Tired as fuck. Waking up at 4am is not for the weak

so, i am taking swimming classes now. A friend of mine told me i swim like a dying salamander, which is completely untrue and frankly very hurtful. but i guess my dad also said it would be "good for my constitution" or whatever, so now i am stuck in a pool for an hour friday. it is actually kind of a disaster? the instructor keeps telling me to blow bubbles under the water, which just makes me feel like a giant, idiot toddler. plus my goggles are way too tight and they leave these huge red rings around my eyes. i look like a budget superhero whose superpower is just having a really bad allergy attack.also, chlorine smells terrible. it is like breathing in pure laundry detergent.

I am drifting in a sea of threats; yet all I do is sink deeper until I loose all my breath