#suddenlybucky

Send me “alt!” and I’ll introduce you to a character I’ve rped in the past, want to play in the future or are currently playing somewhere else!

I got into tumblr roleplay with my blog for Bucky/the Winter Soldier (suddenlybucky), and Bucky is a Very Important Muse who got me through one heck of an icky rough patch in life, all of the applause for Bucky.  I’m not sure how well I could introduce him by writing something new because it’s been a while since I got in his head, so here’s a starter I wrote for that blog.  I mean I guess you could go dig it up and answer it but I wouldn’t reply in 2385629586 years if ever because the blog’s on a possibly indefinite hiatus

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And the soldier stopped hitting Steve, and the soldier looked at Steve in frozen horror, because there’s only one person who has ever been with him to the end of the line.  The beam that falls shortly after could have knocked Steve into the water below, could have given the soldier a choice whether or not to go after him, given the soldier a choice whether or not to stay.

But it’s the soldier who falls.  It isn’t even a decision, for Steve, to go after him.  They get to shore okay, and the soldier has enough fight in him to overpower Steve and flee…but Steve doesn’t even want to try to stop him, goes ahead and tells him to leave if he wants to.  And he can’t.  He just can’t.  Not right away, anyways.  He keeps putting it off, and then a search party comes for Steve.  The soldier tries to leave then, but there’s too many of them, they overpower him, they hurt him and shove him to the ground, and nothing Steve says will make them stop.  Betrayal.  He should have known not to trust Steve.  Nothing good ever comes of trusting anyone.

The soldier could have visited a museum on his own terms, explored the mystery of his past privately and unobserved.  He could have autonomously rediscovered his autonomy.  That would have stuck.  But now he’s in captivity, surrounded by a lot of people with fake smiling faces who want to convince him he’s the person Steve thinks he is.  Now there’s a right and wrong answer, and if he disagrees it’s only because he’s “not thinking clearly” and he’ll come around later.  He doesn’t like it, and he does disagree.  He’s not about to let people tell him what to think all over again.