#sweetsleep

Знаете, я только сейчас поняла, почему не стоит возвращаться к бывшим. Это больно и мучительно. Знать, что было во время расставания у него(в данном случае)и когда он узнаёт, что было у меня.. Остаётся очень не приятный осадок. Если вы хоть раз возвращались к своим бывшим, вы меня поймёте. Сейчас пишу это и снова заболело сердце, последнее время я слишком много нервничаю и переживаю, мама это заметила и мы сейчас стали часто общаться по душам, так сказать, это классно.. если честно)

Но сейчас не об этом. Я очень люблю своего парня, мы многое пережили, как я считаю, именно вдвоём. И надеюсь это того стоит. Мне всего 16,но уже было несколько отношений. Да, они совсем не были серьёзными, это дружба и переписки по ночам, но этот человек так запал мне в душу что-ли.. Я пытаюсь сделать как лучше для него,но иногда это только я так считаю, что будет лучше. Не буду углубляться) нет сейчас желания.. В одних из моих прошлых отношений, я была с мальчиком из-за которого у меня появилось огромное желание учится готовить для него. Он не был прям уж из какой то богатой семьи, вовсе нет.. Но он часто ходил и ездил куда до с родителями или родственниками. Первый раз я захотела готовить..для него.. Я вообще не очень то люблю готовить. Но сама бросила этого мальчика, до сих пор не знаю толком причину. Единственное, что могу сказать это то, что он начал перед нашим расставанием общаться с несколькими девушками (ну ладно, девочками), я очень боялась того, что он меня оставит. И решила отступить и оставить его.. Глупый поступок.. Но за то теперь я снова с человеком, которого так любила ещё лет с 13-14. И, теперь, когда ему плохо, я часто виню себя в этом. Я не сдерживала свои обещания, думала будет лучше, если он чего то не узнает, но совсем забыла о том, что всегда говорила.. Лучше правда, какая бы она не была, чем ложь и тем более, что то скрывать. И когда мы говорили об этом, я поняла, что очень виновата. Я клялась жизнью это человека, зная, что говорю не всё и где то скажу не много другое. И потом после этого обещания я долго терзала себя за это, но сейчас ещё сильнее) жаль нельзя забрать свои слова обратно. И время не повернуть вспять.. Я бы многое не сделала). Но я очень благодарна людям с которыми я когда либо общалась, я стала такой именно из-за них. Очень надеюсь, что через каких нибудь 10 лет, мы будем с тобой жить вместе и вспоминать все трудности через которые мы прошли. Я очень тебя люблю. Прости меня, я тебя давно за всё простила ✨

Hey, sorry, I need to unpack this question a bit before answering. First of all, Sansa is only 13, and won’t be turning 14 for months yet, until nearly the end of the year. (Her birthday is approximately at the start of “December”.) If the fan-made calendar is correct, as of the end of ADWD there’s still several months to go before 301AC, and Sansa’s last AFFC chapter was only in mid-300AC. So she has years before she can be considered a legal adult, since GRRM’s not doing the five-year-gap.

Secondly, I don’t think you’re aware of the first Sansa chapter of TWOW that GRRM released a little while back. You can read it here, if you like. It’s pretty important for updates about Robert Arryn and Lyn Corbray and Littlefinger and of course Sansa herself. So, once you’re up to date on that:

“Ser Lyn will remain my implacable enemy. He will speak of me with scorn and loathing to every man he meets, and lend his sword to every secret plot to bring me down.” That was when her suspicion turned to certainty. “And how shall you reward him for this service?” Littlefinger laughed aloud. “With gold and boys and promises, of course. Ser Lyn is a man of simple tastes, my sweetling. All he likes is gold and boys and killing.”

–AFFC, Alayne I

Lyn Corbray’s status as Littlefinger’s public enemy and secret ally is… complicated. He must appear to be publicly angry with Petyr Baelish, and oppose him in obnoxious ways, making enough of a spectacle of himself to create sympathy for the Lord Protector. He’ll also join up with any conspiracies against Littlefinger, and no doubt pass on the secrets of the conspirators to him. However…

Alayne could not help herself. She smiled and said, “My father is always pleased to be of service to one of Lord Robert’s leal bannermen. I’m sure he would be most delighted to help broker a marriage for you as well, Ser Lyn.” “How kind of him.” Corbray’s lips drew back in something that might have been meant as a smile, though it gave Alayne a chill. “But what need have I for heirs when I am landless and like to remain so, thanks to our Lord Protector? No. Tell your lord father I need none of his brood mares.” The venom in his voice was so thick that for a moment she almost forgot that Lyn Corbray was actually her father’s catspaw, bought and paid for. Or was he? Perhaps, instead of being Petyr’s man pretending to be Petyr’s foe, he was actually his foe pretending to be his man pretending to be his foe.Just thinking about it was enough to make her head spin.

–TWOW, Alayne I

As Sansa thinks, it’s possible Lyn might actually hate Littlefinger, and is just taking his bribes to do what he would do anyway. In which case, he can’t be trusted to keep doing that, and might betray Petyr at exactly the wrong moment – say, when given a command to attack Robert Arryn. But I’m sure that Littlefinger is quite aware of the odds of Lyn turning on him, and has factored those chances into his use of the man.

See, it’s also very possible that Littlefinger is using Lyn’s public animosity in another way, a way he hasn’t revealed to Sansa yet. Like, if something happens to Robert, Littlefinger might betray his catspaw and blame him for the event, whether Corbray was involved or not. Lyn would make an excellent patsy, and Littlefinger has stabbed his agents in the back before. Knowing the two men, I think it’s much more likely that Lyn will be the one that’s betrayed by their bargain.

So, no, I don’t think Littlefinger would ever actually send Lyn Corbray to harm Robert. Besides, why would he need a catspaw’s sword when he’s already poisoning the boy with sweetsleep? The TWOW chapter didn’t give any apparent indications that the toxicosis is getting worse (no nosebleeds or anything Maester Colemon warned about), but Robert is still being drugged, with “a strong dose of sweetmilk” before the start of the tourney opening feast… so Sansa’s next chapter could have some very unpleasant surprises in it.

Though on the other hand, we haven’t seen the actual Tourney of the Winged Knights yet, and GRRM does love his spectacle events. Also, the animosity between Robert and Harry Hardyng has only just been established, and we haven’t seen his reaction to learning Alayne and Harry are betrothed (right after she told him she could never marry the lord of the Vale as she’s a bastard, so that will be a wound). Not to mention the whole potential thing where Ser Shadrich the Mad Mouse knows Alayne is Sansa and may kidnap her for the bounty. So likely if the poisoning plot does go somewhere, it won’t be in the very next Sansa chapter, but later in the book. Whenever it happens, though, when poor Sweetrobin drops dead (either according to Petyr’s plans, or unexpectedly, the poison working too quickly), don’t be surprised if Lyn Corbray is blamed for it.

As for Sansa figuring out Littlefinger’s plans and working to save Robert… it would be nice, wouldn’t it? I don’t expect it to happen – Sansa thinks sweetsleep is a medicine and has no idea it’s a poison, and Colemon has been stupidly cryptic about why Robert needs to stop using it – but it would be nice. Ah well.

Like Ned says, I’d rather entrust a child to a pit viper than Tywin Lannister. He fucks up children beyond dysfunction, and poor Sweetrobin’s got enough troubles without adding Tywin issues. Not to mention Tywin was Robert Baratheon’s idea for fostering his namesake only because Cersei suggested it, and she suggested it in order to hold Sweetrobin as a hostage in case Lysa knew anything about what Jon Arryn had been researching about her and Jaime, so it’s a terrible idea all around.

Ned and Cat might have been the best choice for fostering in a world where the plot doesn’t happen and Robert can be raised among Bran and Rickon – their athleticism and high-spiritedness would overwhelm him at first of course, but everything would probably overwhelm him at first, so. Stannis might have been best if you want a quieter environment with not many other children to focus on or deal with (just his squires and Shireen). The culture shock would probably be less than the North (well, excluding Melisandre that is), and Stannis is a knight as well as a lord, important for Robert’s future. And Stannis and Selyse are about as different from Lysa as you can get, really. (As Catelyn and most of her children share Lysa’s Tully look, that might be somewhere between disturbing and comforting to Sweetrobin.) Still, often I think Jon Arryn chose Dragonstone not for Stannis as such, but for the island’s potential in keeping a child safe in case war breaks out, which is something he was expecting to happen.

As for poor Robert’s health… it’s hard to tell. Lysa was really on the edge of Munchausen-by-proxy with him, it wasn’t just “coddling” – however, he does definitely have epilepsy (“the shaking sickness”) and the treatment for that in a medieval-type era is not particularly spectacular anyway, not to mention the stigma. Handling him firmly as Stannis would or even Ned might wouldn’t prevent the seizures from happening, nor would there be any real medicine to control them. Though hopefully Maester Pylos or Luwin would at least stop with the goddamned leeching. Not to mention not poisoning him with sweetsleep, ffs. Seriously, it’s impossible to tell if Sweetrobin is genetically weak from Jon Arryn’s old/bad sperm, or teratogenically from the effects of moon tea on Lysa’s uterus, or has just suffered from medical malpractice his entire life.

I mean, seriously, Maester Colemon, istg:

“My lord, your blood needs thinning,” said Maester Colemon. “It is the bad blood that makes you angry, and the rage that brings on the shaking.”

“His lordship’s spells have grown worse since Lady Lysa’s death. More frequent and more violent. I bleed the child as often as I dare, and mix him dreamwine and milk of the poppy to help him sleep, but…”“He sleeps twelve hours a day,” Petyr said.

“Lady Lysa would give his lordship her breast whenever he grew overwrought. Archmaester Ebrose claims that mother’s milk has many heathful properties.”

“Perhaps a pinch of sweetsleep in his milk, have you tried that? Just a pinch, to calm him and stop his wretched shaking.”“A pinch?” The apple in the maester’s throat moved up and down as he swallowed. “One small pinch… perhaps, perhaps. Not too much, and not too often, yes, I might try…”

Uggggh. The leeching, the drugging, the breast milk suggestion, that Colemon knows sweetsleep is a poison and that it’s dangerous to keep using it as a medicine, that he knew it was dangerous when Littlefinger suggested it as a treatment in the first place, that he doesn’t have the guts to stop giving it to Robert on his own volition even though the boy’s starting to show signs of toxicosis, ugh, I haaate him. Even if he did have the right idea on how to treat Jon Arryn when he was poisoned, he’s an awful maester, just awful. Any fostering that gets Sweetrobin away from him would be at least slightly better.

Anyway. Could Robert ever be healthy? Maybe, maybe not. It might be the way he’s been treated as an invalid his whole life, medically mistreated his whole life, has irreparably damaged him in addition to his condition of epilepsy. (Note also that he has “weak eyes” and is painfully thin, which suggests he may have been a premature birth.) Or it could be that not being coddled or leeched, getting exercise and fresh air, would greatly improve his health. (I think someone may have done a Secret Garden-style fanfic with him? I know there’s a lovely fanart.) Though at this time I think the best thing to help Sweetrobin would be to stop poisoning him, but y’know that’s not what Littlefinger wants to happen.

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