#sucidial

im just a inconvinience after im gone everyone's life will be better they'll be reliefed i hate how everyone is nice to me just because they are kind or maybe they pity me or maybe im just that far gone i dont know i dont have any awarness i just wing everything but it will be over soon i really hope i do it this year it's for the best and i dont have the energy to keep living either im so annoying everyone is tolerating me because they wanna be the bigger person but i know when im not around or deep down they hate me and want me to atop talking or do anything no one wants ke to live and i understand it'd be weird if they did i wish i could do better i wish someone would help me get better but nothing like that is gonna happen i can't wait to die my sucide note is complete two i just ranted in it writing the reasons for doing it i basically critisized mostly everyone i don't know what else to write maybe they will try to be better and correct their mistakes if they read it that's my hope at least it cuz if i said it to them directly they wouldn't listen i wish i was a good person but it's not easy i wish i was never born i messed for the 5th time today alone i think they are not "big" mistakes but they cause horrible inconvinences it's more serious then it sounds i swear im sick of everything im getting mean thoughts towards people even though it's my fault things are the way they are i mess up like 4 to 5 times each day i don't know that's possible but i've always been weird so i'm not thay suprised to be honest i wish i was normal that's all i want im fine with not having anything else i just wish i was born normal