Not doing a NY resolution for weight-loss because it never worked. These are pics I recently took before I start my journey to eat healthy and pursue fitnessā¦ not because itāll make me look hot or give me sexual attention. Iām doing it because of the number of flare-ups Iāve had the past 2-3 years. Iām doing it because Iām tired of emotions dictating how I live and eat. Iām doing it because I believe that, as a result, Iāll get to live a long and healthy life. Iām tired of losing weight for vanity. Itās time I do it for me and my sanity. This is an on-going projectā¦ not one thatāll be complete by the end of 2023, but one thatāll continue for the rest of my life. So, I have to make changes that are realistic. Iāve always struggled with weight since home-schooling for my 9th-grade year when I gained 30 pounds (circa 2005). Iāve always struggled with physical insecurities, mostly weight related. To put on weight after a partnerās death and then during the pandemic seems normal or to be expected for me. To receive judgment about it is abnormal. You donāt need to point out that Iāve gained weight, when all I needed was you to be gentle and see me. To pull me out of the darkness. To help me feel safe until I was ready to try again. To be a role model of living a healthy life. For me, the NY started on my 31st birthday. Iāve lagged for 2 months, but now I have the time to see what I need to do for long-lasting results. PS: I lost the pandemic weight I gained which was 20 pounds. #2023 #goodbye2022 #strongerself #hairyhomo #fuckvanity #hairygay https://www.instagram.com/p/Cm28OMTN-D1/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=
