It's been 1 year since I made up my mind to create the comic "Sugar Addiction" and started working on the draft. I've been drawing SA manuscripts every day for this entire year.

After receiving advice from various people, I'm still continuing to revise the draft.

Every time I look back on it, I'm not satisfied and end up making corrections.Thinking about having to start the rough draft, it's really tough. I don't have any reference materials for drawing backgrounds, and I can't imagine how to get through the rough draft process.

Today at precisely 9:24 EST, I made a decision. I decided that it was time to make a huge change in my life. 

You see, I have an addiction. It isn’t your usual addiction - like drugs or alcohol. My addiction is to something that not a lot of people recognize as being an addicting substance. 

For years, I have struggled with sugar. I could easily drink multiple cans of coke, eat bags and bags of candies and inhale large pieces of cake without thought. That said, things have changed. 

Maybe my age is catching up to me or maybe I have just finally eaten too much junk in my lifetime, but now I am suffering in more ways than one. I am at a ridiculously unhealthy weight. I experience pain doing the simplest of things - like walking up and down stairs. 

And I still cannot go through a day without consuming an insane amount of sugar. 

Some may call this an eating disorder - and I am sure it is. But, this is my addiction. I physically cannot stay away from candy. I go through all of the withdrawal symptoms that a drug addict would go through. I sweat. I get the shakes. I feel sick. Headaches. Lightheadedness. Fatigue. Irritability. Anxiety...

I am telling you now that this is an addiction. This is my addiction. 

Now, what has changed to make me want to quit sugar once and for all?

I don’t know. Maybe it was the fact that I cannot fit into the usual size jeans that I always wear. Maybe it’s the fact that I struggle at work fitting into tight areas that used to be easy just a few months ago. Maybe it’s the fact that I got winded walking to Tim Hortons yesterday. Maybe it’s the fact that I actually saw how much money I spend on junk a day. 

I really don’t know what the reason is. 

All I know is that at 9:24am, I told myself enough is enough. if I keep going down this road, I won’t be here much longer. I have a lot to live for and sugar is slowly killing me. I need to quit. 

Looking back now, that seems pretty half-hearted, however, I need to do this. 

I have to do this. 

I want to eat chocolate so badly. There have been so many times today that I thought about driving to the grocery store to buy a pint of ice cream, chocolate, cookies, and cupcakes. I just want all of the sweet things. I told myself that I have to make it at least a week. 

Breakfast

A cup of white tea 

Lunch

Spanish Beans over Potato 

1 potato 1 cup black beans  1 clove garlic, chopped  1 dash salt  1/2 tsp. oregano  1 tsp. cumin  1 1/2 tbsp. balsamic vinegar  dash black pepper  1. Place the beans in a pot with garlic, oregano, balsamic vinegar, and cumin. Simmer on low while the potato bakes.  2. Preheat oven to 450 degrees. 3. Wash potato and dry.  4. Poke a few holes in the potato and bake for 50 minutes.  5. After the potato cools, slice it in half. 6. Top with black beans and garnish with tomato. Salt and pepper to taste.

Dinner 

Veggie pizza with no cheese 

I received the thumbnail booklet for "Sugar Addiction" that I printed for pitching to publishers…! It's incredibly thick and heavy, much more than I expected…! It's printed in B5 size, but the actual magazine will be trimmed on the sides and become a vertical booklet. It might end up being more difficult to hold than I anticipated…