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Dahyun: Saida couple is awesome

Yo -

I honestly just miss writing, so here we are. It seems after school, we don't really get to write anymore. We spend so much time learning how to write a paper properly, and then only send 3-4 sentence emails lol.

So life update I guess - Since my last time writing here (2021), I've had a number of promotions at work, and honestly lined up for another one in the next 4-6 months I would say. I'm paying off my car this month as well. I think I've really pushed for this comfortable lifestyle. After this car is paid off, I think I'm just gonna chill. Get more tattoos, go to concerts, use my PTO because I wanna live my life, and generally just enjoy myself.

Relationships: I still don't have any desire to be in one if I'm being honest lol. My friends and family want me to date more than I want to date. I've become very efficient being on my own, and frankly, I enjoy being alone. I live alone, I eat alone, and I sleep alone. We all need people, and that's why I see my friends and family every weekend or so, but I truly thrive on my own. I like going to restaurants, cafes, etc alone. It's fun lol. Even right now as I'm writing this, just blasting music like I'm a teenager in my room is fun for me.

The other part of it is honestly, I'm probably afraid to be vulnerable, so I don't. I make jokes about it a lot, like "if she shows interest in me, we'll stay friends" LOL. It's funny, but it's true. My first instinct is to walk away from someone that might like me. Truly, I haven't had a crush that lasted more than 3 days for about 6 years now. Past thinking someone is attractive physically, I haven't fully fallen for anyone's personality, which is probably the most important part in my opinion.

I'm happy though, I have people that love me and care about me. Could use a bit more money though, but that would be everyone lol.