#suyao

@madtomedgar posting about JGY brothel trauma in the context of xiyao sex is making me think about suyao sex because they’re now hopelessly triangulated in my mind. Just thinking about D/s stuff and how for SMS the association is with Lan discipline and the promise that submission will make you a better stronger more valuable person while for JGY the association is with subservience to people who see you as an unclean object. I think suyao D/s is unsafe insane and under negotiated but never degrading or dehumanizing. Even when he’s letting his inner sadist out JGY is also getting off on *not* being That Guy. There would be so much praise and appreciation, or scolding SMS for getting hurt and not being careful enough with himself~ While SMS is very much enjoying the discipline without the shame and inadequacy