#studyblr thoughts

Chemistry calculative tasks; these are just only stuDYING sessions🥲📚

Sometimes I believe that I am a fricking fool that I assumed this high-advanced Chemistry exam, but after these thoughts I’m starting thinking about that what I’m doing just a great persistence, because I don’t have any plan B, just only med school🥺

03/07/2017

I had an interview for a backup college course today and it just really made me think about what I actually want to do with life. It’s all nice and well to pick a course out of a perspective, but actually thinking about the amount of work that it takes to get through a year of college... it takes a lot of dedication. And I really don’t know if I want to be dedicated to it. I don’t know if I want to continue on with my education and the stress that comes with it when I can just work. If I do continue with my education and get a degree, it wouldn’t be the center of my life. I don’t actually need a degree for what I want to do in life and I honestly think that it might just slow me down. So many people don’t finish their college degrees or drop out once or twice before they find what they want to do, and I just don’t want that to be me. I feel like there is huge amounts of pressure put on young people when they’re at their most creative and important time of their lives to go and settle and keep on track as much as possible. If you don’t keep going with your education despite all odds, you’re seen as a failure. Regardless of what makes you happy, you’re seen as a failure. That just doesn’t seem right to me. I have all the time in the world to put my education back up if I really want to, but there are so many things that education hinders you from doing like cooking and getting active and simply exploring new ways of living life.

26 // July // 2017

just some things on my mind. I feel it’s good to get things off my chest every now and then. if anyone has any responses, can offer any advice for anything, or if you have any thoughts you’d like to get out, feel free to send an ask! 

I’m worried about my grades for next year of uni. 1st year went really well for me, not that I found things easy at all, but I managed to get through everything and ended up getting a 3.2 qca both semesters! however, my grades from 1st year don’t go towards my degree or anything, and I’m just worrying that things are gonna get waaaay harder next year. all I can do is try to keep on top of my work, put more effort into studying, start my assignments early, and just do my best! pray for me lol.

I’ve never been one who studies regularly. I didn’t study throughout first year, only during study week and for a week or two before that. from now on I really want to get into the habit of studying more. not everyday of course, and not hardcore studying, but I’d like to at least review my notes weekly. I hope I don’t let myself down on this one. cramming things during study week is not fun.

I want to spend more time in my college this year! for 1st year all I really did was go in for lectures and leave again. obviously I had to pass time often, while I had a break between classes. but that was usually me sitting on a window on my laptop scrolling through tumblr. this year I’d like to make use of the facilities in college; study/re-write notes in the library, work on assignments in the IT Lab, chill with people in the canteen and get yummy food (and maybe try my first starbucks lol). but yeah, I really want to spend more time within the college, I’d like to really feel like I’m a part of the community and maybe it’ll help me meet new people!

speaking of meeting new people, I really want to try and get to know more people. I have a handful of great friends in uni, but I’ve gotten into the bad habit of just sticking with them. for next semester I won’t know anyone in my 2 psychology modules, so this will be a great chance for me to get talking to new people! I’m quite excited about it all, honestly! but also nervous that I won’t open up enough.