating people with DID like they were dangerous monsters they just believed her and went on as normal.

And for some reason that broke us, well the host, we live in fear that people will find out we suspect we might have DID or OSDD that they'll judge us or not believe us especially people we know and are close to. But maybe it didn't have to be that way and maybe people would be normal, and believe us and still care about us. But I feel like we've been ashamed for so long we can never come back from it.

Even just talking about it to our mother who actually came to us saying she thinks we might have DID a year or two?? (Time is hard) ago makes us want to curl up and die we've just shut down at every mention of it. But I don't think we can keep going on like this, we need help and we're not going to get it suffering in silence.