Even though shes monogamous, i think her neurodivergence makes her more understanding that the pre established rules of things are kinda arbitrary and limiting.

Y'all are genuinely the only things I have left (besides my cat ofc) that keep me from wanting to throw myself off the nearest 34ft building.

All of you have been the best support network I've ever had as a Trans Woman.

I love each and every on of you amazing fuckers!

DAY 01/30

Time to turn one day into day one!🙌

After much soul searching I realized that my two largest causes for anxiety no longer exist. So maybe the anti-anxiety meds were swinging me too far the other way? This was a frightening thought because I'm physically addicted to them. Yay me.

I talked to my doctor about it and they agreed that lowering the dose was the thing to do. They chose a fast taper, which meant I was on half my dose in two weeks.

I'll gloss over the next couple of months because physical withdrawal is, to put it mildly, unpleasant. And dealing with med changes can also be unpleasant. I felt I could do it because I finally had a support network I could trust and I wanted to have fun again.

Smash cut to now. I'm still addicted but the lower dose is taking care of that. The important thing is that it seems like the change worked.

I'm writing! I'm doing art stuff! I'm playing online here! I'm kicking back and watching a movie! I WANT TO DO THESE THINGS AGAIN!

Milieu Control Perhaps the most important aspect of what makes a "high-demand group" is information and communication control. Members are often isolated from "outsiders", including outside sources not approved by leaders within the group, and family or friends that are not part of the group. Members are often made to "cut off" family and friends that are considered hostile toward the group.

Mystical Manipulation High-demand groups, particularly religious ones, will often use or manipulate events in order to further their message and bolster their doctrine. Examples of this are making prophecies or predictions that get repeatedly altered or forgotten about, or pointing to past predictions as being confirmed by a current event.

Demand for Purity Humans are flawed, and high demand groups exploit this fact by demanding perfection of their members. Sometimes, groups will even acknowledge that perfection is unachievable, but that individuals are perpetually at fault for being the only reason they cannot achieve it. This enhances feelings of guilt and shame, leading the member to feel as if the only way to improve themselves is to seek help from the group.

Confession High control groups exploit their members emotionally by having them "confess" supposed wrongdoings to another member or members. This makes the member vulnerable and constantly alert to their own and others' "sins". It is the promotion of hyper-policing of self and peers.

Sacred Science The group's ideology is held as the ultimate, capital-T "Truth"; it is the one standard by which all aspects of life must be measured. This often leads to science-denial, conspiracy-minded thinking, and isolating oneself based on the belief that others are unenlightened.

Loaded Language Members of cults will often reveal that they are a member of an in-group in the use of language. The group creates unique vocabulary, or changes/enhances the use of a term in order to create a doctrine of thought. This tactic helps to reform the member's thought process by embedding concepts into their minds that can be easily repeated and recognized through the repeated use of a simple phrase or word.

Doctrine Over Person Group belief is held as the ultimate "truth", trumping personal experience, beliefs, values, or reasoning. If the member feels or believes that something about the group is "off" or "untrue", they are taught to dismiss those thoughts and to internalize guilt about having "doubts".