stupid rant. stupid thoughts. stupid feelings. get awayyy!!!! sobbb sobb!!!
theres something very endearing about these music videos. i know i resonate with it. the futuristic and fantasitcal setting never takes attention away from our protagonist. who calls themselves a monster, a devil, an alien, or robot. who uses this world as a place to freely exclaim their desires, needs, and wants. they start by describing how they look and act and feel. its confident. later its revealed that they are shy and may even lie about how they actually feel. theres a burst of action after this confession: i've been lying and hiding all this time, but right now i will be honest. "love me" treat me like im the most important person in the world. in your life. dont make me doubt myself and hide again.
a creature, non-human, who wants to be taken care of. they make themselves pretty. its loud and attention grabbing. they dont actually want to verbally tell someone what they want though, they were never raised or praised for being honest about their desires.
it kinda mocks how badly the expectations of how someone should act fail. no human should be expected to choose between pure, quiet, obedience or inhumane indulgence in their desires. thats impossible. oh, and if i had to choose, i'd rather be "inhumane"
usually they are about romance and sex, but they can also refer to childhood and youth. neglected from the adults who you're told should help you and love you. it leaves a lasting impact on those kids trying to learn how to mature and even how to feel human. how to be normal. they are full of doubts. if theres no one to look up to for refrence, how do i know if im doing this right?
im hiding and suppressing myself because thats how i learned to be praised and accepted. but i'll never get what i want if i continue so let me tell just for now, exactly what i want.
even if it doesnt look like me. even if i break tabboo.
"love me"
i do have a question though. is the audience one person that the protagonist loves? or is it more of a journal entry. "in this big stage far away from earth and humans, i will tell my deepest honest desires. i just want to feel loved."..... ....im aro ace. so i dont get the need to pursue a boyfriend or spouse. or to pursue someone "hot". so, it's my blind spot in these mv's. maybe they are talking to someone, but i dont see that because i dont feel the need to have someone like that. anyhoo. thats the only reason why im phrasing that as a question. i feel like its the latter, but i may be wrong.
