Hi i would like to ask for an advice or just ask you one question but it’s out of theme of the blog. What do you think about bullying and maybe you have or had an experience with it? I just can’t deal with bullying at school and it makes me feel dead. You are my favourite blog and thank you for making me smile when I’m sad. I hope you will answer.
Hello, Anon, Iappreciate that you trust me. I’m also glad that I can make you feel betterwith the things I do. Asking the question that doesn’t refer to Bowie &flowers is alright, ‘cause you’re not at Botany lesson and you can askwhatever you’d like to know. So I’ll try to be a psychologist for ya and I’dalso like to warn you, that you’ll have to read A LOT. And when I say ‘a lot’,I really really mean a lot. Idk will you regret asking me about bullying,because I’ve got the same big experience as A LOT. So get ready, I guess.
It’s sad that you getbullied at school, but it doesn’t mean that you can’t get rid of that. I’mreally sure that you just have to get rid of that, ‘cause I know by my ownexperience that getting bullied may (and mostly will) give you mentalillness and other probs. Believe me, I know what I’m talking about. I’m gonnatell you a little story about my ‘bullying experience’. Not because I’m askingfor compassion, pity or attention, but because I want you to know what puttingup with bullying can lead to.
So I think I’ll startwith kindergarten time. I went to the kindergarten at another country, becausemy family had moved. (Note: I don’t wanna say that people from other countriesare shit just because they are from other counties. I’m not talking aboutnations, I’m talking about personalities. No racist things. Every country hasgood and bad people) I always was quite a shy kid and making new friends was andactually still is hard for me. As you know, most of children don’t likequiet ones. I don’t know how it works and why, but if you’re shy and quiet, getready to be bullied, “’cause you’re weak”. So most of other children always tookaway my toys, drew in my books, broke my pencils and etc. I’ve been trying, butI couldn’t make them stop it. One day they started to throw sand and grass at me and shout silly stereotype jokes just because I said that I’m Jewish. Thatwas my last day at kindergarten. And nobody could answer my question, “Whatwrong have I done for them to hate me?” It’s hard to live when you still can’tfind the answer.
What about schoolyears? I became quieter and shyer. All I wanted to do is just to hide myselffor others not to notice me. I was afraid of people, I was afraid to saysomething to them, my self-esteem was as low as Challenger Deep, I wassuffering from anxiety. I’ve never had a lot of friends that’s why I reallyappreciate the ones that I have (of course, I mean my Tumblr friends too 💖). Allthat shit that was happening to me for years gave me the feeling when you thinkthat people hate you. Like, y’know, you’ve been chatting to each others, butyour friend doesn’t really write you a lot and you don’t really interact recently.And you’re like, “What happened? Have I done something wrong? Do they hate me?”When they never hated you and they’ve always loved you. Fck I still feel thesame sometimes
‘What’s the message?’you ask. All I want you to know is the fact that putting up with bullying canmake you feel like you live in hell. It can make you afraid of everything, itcan make you hate yourself, it can make you wanna hide from the world. Andthat’s not what your life should be. Just stand up, you don’t have to be afraidof them. It’s time for them to be afraid of you! Be yourself, do whatever youlike, don’t look at others!
I’ve said it thousandsof times, but I’ll say it again. The world needs more loving and caring people.Of course, there’s a difference between complaining, nagging and talking about yourprobs or the way how you feel. But it doesn’t mean that we shouldn’t be kind toothers. It doesn’t mean that we should close our eyes when others ask for help.The world may be cold, but somebody should be caring. And I’m thankful that Iknow some of that kind of people (you know who I’m talking about).
I also hope that you’llfeel better and write me back when you do. Just let me know when you’realright. Also, this video (x) can help you. Thank you for asking that question andraising that kind of hard topic for convo. No matter what they tell you, you’rewonderful and I love you! 💖
Peace & Love













