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“I didn't kill any of them, it was them or me… And I don't remember making any rational decisions, it was all… instinct.” And that served to portray him as a savage, an uncontrolled animal. 

Jeon Jungkook is a werewolf far from home.

In the new city, he discovers that things work differently than in his old pack. When he finds himself alone in a delicate and violent situation, with his only safe space invaded, he needs to react and show his claws to defend himself.

Meanwhile, he reveals his deepest feelings to a reclusive vampire while lying to those of his own kind.

⚠️ Disclaimer: This is a tarot-based psychological interpretation meant for entertainment and introspection only. It does not reflect the real Min Yoongi as a person, nor does it claim any authority on his private life. This post explores archetypes, spiritual unrest, and emotional terrain through symbolic intuition. Don't take it as gospel.

🧷Note from lumi: This is long and not sugarcoated. If you made it here,thank you for reading.I have poured my entire heart and spleen on this,thank you so much.

What are Yoongi’s fears, his darker and hidden side?

✦ TAROT SPREAD

(Nine of Cups,The Devil,The Magician)

Yoongi might look like he has it all that soft, content smile, the quiet nods of gratitude, the life that seems so full on paper but under the surface? It’s more complicated than that. The Nine of Cups here doesn’t feel like “I’ve made it.” It feels more like“Am I even allowed to want more than this?” There’s this unspoken ache in him like he’s been so focused on creating for others, holding space for everyone else’s dreams, that he’s forgotten how to be selfish. And not in a bad way. In a human way. Like… he’s scared that asking for more happiness, more love, more peace, would somehow be greedy. That enjoying too much might mean it’ll all get taken away. He’s the type to say “I’m fine” with a little smile even when part of him is longing for more. But that longing gets buried. Because deep down, he’s probably thinking“If I reach for more, I might break what I’ve built.” The Nine of Cups becomes a kind of emotional armor. “Look, I’m good. I’m grateful. I don’t need anything else.” But it’s a quiet kind of fear, too that if he dares to want more, it’ll make him ungrateful or unworthy. Sometimes the life he’s worked so hard for starts to feel like a beautiful cage and the worst part? He’s the one locking the door.

This is the rawest part of Yoongi’s shadow. There’s this low, nearly invisible hum in the background of his mind one that never really shuts off. It’s made of control, of obsession, of trying to keep everything in its place because if he lets even one piece fall, he fears it’ll all unravel. There’s a quiet, relentless pressure to be perfect, to be composed, to be useful and underneath that? A darker fear he barely lets himself acknowledge: the fear that if he truly let go of the pain that shaped him, if he actually allowed himself to heal, he might lose the very thing that makes him who he is. His creativity, his intensity, his genius,it all came from that same dark well. The same sleepless nights, the same emotional collapse, the same moments he thought he wouldn’t make it. And he doesn’t say this out loud, but there’s a part of him that wonders… if I stop bleeding, will I still make art that cuts as deeply? That question haunts him. He’s built something extraordinary out of his suffering, and while he craves peace, he also clings to that chaos because at least it feels familiar. It gives him control. It gives him power but deep down, there’s a bruised part of his soul that believes he doesn’t deserve love unless he’s earning it, creating something out of it, turning it into gold. There’s this aching belief that if he’s not useful, if he’s not working, if he’s not producing something valuable, then maybe he’s not worthy of being chosen at all.

Outwardly, Yoongi comes across as a master of his craft sharp, capable, deliberate, someone who knows exactly what he’s doing. But deep down, there’s this creeping, quiet fear that maybe, just maybe, he’s a fraud. The Magician in this shadow context isn’t about confidence or skill; it’s about the ache of imposter syndrome. He worries that his talent might not be entirely real that what people admire could just be clever timing, good luck, or a carefully constructed illusion. There's this subtle guilt he carries, too, over how much control he has over how people see him. He’s hyper-aware of how his words, his music, even the silence he maintains, shape his image. And sometimes that power scares him. It makes him ask himself the hard questions late at night Am I still being me, or am I just becoming who they expect? The real fear isn’t whether people love him,it's whether they actually know him. Whether he still knows himself and in those quieter moments, when the world isn’t watching, the darker part of him wonders: You can make people believe anything. But can you sit with the truth of who you are when there’s no one left to perform for?

What are Yoongi’s toxic traits and behaviors in relationships (family, friends, and romantic) ?

✦ TAROT SPREAD

(Knight of Pentacles,King of Wands,Four of Cups,Eight of Wands (Bottom of the Deck)

This is his obsession with structure, routine, and responsibility not because he loves it, but because somewhere along the way, he began equating productivity with survival. It’s not just about ambition anymore; it’s about identity. If he’s not working, not progressing, not creating something that lasts then who is he, really? He’s been conditioned to believe his value lies in what he builds, not who he is when everything is still. So he throws himself into the grind with quiet desperation, waking up early, pushing through the fatigue, checking off goals like he’s afraid of what might rise to the surface if he ever slows down but beneath that calm discipline is a gnawing fear: what if no matter how much he accomplishes, he never feels fulfilled? What if he climbs every mountain, checks every box, and it all just… feels the same? That grief, the subtle ache of time slipping by while he's too focused on the next thing to savor the moment lives inside him like a ghost. He rarely talks about it, maybe even avoids thinking about it, but it haunts him during quiet nights when no one’s watching and the noise finally fades.

Yoongi has this huge inner fire that burns quietly, intensely. It's not flashy, but it's potent the kind of presence that can command a room without saying a word. And yet, one of his deepest fears tied to this fire is the possibility of being consumed by it. He’s terrified of the darker side of power including the pride, the ego, the way success can subtly erode the softness in a person. He doesn’t want to become someone who’s feared more than loved, someone who people respect but feel disconnected from. He’s hyper aware of how easily power can create distance, and that’s something that haunts him. Sometimes he pulls back emotionally not because he doesn't care, but because staying too open feels dangerous. He’s learned that too much vulnerability can make you lose your center, and so he keeps a certain distance,just enough to keep himself intact. There's also this intense passion within him, like creative voltage running through his veins. But that intensity can be overwhelming, even to him. He fears it might burn others if he lets it fully show, or worse, burn him out if he doesn't keep it under control. So he channels it into what he can master his music, his leadership, his craft. He turns it into something useful, something admirable. But in doing so, he also isolates himself. The very thing that makes him powerful is the same thing that makes him feel alone.

At the core, Yoongi isn’t emotionally numb,he’s overwhelmed by how deeply he feels. That’s the part most people miss. When he withdraws or seems distant, it’s not because he’s cold or doesn’t care. It’s because he’s terrified of what might surface if he lets those emotions rise unchecked. There’s this quiet ache in him, a kind of heaviness that settles in his chest when things get too still, too quiet. He distracts himself with structure, with endless projects, with music that feels safe to pour himself into because facing his own heart head on feels like standing at the edge of something bottomless. If he looks at the cup too long, he might drown in it. And the truth is, sometimes he already has. He doesn’t always know what to do with joy when it shows up. A part of him hesitates, freezes. Even when love or peace is offered to him sincerely, he tends to question it. Not because he doesn’t want it,but because deep down, there’s this whisper: "Do I really deserve this? What if it disappears the moment I relax?" So instead of reaching out, he emotionally flinches. He pulls back just enough to stay safe, but not so far that people notice. It’s a form of self-protection that slowly starts to look like self-sabotage. He knows how to function with sadness. He knows how to keep going with pressure.

What is the worst thing Yoongi 'can do' to someone emotionally, mentally, and spiritually, knowingly or unknowingly ?

✦ TAROT SPREAD

(Justice, The Chariot, Eight of Pentacles)

Yoongi’s emotional shadow can manifest as emotional coldness disguised as fairness. When hurt or betrayed, he can go into a deeply logical, detached mindset where he no longer feels the connection. He may withhold softness or closeness in the name of what’s fair, delivering cold truths like knives and standing behind the idea that “you get what you give.” but in doing so, he can emotionally devastate someone who expected warmth or reconciliation. Justice as his shadow becomes punishment: cutting someone out completely, shutting them down with rationality, refusing to budge even if it hurts the person deeply. The worst emotional wound? Making someone feel like they deserved to be abandoned or emotionally erased even if they just made a human mistake.

When Yoongi locks into tunnel vision, when he’s determined to move forward no matter the cost, he can mentally bulldoze people especially those who love him or want to be close. He might become hyper-focused on a goal or principle and ignore the emotional wreckage left behind. This is the kind of mindset that says, “I warned you. Don’t get in my way.” In relationships or close bonds, he can mentally exhaust others by constantly pushing for control, consistency, or emotional discipline. It can make someone feel like they have to earn their place beside him, or keep up with his mental pace or be left behind. Unknowingly, he could make someone feel small, incapable, or mentally unstable simply because they can’t match his speed or clarity when he’s in this mode.

The Eight of Pentacles shows that he could unknowingly drain someone spiritually by making them feel like they’ll never be good enough unless they’re constantly working, proving, or perfecting themselves. He can make someone feel like they’re on a never ending self improvement loop just to deserve his time, energy, or emotional presence.In the worst case scenario, Yoongi could spiritually exhaust someone by being emotionally unavailable but still requiring effort from them making them feel like they have to keep showing up, keep giving, keep fixing themselves just to stay close to him. That’s the unseen cost: being around him could feel like walking on eggshells, even if he never asks you to.

What has Yoongi actually 'done' to people (The Worst of the Worst) ?

✦ TAROT SPREAD

(The World ,Five of Cups, Knight of Wands)

Yoongi has, intentionally or not, made some people feel like they were part of something cosmic like they finally mattered. Like they were seen, understood, chosen. This card shows that he’s capable of giving people the illusion of emotional wholeness like their story found its final chapter with him. The pain he left before the ending ever arrived.

Yoongi has left people in a state of emotional mourning for the version of themselves they were when they were with him. He may have let someone down in a moment that really mattered. Or he gave so much affection, then emotionally withdrew so suddenly, it felt like death.He didn’t just walk away,he left people stuck watching what could’ve been, replaying it over and over in their minds.

Yoongi has burned through people’s lives like a wildfire intensely one day, completely gone the next. Passionate, inspired, romantic, comforting then suddenly distant, erratic, unreachable.

He may have swept someone off their feet, made them feel alive again, filled their world with color.....only to vanish or lose interest without explanation. His attention could have felt like sunlight, but when he took it away, it left people cold and doubting everything.

The Knight of Wands, in his shadow, can be impulsive, emotionally inconsistent, and selfish in love. Not because he doesn’t care, but because he’s always chasing something and people get caught in the flames.The worst thing Yoongi has done isn’t cruelty. It’s disappearing. It’s making people believe they were part of his forever, only to treat them like a chapter. It’s giving someone the world, then walking away like they imagined it.

What’s the worst thing Yoongi has done to himself?

✦ TAROT SPREAD

(The Star ,Six of Pentacles, King of Pentacles)

The Star is a card of hope, renewal, vulnerability, divine restoration but in this context, it reveals something deeply tragic.Yoongi has become a symbol of hope for others at the cost of his own.He has poured out parts of himself emotionally, artistically, spiritually so others could feel less alone, feel inspired, feel saved and yet… in doing so, he’s often neglected his own right to fully heal.He turned his own inner child into a lighthouse for others to find safety in, while he stayed lost at sea. (the water body represents specifically that in the star card).

Yoongi has spiritually under valued himself. This card speaks of imbalance the kind that looks generous on the outside, but is driven by a deep fear of being too much if he ever really needed anything. He’s given time, support, resources, energy, emotional labor… and likely struggled to ask for it back. He may have built his entire identity around being useful,reliable,the one who listens and the one who helps.He’s poured from an empty cup for years. Sometimes believing that if he just gives a little more, maybe someone will stay maybe someone will prove he doesn’t have to constantly perform to be worth something.He’s trained his nervous system to equate love with effort and when the effort stops… the love disappears orr so he fears.

The King of Pentacles is stable, wealthy, respected, grounded. He’s built an empire but in this shadow context, it reveals that Yoongi has sacrificed emotional depth for security. He’s chosen consistency, leadership, control but at what cost? This King doesn’t cry. He shows up. Pays the bills. Finishes the work but inside? He’s lonely. He fears letting go of his image. He fears being seen as fragile. He’s worn stoicism like armor while a part of him longs to be held without needing to achieve anything.He turned his soul into a brand. He prioritized stability over softness and now he’s trapped in a life where he’s everyone’s rock but has no idea where to fall himself.

Do BTS and Yoongi’s family know about the ways he’s hurt himself (emotionally, mentally) ?

✦ TAROT SPREAD

(The Moon,Ten of Wands,Queen of Cups,Five of Swords (Bottom of the Deck))

Yoongi’s inner pain is hidden behind a carefully constructed fog. His family and BTS may intuitively feel something’s wrong like shadows moving beneath the surface but they can’t grasp the full truth of it. He doesn’t tell them everything. Not because he’s being deceptive, but because he doesn’t know how to name his pain without downplaying it. He might speak vaguely, use humor, or change the subject. Even when he’s trying to be honest, it comes in cryptic through lyrics, brief comments, silence.His members likely feel when he’s emotionally withdrawn or haunted, but The Moon suggests they walk on eggshells around that part of him. It’s like looking at someone underwater, you know they’re not okay, but you can’t quite reach them.

BTS and his family are very aware that Yoongi burdens himself. They’ve watched him take on too much, keep pushing through physical pain, overwork, and emotional exhaustion all while refusing help.They’ve likely tried to intervene at times, but Yoongi’s response might have been calm deflection or insisting “he’s fine.”The Ten of Wands shows them watching him bend, strain, and quietly break, while knowing he’ll never admit it unless he’s already past his limit.The Ten of Wands shows them watching him bend, strain, and quietly break, while knowing he’ll never admit it unless he’s already past his limit.

This is likely a maternal or feminine presence,possibly a family member or even a BTS member with a nurturing spirit (like Jimin or Jin). This person knows Yoongi is in pain not because he says it, but because they feel it. They have the emotional intelligence and softness to sense his wounds before he speaks,but even with all their empathy, this Queen sometimes feels useless. Because Yoongi, being who he is, doesn’t want to “worry” people. He may respond with a smile, or distract with sarcasm, or simply vanish for a while and that leaves this person heartbroken.

BTS and his family may feel conflicted. They love him so much, but sometimes they feel like they’re fighting a war he won’t let them into. They might blame themselves for not noticing earlier or they might feel frustrated, knowing he’s hurting and not being able to fix it.This card also shows the emotional cost of being close to Yoongi. People love him, but his emotional walls are sharp. If they push too hard, he retreats or reacts. So over time, they may have learned to back off not because they don’t care, but because they’re trying not to make it worse.

People love him, but his emotional walls are sharp. If they push too hard, he retreats or reacts. So over time, they may have learned to back off because they’re trying not to make it worse.

Yoongi’s mental health journey since debut

✦ TAROT SPREAD

𝟐𝟎𝟏𝟑–𝟏𝟔: (Five of Swords, Temperance, Three of Swords)

In his early years, Yoongi was a walking contradiction: outwardly composed, inwardly unraveling. The Five of Swords shows us a young man silently battling with himself, his body, and his purpose. This was a time when he didn’t just feel misunderstood, he expected to be. He internalized failure, emotional isolation, and guilt. He likely took on more responsibility than he admitted, constantly trying to prove he was strong enough, smart enough, or “chill” enough. Temperance says he tried to keep the balance maybe through music, maybe through control but emotionally? He was drowning in unspoken sadness. The Three of Swords confirms it: Yoongi was quietly brokenhearted. Whether it was grief from his past, imposter syndrome, self-worth issues, or the sheer emotional toll of debuting, he endured more than he expressed. And worst of all? He thought he had to. That was the heartbreak,not just pain, but believing he didn’t deserve help for it.

𝟐𝟎𝟏𝟕–𝟐𝟎𝟐𝟑: (The Hanged Man, Nine of Swords, Five of Swords)

The Hanged Man shows a period of emotional paralysis,where Yoongi might have stopped chasing external success and started confronting internal pain. Maybe through therapy, maybe through solitude, maybe through making Agust D his confession booth. He wasn't “getting better,” he was learning how to sit in the dark without letting it devour him. The Nine of Swords confirms this: anxiety, insomnia, guilt, self-blame. He may have cried in hotel bathtubs, on studio floors, in soundproof spaces where no one could hear him. It wasn’t dramatic. It was numb. The kind of suffering that eats you slowly. The Five of Swords appears again,suggesting he kept sabotaging his own healing. He might have pushed people away when he needed connection most. He might have told himself he didn’t deserve softness. This was the era he stopped pretending to be fine and started trying to understand why he wasn’t.

𝟐𝟎𝟐𝟒–𝗉𝗋𝖾𝗌𝖾𝗇𝗍: (Five of Swords, Death, Six of Pentacles)

Yoongi is actively shedding his old emotional patterns. Death is not about dying,it’s about choosing to stop surviving and finally start living. He's letting go of the belief that he has to be the strong one all the time. He’s burying the version of himself that only existed to serve others, to write pain into poetry, to control what couldn’t be fixed. The Five of Swords lingers his shadow isn’t gone. He still wrestles with mistrust, with the voice in his head that says, “They’ll leave if they see the real you" but the Six of Pentacles is his light: he’s finally learning how to receive. Not just love from others, but mercy from himself. He’s beginning to understand that rest is not weakness, asking for help is not failure, and joy does not need to be earned through suffering. He’s rebalancing the scales. He’s no longer giving his soul away just to feel worthy. He’s honoring the healing.

Is Yoongi fine after coming back from the military?

✦ TAROT SPREAD

(The Star, Ten of Wands, Page of Cups (Reversed))

Yoongi’s return from military service is quietly fragile. The Star tells us he’s hopeful but this hope is soft, tentative, and easily bruised. He wants to believe that his fans still love him, that his place in BTS still matters, that he can still be himself even if he’s changed. But the Ten of Wands reveals the pressure he’s carrying the burden of expectation, duty, relevance. He might feel he has to “be strong,” “be stable,” “be inspiring,” even if he’s still finding his emotional feet. The Page of Cups reversed shows he’s struggling to access his vulnerability. He might feel emotionally immature or blocked. He could be second-guessing his creative voice, feeling uncertain about how to reconnect with himself and others without performance. He’s likely being kind to everyone except himself. He wants to heal but he hasn’t quite given himself permission yet.

How can we make Yoongi feel better as Fans?

✦ TAROT SPREAD

(The Hermit, Four of Wands, The Moon)

Let him rest. Let him go quiet without panicking. Let him disappear without thinking he’s forgotten you. The Hermit says he’s finding his way back to himself not as an idol, but as a person. Celebrate him even when he’s not performing. The Four of Wands wants us to love him in stillness when he’s healing, growing, changing. That’s the real homecoming.The Moon is everything he hides.....the self-doubt, the fear of fading, the inner child who still wonders if he’s too much or not enough. Love him in the silence. Trust that your soft, steady love reaches him even when he can’t say it back.

✨ Lumi’s lil footnote✨ ok real talk…this tarot reading literally took me 2 full days, and ngl it was so energy draining I actually felt sick during parts of it. the energy around this was heavy, raw, and emotionally intense. but I really wanted to do it right. this isn’t just a reading, it’s my tribute to yoongi’s healing and resilience, esp after his military return. if you’re reading this: send him your love. 💜 — Lumi

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Plot: What happens when the man you practically simp over in high school, is right now, sitting across you after almost 10 years of not seeing him? Worse? You’re here for an appointment for therapy and he’s your psychologist.

Pairing: SeniorStudent!Yoongi x JuniorStudent!Reader —> Psychologist! Yoongi x Artist!Reader

Genre: Fluff, slight age gap, slice of life, a bit of angst, schoolmates to lovers(?)

Warnings: talks about mental and death…erm lemme know if you found any disturbing heh Also mentions of earthquake:< (Praying for those who got affected by it)

Word count: How do u guys count here?

A/N: here's the part 3 y'all!! Thank you for the love and support this story is getting so far^^ It makes me want to keep going:) Comment your @ if you guys want to be added on the taglist:) Btw, the earthquake scene (hs days) actually happened (to me), I don't want it to make it seem like I'm making fun of these kind of stuff, so...just letting y'all know. This part was already written before the news, didn't want it to come off as mocking or something:<

part 1 part 2 read here^^