#step back

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I fear that I have touched the point of burnout, or I am fully in it, I don't know. I only recently spoke about it with my therapist, and her way of dealing with it set off alarm bells. Something is wrong. It is my head that tells me that, but also my body, which has decided to play a little trick on me. Nothing to worry about, but those are signs not to be underestimated.

My current condition is a combination of many things, accumulated over the past few months, between my real job that I do every day, extra commitments that I have taken on related to that, family and relationship issues that lead me to live on a roller coaster, personal regrets, difficulties in relating to others. So many and too many challenges altogether that have put me to the test since last November. Rediscovering drawing was like holding on to a lifeline; it was a way to escape, hide, not face reality, and hold on to a dream that, well, is a dream, and I cannot currently rely on external factors beyond my control to be able to make it come true. I don't regret having started drawing again at all. On the contrary, I rediscovered a very important part of me, and I won't abandon it, and it brought me into contact with a beautiful community. But I also exaggerated.

I don't like to say this, but throwing myself into this comic project was a bit too much. The classic beginner's mistake, or my problem with the fact that I never know how to create short and simple stories XD. I know that it's nothing serious to stop, interrupt what you're doing, and take a step back. Most of the time, it's a sign of great strength and introspection. But at the same time, it weighs and burns a bit. But I just can't continue. So, for those who were following the story of Emmrich and Kate and wanted to know how it would develop, you can write to me privately and I'll share the summary I created, (I warn you though that it's badly written, I did it for myself and not for people to read it XD). I'm sorry.

I'll continue to draw, maybe I'll create other characters, I'll throw myself into experimenting to find my own way of doing things. It's not said that I won't return to do fan art of Emmrich and Kate every now and then, maybe I'll do something. But single illustrations and nothing more. As for comics, I really enjoyed approaching it and I find it to be a really beautiful medium, complicated like few things, but very creative and full of opportunities. Maybe later I'll do something again, but something very small and simple, if I can think of one XD.

In addition, I've noticed that social media has also stolen a considerable amount of energy from me, so forgive me if you see me interacting very little. I've never been very social, I'm a very introverted person who prefers to interact with a few people. And unfortunately, I see this reflected in social media too, alas.