Also, I don't think we've ever talked enough about how bee is such a jealous, possessive and insecure child.
Like Fitz said hi to Shun (whom he disliked so plainly I'm still amazed Bee couldn't see it, when she could read all his emotions) & Bee was like he's being disloyal to my dead mother! How dare he! I know he doesn't love me anymore! he probably thinks of me as an inconvenience he must want to ride with shun into the sunset and leave me behind HOW DARE HE i will shut myself off to him he can't leave me if i leave him first *seethes*
And i think what it must've meant to her when fitz said he would always take bee's side. Always put her and her words first.
And how it must've meant to her when fitz left her for a random beggar (I'm sorry beloved but that was who u were at the time)
& how she must've hated Beloved whom had stolen her dad from her, to be alive and care for her when her dad was dead. Worst, when Fitz had given Beloved all his strength & healed him when Bee so desperately wanted to be healed by her Da, but he was dead.
How it must've hurt her when she knew Fitz wanted his Fool to share his eternity with, not her.
I think if she hadn't felt, time and time again, fitz's love through the skill, and he hadn't travelled for months for the sake of avenging/rescuing her, if he hadn't fought for her and if he hadn't (almost) died for her so willingly so many times she wouldn't have ever believed that Fitz loved her.
And I think all of this shows in:
âI lied to hurt you. For letting him be dead while you lived. For being loved by him more than he loved me!â I took a breath. âHe loved you more than he ever loved any of the rest of us!â
She's so much like Fitz, in the sense that she also can never believe people love her.