Update! Living in new spot & Being a spoiled Girlfriend
Living in my new spot isn’t so bad.. Kinda. At first it was scary cause I didn’t know my roommates. Still kinda haven’t met all of them. I honestly mind my business and use the bathroom and never linger around the hallways. I been dream house hunting to keep my mind off the chaos around my place. I only have to be there for 12 months before moving out with my boyfriend. So I am going to try to enjoy the solitude and problem solve the bathroom anxiety. I only been showering at my aunts or my sister’s spot, I refuse to step foot in that shower, sorry not sorry.
On to the juicy parts, I determined and realize he doesn’t listen to me. So what I been doing is waiting on him to ask me questions instead. Because I realize he won’t listen to my yapping, even when I am in the right. And how I am able to remain my composure when it comes to fornication, is to imagine myself in that gorgeous house without having a job. Or I like to think about my past arrangement. Speaking of that, I did see him in passing and caught up with him. Not surprised he didn’t mention before that he was staying in the same spot he works at. Now that I have my own spot, I’m now torn if I really do want to make him my side piece. Ladies you understand when the job isn’t done right, I need to spin the block. However, my sister just advised me that I shouldn’t invite him over.. And I think she is right in a way. Cause he could have let me go with knowing he was commuting instead of living at his current spot. Honestly I just need to focus on the bag. I need to not be a DAMN BIRD and become a TIGER. Ugh it’s embarrassing cause my favorite animal is a penguin. Although, chatting with my closest friend. She informed me if I could separate my emotions from him and use him for what I need. Hmm.. But maybe spinning the block on something new would be fun too. I’ll update y’all on what I will do or have done. My birthday is coming up so I need to ask my man money for my hair, nail and eyelashes. I have no clue what I want to do for my birthday. But I think me and the girlies are going to do a spa day after a night of clubbing. Honestly I just want to relax and get a massage and not be bothered on my birthday. And maybe a sushi boat as well to eat alone in the dark with laptop screen light being the only source of light. JAJA. Hopefully when I update you all back I will be in my DREAM HOUSE.
