WHEN I THINK ABOUT YOU, I TOUCH MYSELF
megumi has been having a specific kind of craving for his girlfriend, will he work up the courage to ask her for it?
w.c: 4k but it's all filth, sub!megumi, mdni
even a few months into your relationship, megumi still feels a little sheepish around you.
he trusts you, of course he does, he is simply not good at asking for what he wants, he doesn't even understand what it is that he really wants, to be honest. all he knows is that ever since he started dating you he's been needier than ever, he has new urges that he never had before and he's afraid of scaring you off with all the filthy fantasies he has inside that pretty little head of his.
it all started with simple, innocent moments really. the first time, you had playfully shushed him while sitted on his lap, you stared down at him with fingers running lazily across his lips and stuck in the tip of your thumb for just a second.
he held his breath without realizing it, too lost in the feeling of you pressing down slightly on his tongue. at the time he didn't know how to react, his mouth never properly closed around your thumb, he just stared back and allowed you to do whatever you wanted to him.
unfortunately for megumi, you were just playing around and didn't go much further than that, so he just had to endure a boner for the rest of the evening; poor guy still felt insecure about initiating intimacy.
when he went to bed that night, his mind was filled with images of you. he tried to get some sleep, but it was no use with his cock throbbing in his boxers. he couldn't help putting a pillow right in between his hips and the sheets and rutting against it, underwear discarded along the way and strings of precum making a mess of the pillowcase.
his hips moved in absolute desperation, pantings and moans left his throat in such a needy tone that he would definitely feel ashamed if his brain were working properly at the time, which isn't the case at all. there was nothing going on up there but thoughts of you.
you and your hands all around him, squeezing his neck, pulling his hair. you and your perfect thighs around his head, warm skin smothering him. you and belonging to you. being all you could ever need, all you could ever want.
you, you, you.
and then he remembered what had happened earlier, the weight of your body over his while you played with his mouth like you had full control over him, like he was just your toy. megumi came harder than ever, the back of his hand clamped over his mouth because he couldn't hold back loud noises anymore, his eyes were closed tightly while his red tip spilled his seed everywhere.
"fuck... what are you doing to me?" he whispered into the sheets just a moment later, suddenly hyperaware of how messed up you were really getting him.
after that he never stopped noticing things. how a shiver ran through his entire body when you pinned him down by his wrists while tickling him once, or the way he always got beet red and had to fight a boner when you would sing praises in his ear for doing... pretty much anything.
megumi felt like he was going crazy every day that passed without him telling you about what was going on, but he wasn't really sure how we was supposed to bring it up. it was all too much, too different from what you were used to.
what the boy didn't know was that his behavior hadn't go unnoticed by you. it had been a few weeks since your boyfriend had started acting strangely in the most random situations possible, or so you thought.
getting flustered out of nowhere, turning his head from you like he's afraid you're going to see things you're not supposed to if you look deep into his eyes.
you know your boyfriend, and you're sure something is up with him. today you had the worst day possible at college, so when you get to megumi's apartment and he's already acting awkward, you decide you're not having any of it anymore.
your fingers find his jawline to tilt his face back to yours. "don't do that. don't hide from me."
"I'm not hiding from you." he replied firmly, and you opened your hand so that you were cradling his whole cheek.
"talk to me, megumi. what's been going on with you?" his eyes softened at your words, but the uncertainty in his face was still clear.
"it's nothing, I didn't mean to stress you out."
your brows furrowed at that. "it's not like that, I just want to know what's been bothering you lately. did I do something wrong?"
he stirred slightly and your hand moved to his neck, caressing him in slow motions. megumi took a step closer to you, knowing that he could no longer avoid this conversation.
"you didn't do anything. I have just... been thinking about some things." he mentally cringed, almost closing his eyes in embarrassment.
you tilted your head to the side in curiosity. "bad things?"
"I'm not sure how to answer that." he took your free hand in his and started playing with your fingers, looking down at them to avoid your gaze once again.
"I see." you couldn't help a faint smile, megumi was too sweet. "can you tell me what you've been thinking about, megumi?"
you took another tiny step closer to him before hearing his voice again. "I don't know how to put it into words"
"uhum. take your time, pretty." your hand that cupped his neck made its way to his hair, messing with the soft strands, and you decided not to comment on the pink spreading from his cheeks to the tip of his ears.
he cleaned his throat, looking at you again. "I have... noticed that some specific behaviors of yours can get me really..." you stared at him expectantly. "excited."
"oh." you thought about his words, dissected them on your mind. did he mean...? "tell me more about it."
he wrapped an arm around your waist, encouraged by your words and delicate touch.
"you know, when you kinda of boss me around, or whatever." the once pink on his face is now a deep red, and he can't help looking at the floor to avoid your piercing stare.
but you, on the contrary, are trying so hard not to beam. save it for when he's not dying of embarrassment, you think to yourself.
"so what I got from all of this is that... you get excited when I boss you around? is that right?"
the corner of your mouth tilts up just slightly, and megumi nods. "something like that. you know what I mean."
you tut at him. "fortunately I do, because if we had to rely on your communication skills, I don't think we'd ever get anywhere, baby."
he raises his gaze to you, but it's no use because you're already leaning in to close the gap between you. you peck his lips before anything, freeing your hand from his to stroke his chest and shoulders.
his mouth feel like silk against yours, you've kissed megumi a hundred times before, but right now it feels different. after his confession, his body just feels pliable under your hands.
you break the kiss, whispering into his mouth. "so... you want me to be on control."
his eyes are shut lightly as your nails graze his scalp. "yes."
you peck his lips again, then kiss him further for just a second before leaning back to watch the boy chase you desperately.
"how haven't I realized it before, megumi?" a soft peck, followed by another. "look at you, so compliant."
you allow him to kiss you how he really wants to, tongues entangling with one another while his hold around you only gets firmer.
"now you're just teasing me."
"and does it turn you off?" one of your hands creeps down his thigh, finding your answer in the form of a very prominent bulge in his jeans.
"no..." megumi whispers into your mouth, eyes closed like it's the only thing grounding him to reality, heightening his sense to your touches.
"then stop complaining" you start undoing his fly, noticing how the boy shiver beneath your hands, anticipation coursing through his body; the hot weight of your hand over his clothed erection causing his head to fall back in pleasure.
your free hand meets his collar, a single finger pulling him as you walk backwards to the sofa. your mouths meet again along the way and you break the kiss to sit yourself down, not allowing him to come with.
he's completely unaware of the puppy eyes he ends up with, which doesn't make it any less adorable to you.
megumi hovers above your body as you make yourself comfortable, cupping his chin and caressing it gently.
"can you get on your knees for me, pretty?"
every ounce of clarity he's ever had abandoned him in that moment, it was like his legs moved on their own.
there was no denying you, of course, even if his mind wouldn't work, his body would still find a way to carry out your demands.
his eyes shined with pure lust, looking at them you could notice how nothing else mattered for megumi right now, nothing else besides you.
"oh, you really wanted this bad, right?" a hand comes up to play with his hair and he rests his head on your knee, nodding along.
"I see. then why don't you go ahead and show me how desperate you've been, hm?"
one of your legs settles on his shoulder, giving him some space to fit properly between your thighs. in a matter of seconds, sloppy kisses are left all over your skin, big eyes staring back at you.
letting out a trail of saliva all the way to your clothed core, megumi sniffs you needily, rubbing his nose up and down and trying his best to contain a whine.
the sight is nothing short of sinful: your boyfriend focused solely on your aching center, trying to get a taste of you through desperate licks on your panties while completely losing himself in your scent.
a curt laugh accidentaly escaped your throat, a mean one at that, but it seemed like he didn't even notice it, too occupied with pushing your underwear to the side and going at it. he buried his nose in your pussy, looking up through long lashes while getting a first taste.
megumi licked all of the essence flowing from and in between your folds, grazing over your bundle of nerves in the process. two of his fingers spread you open for him, exposing your sensitive insides to the air of the room.
he almost salivated at it, watching your hole clench and unclench for his eyes only. inching his head closer once again, he licked all over it, enjoying the feeling of his muscle being pulled deeper into you.
you draped your other leg over his shoulder and he actually whimpered, the sensation of your skin around his head was too much to bare.
your hold tightened on his hair, looking for support, as he kitten-licked you and buried his face deeper into your folds, eyes looking for your face to silently ask you to use him more.
beneath you, your boyfriend was an absolute mess. teary eyed, leaking all over his own underwear with spit dripping on his chin. he rubbed his face up and down your heat to get the most out of you, leading you to move your hips accordingly to his movements.
your action only egged him on, causing megumi to hold the outside of your thighs to continue and devour you further. his lips closed tightly around your clit, sucking and eliciting a moan from you.
"mmh, so good for me.." you exclaimed breathless, caughting his attention.
his tongue lapped over you again, much more intensely this time, he kept on licking you like it was the only thing on his mind, from your hole all the way to your clit, time and time again.
a sly smirk shined on your lips. "what is it, baby? do you like to know how good you make me feel? don't tell me you get off on my praise."
megumi visibly shivered at your words, embarrassed not from them, but from how much he enjoyed hearing them.
at the lack of an answer, you pulled him up by his hair. "answer me, c'mon." the lower half of his face shined with your essence, strings tying him to you.
"yes... yes, please- I want to hear it." he looked so needy like this, you craddled his face on your hand and he leaned into it, rubbing his cheek on your palm. "can I go back now?"
he slowly tried to reach for your pussy again, but you didn't let go of the grip on his hair. "what an eager boy you are."
"please, let me touch you." he pleaded you, and huffed as you just tutted back. "why are you being like this?"
you caressed his hair while answering. "well, how can I not act like this when you look this pretty all ruined for me?"
more precum leaked from his tip at your words and he shifted on his place, trying desperately to get any sort of friction, and of course you noticed.
"i'm sorry for teasing you so much, pretty... do you need some help?"
you pointed at his obvious boner and megumi blushed, which you didn't think was still possible at this time of the night.
"yes..."
seeing your boyfriend so compliant caused a warm smile to settle on your face as you reached a hand out to him, getting up from the couch yourself.
"come on."
he wouldn't detach himself from you for even a second, hugging and kissing all over your neck on the way to the bedroom.
upon your arrival, you pushed him lightly onto the bed, following immediately after. megumi quickly propped himself up on his elbows as you climbed onto his lap, your hips practically moving on their own as you grind down on his bulge.
"nngh..."
the sound of pantings and whines echoed in the room, getting louder each second. with his head rolled back and eyes tightly closed in pleasure and anticipation, megumi gripped your hips firmly, rutting up into your heat.
"feels that good, hm?" your breathy voice made him open his eyes immediately, all droopy and desperate and clearly begging for more of your touch; your cunt clenching around nothing at the beautiful sight.
"yes, hmph- yes... please."
"please? so now you beg, is that it?"
his motions beneath you only got faster at your teasing. "mhmm, i'll beg, i'll do anything..."
he rested his head upon your neck, puffs of hot air hitting your pulse. you grip the silky locs of black, spiky hair and force megumi to look you in the eye, the mean pull eliciting an even louder whine from the man.
"well, then beg properly. what do you want, megumi?"
"want... want your touch, want to feel your-" you were quick to notice how his eyes travelled all the way down to your pussy, and you softly raised his chin with your index finger. "mhm?"
with an audible gulp, he rested his forehead against yours, your breaths mingling together once again. "I need you to fuck me."
the crude words sent a shiver down your spine, and you were quick to satiate both of your needs by closing the small gap that was left between you two.
megumi melted under your lips, licking inside your mouth while running his hands up and down the sides of your body, so desperate for anything.
"lay down for me." you whisper alongside a final peck on his lips.
getting comfortable on your pillows and bedsheet, megumi watched as you removed the rest of your clothes, breasts finally spilling free to his sight.
you followed his gaze, then flashed him a grin while climbing on his lap once again. "like what you see?"
"yeah, a lot."
your smile softned at his words, taking both of his hands and directing them to your chest.
megumi squeezed the flesh, kneading and playing with your boobs. "so soft, love them so much..."
"mhm, I know you do." you pushed down his boxers just enough to free his beautiful cock, pale with a reddish tip all slicked up with precum, a string of it still connected to the inside of the fabric from how much he leaked. "aw, you made a mess just from eating me out?"
you took his dick in your hand, slowly grazing the slit with your index finger. megumi whined at the touch, his own hands stilling on your boobs. "I did?"
his gaze find the place where you played with his erection, having to acknowledge the predicament. "I did..."
"you're so cute." you leaned down to kiss him again, finally starting to move your hand up and down his shaft. his slick acted as your lubricant, turning your movements a lot smoother and the points of contact even more pleasing for the both of you.
deciding that the two of you were more than ready to go, you took off his shirt and underwear entirely, lifting your hips to place his cock right on your entrace and run it up and down your folds, teasing yourself and megumi in the process. you coat his dick in your juices, slapping it lightly onto your clit.
megumi watched your movements with pure desire in his eyes, the way your cunt clenched, basically begging to be filled and completely undoing him. his hands rested beside his body, waiting patiently for the moment you'd give him everything.
while looking at your boyfriend's pleasured and excited expression, the way he nipped anxiously on his lower lip, you redirected his cock right over your awaiting opening, pressing down the tip slowly, allowing him to feel each and every contraction.
your tight hole pulled him in more and more, making room to his girth. megumi was damn near salivating, spellbound by the sight of your pussy opening up for him alongside the sensations caused by your wet and warm tightness.
with your help, the lenght was finally fully sheathed inside you. the moment his tip hit your cervix, megumi moaned loudly, once again lolling his head back, his reaction causing a sly smile to appear on your face.
you wiggled your hips slowly, feeling him move so perfectly inside you, all while grazing your clit on his pelvis.
"hah-" his pants only got needier as you pleased yourself with his body.
"yeah? you like when I do this?"
"hmph- I do, fuck..." he gulped once, trying hard to get the next words out of his mouth. "I really like... being your fucktoy."
a pretty shade of red spread through his cheeks, and you just had to tease him.
"my fucktoy? oh my..." you lift yourself a bit only to slide down again, giving megumi a good feel of your walls. "never knew you had such a filthy vocabulary."
you repeat the motion, this time leaving just the tip inside you before slamming all the way down.
"nngh-" his hands found your hips, grabbing tightly like he would completely lose his composure if he had to let it go.
"you really are dirty." your movements continued, only faster now.
you bounce on megumi's cock, giving him the most perfect view of your body. the sound of your ass slaping against his pelvis filled the room, plap plap plap.
"so good. hmmph- you're so beautiful." you clenched at his words, the way he didn't care for your attempt at degradation and only kept on complimenting you.
his expression was almost one of pain, his face scrunched up in pleasure. his fingers would surely leave marks on your body from how hard he had to grip your flesh.
the stretch felt too good to be true, you could feel every vein in his cock scratching your insides, pulling moan after moan from you. your hands now rested on his chest, feeling his hearbeat accelerating under the plane of muscles.
when the pleasure would become too much, you'd scratch him, leaving beautiful red marks that would definitely turn him on again afterward. everytime you'd rake your nails on his skin, megumi would close his eyes and whine loudly, throwing his head back in delight.
it was all too much for him, all of his senses being stimulated at once. a white, creamy substance began to form around his cock. the mix of your own fluids and his precum making everything more erotic as a sticky sound would reverberate through the walls each time you'd slam yourself down against his body.
the noise caught his attention and he looked right where your bodies connected, enthralled by the way your folds were spreading to accomodate his size. looking at him, you could swear he had hearts in his eyes.
one of your hands found his face, gently tilting his chin up so you could lean down and catch his lips in yours. you made sure to intertwine your fingers together while at it, finding a new way to steady yourself as you held both of his hands over the matress, right beside his head.
the kiss wasn't tender as it would usually be, you're too far gone for that. it was desperate at best, tongues tangling together amongst pants, drool mixing and dripping down the corners of your mouths.
you're encouraged to move your hips faster, pulling away from the kiss and leaving megumi eager for more. in an act of needines, he abruptly sits up to circle your body with his arms and kiss and slobber all over your chest.
his mouth trailed all the way from the valley of your breasts to your collarbone, nipping on the skin before going back down to the soft mounds, cupping one of them and sucking the nipple.
you gasped at the new stimulation, megumi ran his tongue up and down and around, fully resting his head on your chest as he found your other nipple to mindlessly tease it as well, pinching and rubbing his thumb over the sensitive nub.
your moans get louder, all of the pleasure you've been feeling starts to build up on your lower stomach, until you hear megumi's voice.
"fuck, argh- I love you, I love you, I love you..."
the words are mumbled around your breast, and looking down you find megumi completely ruined, eyes half closed and drooling everywhere.
"i love you too, do you know how good you feel inside me?" you manage to spill out, breathless and raspy. "it's so deep, I can feel you everywhere."
"nngh, don't say that... ahhn-"
his hips move in unison with yours, chasing desperately for your touch as he feels warm waves running through his body, like something is snapping in his pelvis until he releases inside you.
a hot sensation spreads on your insides as he fills you up, making everything feel even tighter somehow. it's harder to move with cum spilling out from your pussy, but you push yourself to keep on bouncing, chasing your own climax.
sheepishly, while riding out his orgasm, megumi grazes his fingers on your clit, adding more pressure as you moan at his action. looking into his eyes you find nothing but adoration, like seeing you cum is his life's sole purpose.
you grind down hard, reaching the highest point of your pleasure on megumi's cock and hand. "fuck, megumi..."
your pussy clenches around him, gushing and making a mess between your bodies. you're still in ecstasy when you feel your boyfriend's mouth on your neck, kissing needily while rubbing his face up and down.
you caress his hair, scratching the back of his head lightly. "i'm guessing you really enjoyed yourself today?"
"mmmh" he's murmuring nonsense into your skin, too fucked out to let actual words out, and so you take that as a yes.
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a/n: I started writing this one in december and only managed to finish it now... I also think it's one of my worst works so far, but anyways, i hope someone can enjoy it ㅤ♡
