Hi!! I wanted to send this to you because it’s been in my head for like two and a half days now. You don’t even have to write it just wanted to share the vibes 🫶🏻🫶🏻……(I love you and your fics do not sound like ai what the fuck anon that’s rude as hell your fics are so cozy and lovey and homey)
Sick with the flu or a bug or maybe even potentially pregnant pregnant nurse!reader and Jack…..Jack who notices reader always making sure others takes their breaks and is always checking on others “you okay?” “you good to do that med pass?” “you want help with that turn?” “You need me in here?” Reader who hasn’t been feeling good all shift but covers it (not well lmao)….reader who isn’t used to having someone look after them and doesn’t put themselves first..Jack who insists reader goes home (maybe to his maybe to hers maybe they live together 😩)…. Jack who takes care of reader Jack who finds reader at home after his shift sanctimoniously pretending not to be in pain and sick and probably dehydrated and hasn’t eaten since Jack left FOR his shift…..patient and worried and slightly irritated Jack…. slightly dehydrated and clingy and a little bit delirious reader …..
okay that’s all. Have a good day!!!!
𝐒𝐦𝐚𝐥𝐥 𝐌𝐞𝐫𝐜𝐢𝐞𝐬 ♡
Thank you so much, hun!! this is so lovely of you, and means so much to me to hear <33 and looove your thoughts, I just had to write it <3
Jack Abbot x afab!reader || Main masterlist || Spotify
summary: You wake up feeling worse for wear, but you try to push through a hospital shift anyway. Jack notices what you’re doing before you can really hide it from him.
word count: 3.3k
tags/warnings: Nurse!reader. No use of y/n. Sick fic. Comfort. Jack being protective. Vauge hint to Jack being a widow. Mention of reader having periods and the mention of a possible pregnancy.
It starts before the shift even does. You wake up already tired. Not the normal kind of tired, not the kind you can fix with coffee and motion and pretending, but something heavier. Like your bones are full of wet sand, your head packed tight with cotton, every thought just a second too slow to catch. Your throat aches when you swallow.
You lie there for a second, staring at the ceiling. Beside you, Jack shifts, barely awake. One arm is still thrown across your waist, heavy and warm, anchoring you in place.
You consider calling out. Consider saying, hey, I thnk I’m sick, to Jack when he wakes. But the thought passes just as quickly as it comes. You’ve felt worse, you’ve worked worse, you’ll be fine.
You take a deep breath. Jack’s arm is still draped over you, heavy and warm, his breathing slow and even against your back, grounding and safe. You still can’t believe this is how you get to wake up every day now and for a second, that almost feels like enough to fix it.
The quiet part of your brain that still isn’t used to this. To the way you wake up with his arm around you like it’s the most natural thing in the world. It’s about two months since you moved in and it still feels a little unreal. Not in a big, dramatic way. Just quietly. Like something soft you haven’t quite figured out how to hold yet.
You could stay. You could turn your head, nudge his shoulder, mumble hey, I don’t feel good, and he’d wake up properly. He’d look at you, really look, and that would be it. He’d say you should stay home. And you would probably listen. Which is exactly the problem, so you don’t.
A paracetamol and a glass of water will fix it, that’s what you tell yourself. You swallow past the ache in your throat, blink away the sting in your eyes, and carefully, lift his arm just enough to slip out from under it, but he stirs and you freeze.
“You up?” he mumbles, voice rough with sleep.
You tap the screen of your phone on the nightstand, the light flares too bright in your eyes, making the sting behind them a little harder.
“Mm, yeah,” you say quietly, keeping your voice even. “There’s twenty minutes until the alarm goes off, so you can sleep a little longer.”
Jack makes a quiet sound, something like a hum, but he doesn’t settle right away this time. The mattress shifts behind you. “C’mere then,” he murmurs, hand reaching blindly toward where you were, still half-asleep.
Your chest tightens. For a second you almost do it. Climb back in and let him pull you close. Let yourself be warm and still and not responsible for anything for a little while longer. But then he’d wake up properly and he’d look at you. And then he’d know, so you get up instead, out of reach.
“I’m gonna get up,” you say quietly, already moving, already putting space between you and the bed. “Early start.”
There’s a pause. Long enough that you feel it. “You sound off,” he mutters.
You force a small exhale, something like a laugh. “I’m just tired, I literally just woke up.”
“Hm,” he mumbles, seemingly accepting that in his half-wake state.
You slip out of the room, spending the next twenty minutes getting yourself together by muscle memory alone, and when Jack gets up, you’ve got yourself enough together to fake it, or at least enough that it passes, at first glance, enough that you can pass it off as just tiredness.
You sit in the passenger seat like you always do. Scrubs on, a coffee in hand you don’t feel like drinking. The world outside the windshield feels slightly too bright again, edges sharpening in a way that makes your head throb if you look too directly at anything for too long.
Jack starts the car, but he doesn’t turn the music up. He glances at you. You feel it immediately, but you keep your eyes on the road ahead anyway.
“You’re quiet,” he says.
You let out a small breath that’s meant to pass as normal, the ghost of a laugh. “Am I?”
“Yeah.”
You shift slightly in your seat, adjusting your grip on the coffee you still haven’t really drunk from. It’s warm. That’s about all it is doing for you right now.
“I’m just tired,” you say, yawning as you speak, like you can still stretch the truth into something believable. That seems to convince him, at least for now.
By the time your feet hit the hospital floor and your shift begins you have to admit to yourself that you’re worse than you first let yourself believe when you woke up. But you push through anyway. Because that’s what you do. Even when your head feels like it’s wrapped too tight. Even when your hands are just a fraction slower than they should be.
People need things, patients need things, your coworkers need things and you are very good at being the person who fills in the gaps, so you do.
You okay? you ask, brushing past someone with a quick, practiced smile. I can grab that for you. You need me in here? You want help with that turn? I can grab that for you. It all comes out on instinct, like muscle memory. Like if you say it enough times, you can convince your body to keep up.
Jack notices anyway, of course he does. It’s not one big thing, it’s a hundred tiny ones. You don’t finish your coffee, you lean on the counter longer than usual, you blink like your eyes won’t stay open.
“Hey.”
You turn, slow. Jack’s standing a little too close, arms crossed, eyes narrowed just enough to say I’m onto you.
“You’re doing it again,” he says.
“Doing what?” you ask, already reaching for a chart.
“That thing where you pretend you’re fine.”
“I am fine.”
He doesn’t even blink. “You look like shit.”
You huff a quiet laugh. “Wow, romance isn’t dead, huh?”
“I’m serious.”
“I know.” You soften it with a small smile. “I’m okay, Jack. Just tired.”
“You said that earlier too.”
“And?”
“And you weren’t convincing then either.”
You shrug, turning away before he can read too much into your face. “Well, good thing I don’t need to convince you.”
He watches you go and he doesn’t like the way you sway just a little when you turn the corner.
You make it halfway through the shift before things start slipping. Not obviously, not enough for anyone else to step in. But enough that it feels like you’re moving through water, everything takes longer. Your hands feel slower, your thoughts come a second too late. You forget what you walked into a room for. Twice. You laugh it off, you always laugh it off.
Jack finds you braced against a sink. Head bowed, eyes closed. Breathing a little too shallow.
“Hey.”
You straighten immediately, like you’ve been caught doing something wrong. “I’m good.”
“Didn’t ask.”
You roll your eyes, but it’s weak. “You were about to.”
“Yeah,” he says. “I was.”
There’s a beat. You don’t look at him. “I’m fine,” you repeat.
He steps closer. Not touching, but close. “You don’t look fine.”
“Fluorescent lighting,” you mutter.
“You’re shaking.”
“I’m cold.”
“But you’re sweating.”
You hesitate. “It’s warm in here.”
“No it isn’t.” He exhales slowly, like he’s trying very hard not to lose patience. “You’re going home.”
“No.” It comes out sharper than you mean it to. Immediate, defensive.
Jack’s eyebrows lift slightly. “No?”
“We’re short,” you say, like that explains everything. “I’m not leaving.”
“You can barely stand.”
“I’m standing right now.”
“Barely.”
“I’m fine.”
“You’re not.”
“I don’t need—” you cut yourself off, jaw tightening. “I don’t need to be taken care of, okay? I just need to get through the shift.”
Jack’s expression shifts just slightly. Softer. More careful. “Yeah,” he says quietly. “You do.”
You shake your head, already backing away. “I’m good, Jack. Really.”
He doesn’t believe you. Not for a second.
You swallow, suddenly too tired to argue properly. “I can’t just leave.”
“Yes, you can.”
“But they need—”
“I need you to not pass out on the floor,” he cuts in, voice low and firm. “So yeah. You can.”
That stops you. Not the words, but the tone. You blink at him, a little dazed. He doesn’t look frustrated, he looks worried and that’s worse. Because you know how to argue with frustrated. You don’t know what to do with worried. It knocks the edge off everything you were about to say.
It’s like he’s measuring something he doesn’t want to get wrong, and your chest suddenly tightens. There’s something in that look, something steady, something a little too focused, that makes it hard to keep pretending that it’s nothing. Because you do know where that comes from. He is protective of you in a way that isn’t loud about it.
It’s not controlling, not overbearing. It’s just very certain. Like once he’s decided something matters, he doesn’t loosen his grip on it. On you. And that you can’t blame him for, not when you know what it has cost him to learn that.
Something in your chest pulls tighter at that. Your eyes flick back to his face before you can stop yourself. He is still watching you in that same steady way. Not crowding, or touching, just there, like he’s already decided he’s not leaving this alone.
“Okay, I am not feeling great,” you admit, the words coming out quieter than you mean them to. Rough around the edges. Real in a way the others weren’t.
It hangs there for a second. Jack doesn’t move. But it’s clear something in him eases, just a fraction.t.
“Okay,” he says, just as quietly. No I knew it, no push. Just that. “I’ll call you a ride,” he finishes.
You blink at him, a little slow. “Yeah, okay.”
He doesn’t react right away. There’s just a small pause, like he’s letting the words settle somewhere he doesn’t rush past. Like he’s making sure you don’t take them back.
“Okay,” he says again, softer. And then. “C’mere.”
You hesitate for just a second, but you’re tired. Too tired to pretend you care about keeping that line between work and home intact. So you just step in, letting his strong arms wrap around you and let your tired aching body melt against his broad chest. He squeezes you gently, and you feel lis lips brush against the top of your head.
· · · · ·
You don’t remember the drive home. You remember your keys. You remember the door. You remember thinking I should eat something. But you don’t. All you manage is to peel off your scrubs, without bothering picking them up from the bathroom floor, and taking a quick shower, washing off the smell and feel of the hospital, putting on clean underwear and one of Jack’s old worn out t-shirts before crawling into bed.
You almost don’t even make it all the way under the duvet before sleep drags you in. It’s the heavy kind, but your body gives in before your mind does. One second you’re aware of the sheets, the faint dampness still clinging to your skin from the shower, the quiet hum of the room, and the next it all blurs at the edges.
You’re out as a light for a while after that. The door opens at some point, you don’t hear it properly, not in a way you can place. Just a shift in the air, a presence. You don’t move, but something in you registers him immediately. The way you always do.
Then the bed dips, slow and careful. Like he’s measuring the weight of it before he commits. You don’t wake properly at first, but you feel it. The shift, the familiar pull of him settling in beside you, close but not crowding.
There’s a pause. Long enough that you gain a little more of your consciousness. You feel the bed dip a little more as he shifts closer.
“Hey,” he says it quietly.
It takes a second for your body and head to catch up to that fact. Everything feels slow, heavy, like you’ve sunk too deep into the mattress to pull yourself back out of it properly. You make a small sound in response. Not words, but just enough for him to know you’re awake.
His hand finds you a moment later. Warm against your arm at first, then sliding up, slower this time, until his fingers brush your cheek. The touch is light, almost cautious, like he’s checking something he already suspects. It lingers.
Your breathing shifts. Just a little.
“Hi,” you manage, voice rough and catching on the way out.
His thumb brushes just under your eye, slow, like he’s smoothing something that isn’t really there. You feel the moment it lands for him.
“You’re warm,” he murmurs.
You try to shake your head, or maybe you just think about it. It doesn’t quite translate. Your eyes stay half-lidded, unfocused.
“M’fine,” you mumble anyway, finally opening your eyes. You blink up at him, slow, taking him in. He is so handsome, even like this. Visibly tired after a long night and with a worried crease sitting between his brows.
There’s a glass of water in his hand. He holds it out for you without a word at first, helping it into your hand. It’s cool against your fingers when he guides it in.
“Drink,” he says gently.
You try. It’s clumsy, slow, but you manage a few sips before your arm feels too heavy to keep up.
“Good,” he murmurs anyway, like that’s enough.
The glass leaves your hand, set down on the nightstand. A moment passes, then something soft lands over you. The duvet. Adjusted properly, tugged up over your shoulders like he’s making sure you can’t escape the warmth even if you tried.
“You’re staying home tomorrow,” he says.
You try to argue. Or think you do. It comes out tangled, barely formed. His hand doesn’t move.
“I mean it,” he adds, quieter but firmer in a way that doesn’t leave room for negotiation. “No shift. No discussion.”
Maybe that should bother you, but it doesn’t. Because his thumb is still brushing lightly at your temple.
“Alright,” you whisper, though it comes out more like you’re letting go of something than agreeing.
He doesn’t look satisfied in the way of someone who’s won an argument. It’s quieter than that, more like relief settling in behind his eyes.
“Yeah?” he checks, like he needs to hear it properly.
You give a small nod against the pillow. It takes effort you don’t really have, but you manage it.
“Yeah,” you manage again, softer this time.
A pause follows, the kind where nothing is asked of you. His hand stays where it is, thumb still moving slowly at your temple, like he’s keeping you anchored there on purpose.
“You scared me a bit today,” he admits after a moment, voice low.
That lands somewhere deep, dull and heavy. You frown slightly, but it’s not sharp anymore. Nothing in you really has the energy for sharp.
“Sorry, I didn’t mean to.”
“I know,” he says immediately, not an ounce of blame in it. “And I’ve got you,” he says after a moment, like he needs you to hear it clearly.
“Yeah,” you mumble. “I know.” The words come out small, worn down at the edges, like you don’t have the strength left to shape them properly.
But he hears you anyway. Your eyes flicker open a little more. He looks at you like he’s not doing anything else in the world right now. Like everything else has already been set aside somewhere far away and out of reach. There’s still that crease between his brows, the one that hasn’t fully smoothed out yet. Tiredness clings to him too, heavy in his shoulders, but he’s here anyway. Fully here, like he’s chosen it.
You give him a tired smile. His expression softens immediately at the sight of it, like something in him unclenches without him meaning it to. He leans down, kissing your forehead, slow and careful, like he’s making sure you feel it rather than just receive it.
When he pulls back, his hand is still at your temple, thumb moving again like he never stopped.
“I hope it’s just a bug,” you mumble, the words coming out softer than you mean them to.
“Probably the flu,” he says quietly.
“Yeah, probably…” you mumble. “Or pregnant…” you add, only half joking.
He pauses, looks down at you. His head tilts a fraction, like his brain needs a second to decide whether you’re joking. “What?”
You give a weak shrug. “My period is late, but it’s probably nothing.”
He goes very still. Not in a dramatic way, but in a, processing information too important to misread, kind of way. Then his hand, which had been resting at your hairline, pauses completely.
“Right…” he says carefully. Just that. Like he’s stepping around something fragile.
Your eyes are half-closed, but you can still feel the shift in him, the way his attention sharpens fully now, no more tired softness at the edges.
“When did you last…” he starts, then stops himself, rephrases. “How late?”
You try to think. It takes longer than it should. “I don’t know,” you admit. “A bit.”
He goes still for a moment.Then he exhales through his nose, slow, controlled, like he’s trying very hard not to spiral in two directions at once. Not tense, not panicked, just focused, like his brain has quietly switched tracks.
“Okay,” he says again, calmer. His hand stays at your temple, but the motion slows a little, steadier now. More grounding than fussy.
You let out a quiet, tired breath, already half slipping back under.
He watches you for a second longer, then shifts just enough to reach the glass again, nudging it closer within reach without pushing it into your hand this time.
“You think you can drink a bit more before going back to sleep? You’re dehydrated,” he says.
You make a small sound that might be an agreement.
“We, uh… We can talk more about this tomorrow. No stress tonight.” he adds after a beat, softer.
He says it like it’s just another practical step. Not a crisis, not a spiral. Just something to check off.
His thumb resumes its slow, absent motion at your temple, and his other hand stays resting near you, close enough that you can feel he’s still there without him needing to hold on tighter.
“You don’t have to think about it now,” he murmurs.
Your eyes are already heavy again.
“It’s probably nothing… my period I mean. Probably just stress,” you mumble.
He hums quietly, not committing to the reassurance or pushing against it.
“Yeah,” he says after a beat, careful and even. “Could be that.”
His thumb keeps moving at your temple, steady enough that your breathing starts to match it without you noticing. A pause settles between you.
Then quieter. “Either way, we’ll sort it out tomorrow,” he says. “We’ll just see how you feel after some sleep.”
The glass is still where he left it, close enough that you could reach it if you wanted to, but he doesn’t prompt you again.
Instead, he adjusts the duvet slightly, tucking it a bit higher over your shoulder, careful not to jostle you too much.
“There’s nothing you need to do right now,” he adds gently. “Just sleep.” His voice drops a little softer at the end. “I’ve got you.”
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Hii!! As a chubby gal, who sometimes get pretty insecure about it, I was thinking about a chubby reader who works with steve at family video. he is super into her, but she doesn’t realize it, because she doesn't think that guys like steve would be into girls like her. Steve thinks she is rejecting him, cos reader is convinced he is just being nice. tysm if you decide to write this, no pressure though 💞💞
𝐓𝐡𝐞 𝐒𝐨𝐮𝐧𝐝 𝐨𝐟 𝐁𝐞𝐠𝐢𝐧𝐧𝐢𝐧𝐠 ♡
Thank you for the request, deary. I really hope this is fitting what you had in mind. Steve being soft, confused, and completely down bad is always so nice to get to write <33
Steve Harrington x f!reader || Masterlist || Steve playlist
summary: You’ve spent a long time believing people like Steve don’t look twice at people like you, and you've come to terms with that, but Steve Harrington is kind in a way you never really know what to do with.
word count: 8.9k
notes/tags: Fluff. Slightly insecure reader. No use of y/n. Plus size/chubby reader. Idiots in love. Friends to lovers.
You have never been popular. You never had a ton of friends in school, nor were the kind of girl people seemed to look twice at. It’s not like you didn’t have any friends. You did, just not a lot. And it’s not like you have never been on dates or been liked by someone. But it has never really felt like it meant anything. Not in the way people describe.
Had anyone told you back then that you would end up being friends with Steve Harrington you would’ve laughed. Not in a mean way, just confused. But here you are, not just colleagues, but also friends. Actual friends.
And he is easy to be around. He’s kind, something you don’t think people give him enough credit for. But also something you have been embarrassed about finding so surprising now that you actually know him, which feels a little unfair, when you think about it.
Like you expected less from him just because of who he used to be. Or, maybe more, who people used to say he was, the two of you didn’t interact much back then. But Steve isn’t that person. Not with you, not with Robin, not with Nancy’s brother and his friends who come into the store like it’s their second home.
He is the guy who asks you if you need a lift home after every closing shift. “Just in case,” he always says, like it’s nothing. Like it doesn’t mean anything. He is just nice like that. And you, you let it be nothing. Because that’s easier.
You might have learned that Steve Harrington is so much more than the popular jock he was back in high school. But you haven’t quite learned what it means when someone like him looks at you the way he does. Because in your head, those things don’t connect. Steve being kind? That makes sense now. Steve being thoughtful, patient, soft in ways people don’t always notice? You see that. You know that.
Steve liking you? That still doesn’t fit anywhere. But it hasn’t stopped you from harbouring a little crush on him, though you push it down. It’s quiet, like a secret, tucked away behind the part of you that tells yourself it’s impossible. Because boys like Steve Harrington don’t look at girls like you like that. They just don’t. And if you start believing otherwise, you’ll ruin whatever this is. Friendship is far safer than hope.
Steve is going out of his way to be kind to you, which obviously means he feels bad for you. That’s what nice boys do when they feel bad, they’re gentle. They soften their voice, they look at you like you might break. It’s just kindness.
· · · · ·
It’s late. You’re the last two at Family Video, lights dimmed, the open sign buzzing faintly in the window. You’re perched on the counter, swinging your legs, telling him about a book you’re reading.
He’s not really listening. He’s watching the way your hands move when you talk. The way your eyes light up when you get excited. He thinks you’re the prettiest girl he’s ever seen. He’s thought that for a long time now. Not that you have any clue.
Steve is in love with you. He knows it, Robin knows it, probably the entire state of Indiana knows it. Everyone except you. Because every time he tries to flirt, you look at him like he’s just offered you a polite pleasentry. Like he’s said “nice weather we’re having” instead of anything that actually matters. Which, in Steve’s opinion, is deeply unfair, because he is trying his absolute best.
It’s painful. Not because you’re rejecting him. God, Steve almost wishes you were rejecting him. At least then it would mean you understood what he was trying to do. That you saw him, saw the way he looks at you, and decided no.
But you don’t. You just smile, soft and absentminded, and move on like nothing happened. Not offended. Not flattered. Just… mildly confused, like you’re trying to figure out why he thought you’d say yes in the first place. And Steve? Steve is losing his mind.
Back in high school, flirting was easy. It landed, it worked. People got it. But with you it’s like he’s speaking an entirely different language, and you’re nodding along out of courtesy while missing every single word. He has begun thinking that you might be completely, hopelessly, immune to him.
Not just to his flirting, but to him. And that thought sticks. It lingers in the back of his mind longer than he wants it to. Longer than he’s comfortable with. Because Steve has never been someone people just… don’t notice.
But you do notice him. Just not the way he notices you. You laugh at his jokes, you ask him questions. You lean a little closer when he’s telling a story, like you don’t want to miss a word. So it doesn’t make sense to him.
Maybe you do actually know what he is doing and you just don’t want to hurt him, or make it awkward between you now that you work together. And that thought hits harder than anything else.
Because that would mean you do see him.
You see the way he looks at you, the way he lingers, the way he keeps finding excuses to be near you, and you’ve decided to pretend you don’t. To spare him. To keep things easy and not hurt his feelings.
Steve hates that idea. Not because it makes him look stupid, he’s already accepted that part, but because it means every soft smile you give him, every laugh, every easy conversation might just be you sparing his feelings.
You are one of the kindest people he’s ever met, which is exactly the problem. Not a bad problem of course. It’s not something he’d ever want to change about you. But it does make everything harder.
Because you really are so kind. You go out of your way to make people comfortable. You soften your words, your reactions, your expressions, like you’re always thinking about how someone else might feel before you think about yourself.
So yeah. It would make sense if you would pretend not to notice if you thought he liked you and you didn’t feel the same. It sits heavy in his chest while you keep talking, completely unaware of the spiral happening three feet in front of you.
He hasn’t given up completely, not even close. He’s thought about it, sure. Late at night, lying in bed, staring at the ceiling, replaying every awkward attempt, every missed moment, every time you smiled at him like he was just being nice. One day he has to actually ask you out. like, actually ask you out.
Not hint at it. Not circle around it with bad jokes and half-finished sentences. Not hide behind “we should hang out sometime” like that isn’t the most cowardly version of what he means.
He has to say it. Clear and direct, with no room for misunderstanding. One day… And then you can put him down gently. That’s how it plays out in his head. You’ll do that soft smile. The one that never hurts on the surface but somehow still lands. You’ll say something careful, something kind, something that makes it clear without ever making him feel stupid for trying.
Or maybe, his first intuition was right and you really don’t have any clue about his feelings for you. But how couldn’t you. That’s the part that gets to him the most. Because to Steve, it feels so obvious. He is completely smitten by you.
· · · · ·
It’s a couple of days later, you and Steve are again the only two people left in the store. You’re getting the store ready for closing. The routine is familiar. Lights dimmed halfway, counters wiped down. The soft hum of the store settling into the night. You just need to finish the last few things in the back before you can lock up.
The back room is small. It’s always been small. But tonight it feels microscopic.
You’re trying to reach a box on the top shelf. The hem of your shirt rides up a little when you stretch, and you’re hyperaware of it. Of your stomach. Of your body taking up space in a room that doesn’t leave much to spare.
“Hold on,” Steve says softly behind you. You freeze. His hands land on your waist. Warm, steady, not the last bit hesitant. He moves you aside gently. “I’ll get it.”
Your heart is beating so loud you’re sure he can feel it through his palms. “Thanks,” you murmur, staring at the floor. “Sorry. I’m kinda… in the way.”
His hands don’t move. “You are not in the way.”
You shrug, because you always shrug. “Small room.”
He grabs the box, sets it down, but he doesn’t step away. You’re still close. Almost pressed together in the narrow space. You can feel the warmth of him behind you, solid and steady, and it makes something in your chest twist in a way that’s not entirely comfortable, but by no means bad either. Just unfamiliar. Like standing somewhere new without knowing where to put your feet.
Steve shifts slightly behind you, and for a second you think he’s finally moving away from you. He doesn’t. Not really, hebonly moves a little. No longer touching you, but still close enough to feel intentional.
“Why do you do that?” he asks quietly.
Slowly, carefully, you turn around. It’s a mistake. Or maybe it isn’t. Because now you’re facing him, and there’s barely any space between you. Your brows knit. “Do what?”
You can’t fully read his expression. Not when his eyes keep flicking between yours like he’s trying to decide something. “Talk about yourself like that.” His voice is soft, but there is something heavier under it now.
Your stomach drops. You let out a small, awkward breath. “Like what? I just said it’s a small room.”
“No.” He shakes his head. “Not that part.”
You don’t turn around. You don’t think you can.
“You do it all the time. Like you’re… apologizing for being here,” he continues, gentler now.
That lands harder than you expect. Your fingers curl slightly at your sides. “I am not,” you start, but the words feel thin, automatic.
He doesn’t let you hide behind them. “You are,” he says, not harsh, just certain. “You just said you were in the way.”
You swallow. Because you did. And it didn’t feel like a big deal when you said it. It never does. “I just meant,” you try again, quieter now. “You needed to get past me.”
“I did get past you,” he says. “That doesn’t mean you were in the way.”
There’s a pause.The kind that stretches, the kind that asks for something real. You let out a breath, shoulders sinking just a little. “It’s the same thing,” you mutter.
“It’s not.”
Your chest tightens. Because he sounds… almost frustrated. Not with you, more just at the idea of it.
“Well, I’m sorry then,” you say a little sharper than you meant to, suddenly feeling a bit defensive. The second it leaves your mouth, you wish you could take it back. Not because you didn’t mean it, but because of the way his face changes.
“Don’t apologize.” His voice softens almost immediately, like he heard the edge in yours and is trying to meet you somewhere gentler. “I’m sorry, okay. I wasn’t trying to criticize you.”
“Don’t apologize,” you just echo. Again more defensive than you mean it to.
Steve stills a little at that. He lets out a small breath. “Okay,” he says softly. “No one’s apologizing.”
You nod, even though you’re not sure what you’re agreeing to. Your arms fold loosely over your middle. “It’s just how I talk,” you murmur after a second. “I don’t think about it.”
“I know,” he says.
And he does, that’s what keeps throwing you. Because he’s not misunderstanding you. It’s like he’s seeing something you never really looked at yourself.
You glance up at him again, hesitant. “I’m gonna go check the locks,” you mumble. A clean exit you can pretend is just about the job.
For a second, Steve doesn’t move, doesn’t step aside, doesn’t make it easy. And that alone makes your chest tighten. But then he does and you step out, leaving him behind in the small room.
You check the locks and afterwards you start to wipe down the already wiped down counter, simply just to do something. Behind you, you hear the faint shift of movement, Steve coming out from the backroom. The soft thud of boxes being left where they belong. The quiet hum of the store feels louder now with just the two of you, the weird interaction still lingering in the air.
You don’t turn around right away. You don’t even fully understand what happened back there. He was just trying to be nice, and usually you can sort him into something simple in your head. Easygoing coworker, kind friend, a little teasing sometimes, nothing complicated if you don’t look too closely, which you never let yourself do.
It was just words. Just a moment. Just Steve being Steve… too close, too observant, too him in a way you still weren’t used to.
“Hey,” he says gently from a few feet away. “I can still drive you home right?”
Your hand stills against the counter. Of all the things he could’ve said… that’s what he goes with. You swallow. The way he said it made it sound like it would be a punishment, a slap to the face not be able to. And a terrible feeling settles within your chest and stomach. He’s pitying you more than you thought.
“Yeah,” you say quietly. “If you don’t mind.”
“I don’t,” he answers immediately. Not rushed, just certain, like it was never a question. “And I don’t like you walking home alone.”
“It’s only a twenty minute walk, and it’s not like Hawkins is exactly a criminal hotspot,” you finish, a little too quickly.
“Yeah, but still…” he answers, softer. Not arguing, just holding onto it. “I just like knowing you get home okay,” he adds after a second.
A small pause settles between you again, but it’s different now. Softer. Less sharp around the edges. You nod, more to yourself than to him, and go back to wiping the same already-clean spot, even though you’re not really seeing it.
But Steve lingers, you can feel it. Not in a way that presses, but in a way that waits. Then, after a second, “Hey.”
You glance up again.
“I think the counter is clean enough now.”
You blink, like you’ve been pulled out of something you weren’t even fully aware you were in. Your hand stills mid-wipe. You glance down at the spotless counter. “Right.”
There’s a beat. You shift your weight, suddenly aware again of him standing there looking at you. You’ve never had an argument or anything close to one with him before. And it’s not really like this was even a real argument, you don’t even understand why you got upset over something so small. Over him just trying to be nice. You have never reacted like this before, and you don’t really like it.
“You ready to go?” The question lands softer than everything else tonight.
You nod a little too quickly. “Yeah.. Yeah, I’m ready.” Your voice sounds normal enough. You’re hoping it is normal enough.
Steve studies you for half a second, just long enough that you feel it, but he doesn’t push. Doesn’t bring any of it back up. “Okay,” he says easily, like he’s letting you have that.
He reaches for his keys in his jeans pocket, the familiar rattling of the metal cutting softly through the quiet. You grab your bag from behind the counter, movements a little too careful, like you’re trying not to disturb whatever fragile thing the night has turned into.
You walk side by side toward the door. Not touching, but not far apart either. The bell above the door gives a soft ring when Steve holds it open for you. Cold night air slips in, brushing your face, clearing some of the tightness from the back room. You step outside first, and he follows, locking up behind you with practiced ease.
The parking lot is almost empty. Just his car, a few flickering lights from the street beyond, and the quiet stretch of a late evening in a small town. You stop near the passenger side without thinking. Steve doesn’t move right away.
He just stands there beside the car, keys loosely turning between his fingers, like he’s waiting for something that isn’t part of the routine. Like he is debating saying something. You notice it immediately, even if you try not to.
Steve has a certain rhythm to him when things are normal. Easy. Predictable in a comforting way. Keys. Door. “Get in.” Some joke that lands too effortlessly. Music he’s softly humming along to from the radio. Talking to you like you are the best of friends.
But tonight, he’s not doing any of that. He shifts his weight slightly, eyes flicking toward you and then away again, like he’s re-reading a sentence in his head before deciding whether to speak it out loud. He doesn’t, instead he just gives you a small tired smile, one that doesn’t reach his eyes.
“Alright,” he says, like he’s settling something inside himself more than starting a conversation, unlocking the car. “Let’s get you home.”
You pause for a second longer than you mean to. It’s small, the way he says it, simple words, but something about his tone makes your chest tighten in a way you can’t quite name. Like he’s choosing not to say something else. He almost sounds defeated.
You clear your throat softly and step toward the car, reaching for the handle. “Yeah,” you manage, light enough that it almost sounds normal. “Long day.”
Steve lets out a quiet breath that might be a laugh if it had more air behind it. “Yeah. Long day,” he echoes, but he still doesn’t sound like himself.
You slide into the passenger seat, tugging your bag into your lap. The car smells familiar of leather from the seats, faint cologne and something faintly sweet from the air freshener hanging near the mirror. It should feel grounding, it usually does, but tonight, it doesn’t quite land.
Steve gets in on the other side, and for a moment neither of you moves. He just sits there with both hands on the steering wheel, staring forward like he’s giving himself a second to reset. Then he turns the key. The engine hums to life, soft and steady. Headlights spill across the empty parking lot, stretching long shadows across the pavement.
“You cold?” he asks after a moment, glancing over.
“No,” you say automatically. Then, a second later, a quieter add-on. “I’m okay.”
He nods like he believes you, but his hand still reaches for the dial anyway, turning the heat up just slightly. Not enough to be obvious, just enough that you’ll notice he did it. The silence settles again as he pulls out of the lot.
Hawkins passes in slow, familiar pieces outside the window, dim streetlights, closed shops, empty sidewalks. Everything looks the same as it always does, but it feels a little farther away than usual, like there’s glass between you and it all.
Steve keeps both hands on the wheel. He’s driving carefully. Too carefully, almost, like he’s thinking about every turn before he makes it.
You glance at him once, then look away again. He notices, of course. You’re pretty sure he always notices.
“You’re quiet,” he says gently.
That shouldn’t feel loaded. It should be just a comment, but it lands anyway. Your fingers tighten slightly around your bag. “So are you.”
A beat, then, a soft exhale through his nose, something like agreement, something like resignation. “Yeah,” he says. “Guess I am.” The car hums on. A few more seconds pass before he speaks again, quieter this time. “I wasn’t trying to make things weird back there.”
Your gaze drops to your lap almost immediately. “It’s not weird.”
He doesn’t answer right away, and that silence feels heavier than the words. Finally, “Okay,” he says, but he doesn’t sound convinced.
You swallow. “Serously, it’s fine, Steve. I know you’re just trying to be nice to me.”
That makes him glance over again, quick and sharp this time, like he’s trying to read you properly. Not your tone. Something underneath it.
“Okay,” he says, but it comes out thin, like it doesn’t quite hold. The car keeps moving, but something between you doesn’t. You can feel him thinking. Not drifting, but thinking. Like he’s standing right at the edge of something and deciding whether to step over it or walk away.
He doesn’t look at you again right away. Just exhales slowly through his nose, fingers tightening slightly on the steering wheel. But then he looks at you again, just for a second before turning his eyes back to the road.
“Can I ask you something?” he says quietly.
You nod, not trusting your voice.
“Do you really think I’m just being nice to you?” There it is again, that tone, careful, almost wounded.
“Well,” you say lightly, because that’s safer, “yeah. That’s kinda your thing now, right? Reformed King Steve. Protector of the socially unfortunate.”
His face falls. “That’s what you think I’m doing?”
You blink. “I mean, yeah. You don’t have to. I appreciate it, I just… you don’t owe me anything.”
“Owe you?” He lets out a short, disbelieving breath. “You think I hang around you because I feel obligated?”
“Hanging out at work sounds like an obligation to me,” you finish, trying to keep it light. Like it’s a joke. Like none of this actually matters, it doesn’t land.
Steve’s grip tightens on the steering wheel again before it softens again. He stares at the road so you take the freedom of studying his profile, the line of his jaw, the outline of his nose. There is something raw and unguarded breaking through the usual ease he hides behind.
“We hang out outside of work too.”
“Right, and I’m happy we do.” You say it gently. Honestly, even. Because you are. But the second it leaves your mouth, you see it, that flicker across his face. Not relief. Not quite hurt, either. Something in between. Or maybe more of a mix between the two. “I’m happy we’ve become friends.”
Steve goes very still beside you. Not dramatic or obvious, just still, like something in him quiets all at once. “Right,” he says after a second. “So am I.” A small pause and then he continues. “I really like being around you… I like you. You’re a really great person, you know”
Your breath catches.
“And I thought maybe,” he exhales, a little uneven, “maybe you knew that. And just… didn’t feel the same.”
Your stomach drops, not because you don’t understand what he’s saying. But because you suddenly realize you do. It all rearranges itself in your head, like pieces finally clicking into place in a way that makes your chest feel tight.
“I just figured…” You swallow. “Usually guys like you don’t…”
“Like what?”
You shake your head immediately, like you can undo it. “Forget it. I didn’t mean–”
“No.” His voice isn’t sharp. It’s steady, patient. “No, I want you to say it.”
Your fingers curl in your lap. You can feel your heartbeat in your throat now, loud enough it feels unfair. You look anywhere but at him. “It’s stupid.”
“It’s not.”
That’s what finally makes you look up. His eyes aren’t playful like they usually are. There’s nothing easy about his expression now. Just honesty. And something softer underneath it that makes your chest ache.
“You think I don’t know what people used to think of me?” he asks quietly. “And I don’t blame you for thinking like that about me back then… I just hoped you could see now that some of it wasn’t true back then, and that now I’m not like that at all anymore.”
Your throat tightens. “That’s not what I meant.”
He doesn’t interrupt you this time, he just waits. Completely still, like he’s giving you all the space in the world to get it out properly.
Your hands twist together in your lap.
“That’s not what I meant at all,” you repeat, softer. “I don’t think that about you, I really don’t.” You swallow. “I just meant… people like you, usually like girls like…” You stop yourself again, because even saying it out loud feels like stepping onto something fragile.
Steve’s eyes don’t leave you.
“Like what?” he asks again, but gentler this time. Not pushing. Just asking.
You let out a breath that shakes more than you want it to. “Like not me.”
Silence lands in the car, but it isn’t empty. It’s heavy in a different way now, like something important has finally been said out loud and neither of you can pretend it wasn’t. It’s barely audible. The silence after is thick.
“I’ve been trying to ask you out for so long,” he then says.
You stare at him. “What?”
“I’ve been flirting with you,” he insists. “The rides home. I mean, I would have offered them no matter what, I’m not letting a girl go home alone at night. But I also asked because I wanted more time with you, more opportunity to talk.” he admits. He lets out a short breath, almost a laugh at himself, but there’s no humor in it. “I’ve been so into you, that I’m sure I’ve been making myself look a fool so many times.
He trails off, scrubbing a hand down his face like he can’t quite believe he just said that out loud.
“I mean,” he adds, quieter, a little rough around the edges now, “Robin told me I was being obvious. Like, painfully obvious. And she is the most oblivious person I know, so I thought… okay, great. I’m doing fine. Like I’ve been standing too close on purpose, just because I like seeing how your eyes crinkle when you smile.”
“You stand too close to everyone.”
“I absolutely do not.”
Your brain is scrambling. “You’re… you’re not flirting,” you say weakly. “You’re just… being considerate.”
“Do I look considerate right now?”
You finally meet his eyes. He looks nervous. Not pitying, not indulgent. Nervous.
“You’re not rejecting me?” he asks, softer now. “Because every time I try to make a move, you just smile at me like I’m doing community service.”
Your face burns. “I thought you were pity-flirting.”
He groans quietly. “That’s not a thing.”
“It is to me!”
He runs a hand through his hair, shaking his head lightly before looking right back to you.
“I don’t feel sorry for you,” he says firmly. “I like you. I like working with you. I like hearing you rant about bad movies, and the book you’re reading and hear you complain when people return their tapes without rewinding them first.”
He stops himself there, like his brain has finally caught up with his mouth. His eyes flick away for a second, then back to you again, softer now. Less frantic. More certain.
“I like you, okay” he repeats, quieter this time. The words sit between you both, filling the small space of the car like they belong there more than anything else tonight.
Your throat tightens again, but this time it isn’t defensive. It’s something warmer, more overwhelming than you know what to do with. “I didn’t think that was possible,” you admit, barely above a whisper. “Not more as a friend at least.”
Steve lets out a short breath, almost a laugh, but it breaks halfway. “Yeah,” he says, leaning back into the seat for a second like his body finally remembers how to exist. “That’s kind of been the problem.”
A beat passes. Then, more carefully, like he’s stepping onto something fragile but refusing to step away from it:
“You really thought I was just being nice to you?”
You nod once, small, honest. His expresssion shifts, something like disbelief, but not in a cruel way. More like he’s trying to reframe every moment he’s ever had with you.
He lets out a quiet, disbelieving breath, like he’s replaying weeks, months, the entire year you have been working together. A replay of moments in his head and none of them make sense anymore.
“Jesus,” he mutters, softer than you’ve ever heard him. “I thought you were letting me down easy this whole time.”
Your stomach flips. “I thought you were being friendly.”
Steve drags a hand down his face, slow, like he’s trying to physically reset his brain.
“Okay,” he says after a second, more to himself than to you. “Okay, so… we’ve just been having two completely different conversations for, what… months?”
Your lips press together, a little helpless. “Seems like it.”
He lets out a breath that almost turns into a laugh, but it’s shaky around the edges. “Unbelievable.”
There’s a small pause, and then his gaze shifts back to you, honey brown eyes so soft that you almost have to look away. But you don’t, because something in you finally understands that if you look away now, you might lose this moment. And you don’t want to lose it.
The car is quiet, engine humming low beneath everything else, but it feels like the world has narrowed down to just the two of you sitting here, too close and not close enough all at once. Steve swallows, like he’s steadying himself.
“Hey,” he says again, softer this time. Not trying to get your attention—he already has it. Just… easing into something.
Your fingers loosen slightly in your lap. “Yeah?”
He hesitates. It’s small, but you notice it. You always notice him—you’re just realizing now that you do.
“I meant what I said,” he tells you. “About liking you.”
Your chest tightens, but you don’t shut down this time. You let it sit there. Let it exist.
“I know,” you say quietly.
And you do. That’s the difference now. It’s not something you can explain away or shrink into something safer. It’s real, and it’s right there between you.
Steve searches your face, like he’s trying to find the answer to a question he hasn’t asked yet.
“Do you…?” he starts, then stops. Runs a hand through his hair, nervous again. “Do you feel anything like that? Or did I just completely derail a perfectly good friendship for nothing?”
The vulnerability in his voice hits you harder than anything else tonight. It hits you somewhere deep, not because of the question itself, but because of how carefully he asks it. Like he’s bracing for impact, already half-convinced he’s about to lose something he really cares about.
And suddenly, the fear you’ve been holding onto for so long. the one that told you this could never be real, feels a little smaller than the one sitting right in front of you now.
Because he’s scared too.
You swallow, your fingers tightening slightly around the strap of your bag before you force them to loosen. “No,” you say softly. “You didn’t ruin anything.”
Steve’s shoulders shift, just barely, like he’s trying not to react too quickly. “Okay,” he murmurs, but there’s still that uncertainty lingering, like he’s waiting for the rest of it. You have reached your street now and he parks the car, turning off the engine.
You take a breath. It feels bigger than it should. “I just… didn’t let myself think about it like that,” you admit. Your voice is quiet, but steadier than you expect. “About you liking me, I mean. Because if I did, and I was wrong…” You shake your head a little. “I didn’t want to mess this up either.”
He looks at you again. His gaze soft, something warm and almost relieved flickering through it.
“But that doesn’t mean I don’t feel anything,” you add, a little quicker now, before you can lose your nerve. Your heart is racing, but you keep going anyway. “I do. I just… didn’t think it mattered, I guess. Or that it could.”
That lands, you can see it. Steve’s breath leaves him slowly, like he’s been holding it for longer than he even realized. For a second, he just looks at you.
“Why couldn’t it?” he asks quietly. It’s not sharp, not accusing, just confused. Like he’s standing in front of something that never made sense to him and finally getting to ask about it.
You look down at your hands for a second, twisting your fingers together before you answer. “Honestly… I didn’t think you found me attractive.”
Steve blinks, like the words don’t quite register at first. “What..?”
You wince a little under the weight of it, like saying it out loud makes it more real than you intended. “I just…” you let out a small, awkward breath. “I didn’t think you looked at me like that.”
There’s a beat, a quiet one. And then. “You’re kidding.” It’s not mean, it’s not mocking, it’s stunned.
“You really thought I didn’t find you attractive?”
You nod, small but honest. “Yeah.”
Another pause, longer this time. “Why wouldn’t I find you attractive?” He says it like he truly doesn’t understand.
You swallow, because there isn’t really a version of this answer that doesn’t make you feel a little exposed. “I don’t know,” you say at first, but it comes out thin, almost automatic.
Steve doesn’t interrupt. He just waits, eyes steady on you, like he already knows there’s more.
You let out a breath, shoulders sinking slightly. “Okay, that’s not true,” you correct yourself quietly. “I just… I don’t really look like the girls you used to go out with.”
Steve’s expression stills for a second, his brows draw together slightly, like your words simultaneously pains and confuses him. “I do find you attractive. Very much so”
The words land between you like something carefully placed. No hesitation, no performance, just steady and sure.
You blink, like your brain needs a second to catch up.
Steve doesn’t look away. If anything, he seems more focused now, like he’s decided this is the part he refuses to get wrong.
“I mean it,” he adds quietly, a little softer. “I don’t know how else to say it so you actually believe me, but I think you’re beautiful.”
You feel it in your chest first. Tight, warm, it’s kind of overwhelming, like your body hasn’t quite decided whether to pull away from the words or lean into them. Steve doesn’t move, he just stays there with you, steady, like he’s not going to let the moment slip away or turn into something you can dismiss later.
“I really mean it,” he says again, quieter this time, almost like he’s grounding it. “I think you’re the most beautiful..” He stops himself mid-sentence. Not because he’s unsure, but because he seems to realize something as he says it.
Steve exhales slowly, shaking his head a little like he can’t quite believe how long it’s taken for him to just say things plainly.
“I think you just don’t see yourself the way I see you,” he admits quietly, a faint, almost self-conscious smile tugging at his mouth.
That hits softer. More careful, less like persuasion, more like truth. Steve shifts slightly in his seat, turning just enough so he’s fully facing you now.
“When I say you’re beautiful,” he continues, slower, “I don’t mean it as a line. I don’t mean it as something I say because I’m trying to get you to feel a certain way.” His voice dips a little. “I mean it like a fact.”
Your breath catches faintly at that. Your throat feels thick, a small, helpless breath leaves you
“I see you,” he says, quieter now. “And I don’t know how else to explain it except… it’s not complicated for me.” He swallows, then adds, a little more honestly. “I totally understand if you’re not interested.”
That makes your head snap up. “What?” The word comes out quicker than anything else you’ve said tonight, instinctive, almost startled.
Steve pauses, like he didn’t expect that reaction. Like he thought that part would be the easy out for you. “I just mean,” he starts, a little more careful now, “if you don’t feel the same way, or if this isn’t something you want, I get it. I don’t want to—”
“But I do feel the same way.”
Everything goes still. Steve just looks at you, like he’s trying to make sure he heard you right, like this is the one moment he refuses to misinterpret.
“You do?” he asks, quieter than before, like he doesn’t want to break it.
Your heart is racing, but you nod anyway. “Yeah,” you say, softer now, but steadier. “I just didn’t think it mattered, because I didn’t think you—” you stop, exhaling lightly, “I didn’t think you felt the same.”
Something in his expression shifts. Relief, first. Immediate and unguarded. Then something warmer and deeper, like everything he’s been holding back finally has somewhere to go.
“Okay,” he breathes, almost a laugh under it, like he can’t quite believe it. “Okay, wow…”
Steve lets out a quiet, disbelieving laugh, one hand coming up to rub the back of his neck like he doesn’t quite know what to do with himself.
“Wow…” he repeats, softer this time, like he’s trying to steady the moment instead of rushing past it.
He looks at you again, really looks, like he is taking you in like something that finally makes sense.
Your lips press together, a little breath of a laugh escaping you. “Yeah… wow.”
That makes his smile grow, just slightly. Warmer now, easier. There’s a pause, but it’s not heavy anymore. It’s full, like something has settled into place between you instead of sitting wrong.
Steve shifts in his seat, turning more toward you, one arm resting along the back of it, not quite touching you, but just close enough that you feel the heat of his skin.
“So,” he says, a little tentative again, but not pulling back. “We’ve both just been into each other and completely missing it?”
You nod, a little sheepish. “Looks like it.”
He huffs a soft laugh. “Unbelievable.”
A small silence settles, but it’s not awkward, just new. His gaze drops briefly to your hands in your lap, then back up to your face. There’s still a hint of nerves there, but it’s different now. Not fear of rejection, just wanting to get this right
“Can I ask you something?” he says.
You nod.
“Can I take you out?” he asks, and this time there’s no joking, no deflection. “Like, properly. No confusion. No… me apparently being terrible at flirting.”
You let out a small laugh, shaking your head. “You’re not terrible.”
“I am with you,” he counters, but there’s a smile in it.
You hesitate for half a second, not because you don’t want to, but because this is the part where things become real.
Then you nod. “Yeah, I’d really like that.”
Steve exhales, something in his shoulders finally relaxing fully, like he’s been braced for something all night and can finally let go of it.
“Okay,” he murmurs. “Great.”
“Great,” you murmur, a shy smile in your lips which seems to melt Steve completely. It’s instant, the way it softens him. Like whatever nerves were still clinging on just give up at the sight of it. His expression warms in a way that’s almost unfairly gentle, eyes flicking to your lips for half a second before he catches himself, dragging them back up to your face.
The word lingers between you, simple and a little shy on both sides. Neither of you moves right away. Then Steve shifts just slightly, like he’s resisting the instinct to fill the silence with something easy or familiar. For once, he lets it stay.
His gaze drops again, brief, almost involuntary, to your lips, then back up, slower this time. Like he’s not pretending he didn’t do it. Checking in with you, always checking.
“Hey,” he says softly.
“Yeah?” Your voice comes out just as quiet.
He hesitates, and for a second you can actually see the moment he decides not to hide behind anything this time.
“I’m trying really hard not to mess this up,” he admits, a small, self-aware smile tugging at the corner of his mouth. “Can I…” he starts, then stops himself, exhaling softly. “I don’t want to assume.”
“You can.”
The words leave you before you can overthink them, soft and certain. Steve stills for half a second, like he needs to make sure he heard you right. You give him a little nod, the corner of your mouth curving again, just slightly, like you can’t quite help it.
That tiny shift is what does it, it’s all it takes. Something in his expression shifts, the last bit of careful restraint loosening into something warmer, more honest. His hand lifts, keeping the motion slow, not tentative in doubt, but in respect, like he’s still making sure you’re with him every step of the way.
It brushes your cheek, settling there gently, grounding.
“Okay,” he murmurs, almost like he’s reassuring himself now. His own lips lifting in a faint, almost disbelieving smile. And then he leans in.
The kiss is soft and unrushed, like neither of you is trying to prove anything. It’s not overwhelming, not uncertain either. It’s just right, like something that’s been building for a long time finally has somewhere to land. For a second, everything else falls away. No overthinking, no second-guessing.
When he pulls back, it’s only a little, his hand still resting lightly against your cheek, his forehead almost brushing yours.
He lets out a quiet breath, like he didn’t realize he’d been holding it, and then a small, almost disbelieving smile pulls at his lips again. His thumb traces a slow, absent line against your cheek, like he’s still grounding himself in the fact that this is real.
You let out a tiny breath that turns into a giggle without meaning to, the tension finally draining out of your shoulders all at once, and Steve notices immediately. His smile shifts, warming further at the sound, like it settles something in him too.
“That was nice,” you say softly, a little shy again now that the moment has fully landed.
Steve’s smile deepens at that, like the simplicity of it somehow gets him more than anything else. “Yeah,” he agrees immediately, voice low and warm.
His thumb pauses against your cheek, just for a second, like he’s letting himself really register you there, still close, still real, still choosing this. You glance at him, and he’s already looking at you like he can’t quite stop. Like it’s effortless now. Like it was always going to be you, once you both finally caught up to it.
“You’re smiling a lot,” you point out quietly, a little amused.
“I know,” he says, without even trying to hide it.
That makes you giggle again, soft, breathy, still a little overwhelmed. Steve’s eyes brighten at the sound, like it’s his favorite thing in the world already and he didn’t know it until now.
“What?” you ask, still smiling.
He exhales through his nose, almost laughing too, then shakes his head slightly.
“I just,” he starts, then stops, clearly deciding there’s no point pretending anymore. His hand shifts slightly against your cheek, more certain now. “I really like you.”
You go a little still at that, like it still catches you off guard, even after everything. Then you soften. “I know,” you whisper again.
His expression changes at that, something tender and relieved all at once, like hearing it back makes it feel safer to exist out loud.
“Good,” he murmurs. A beat. Then, quieter, almost playful now that he’s steadier. “‘Cause I’m probably going to keep saying it.”
You smile, leaning in just a fraction this time instead of pulling away.
“I don’t think I mind,” you admit.
“Good,” he echoes again, softer this time, like the word has settled into something deep and comfortable between the two of you. His smile lingers, easy now in a way it hadn’t been earlier, like he’s finally stopped bracing for impact.
You bring a hand up to his forehead, brushing a loose strand of hair back without really thinking about it. Steve goes still for a second, like even that small touch is something he wants to memorize properly. Then he leans into it slightly, not enough to move away from the moment, just enough to make it feel like he’s choosing to stay right there with you.
Your hand lingers for a moment longer than it needs to. “You’re still smiling,” you whisper, softer now, like it’s almost unbelievable.
He lets out a quiet laugh, barely there. “Yeah,” he admits again, like there’s no point pretending otherwise anymore. His eyes flick down to your mouth for a second, then back up, slower this time. “I think I might just keep doing that around you.”
“Good, I like your smile.”
“Yeah?” he asks quietly, like he wants to be sure he heard you right.
You nod, still close enough that it doesn’t feel like either of you really wants space yet. “Yeah,” you say simply. “I do.”
“Okay,” he murmurs, a small breath of a laugh slipping out again. “That’s good to know.”
There’s a pause. Not uncertain, but warm. Steve’s gaze lingers on you a little longer this time, steadier, like he’s getting more comfortable with the idea that he doesn’t have to overthink every second anymore.
Then, quieter, almost like he’s letting you in on something simple and true. “I like yours too.”
Your smile widens at his words, and his widens at the sight.
“Are you gonna follow me to the door?”
He huffs a soft laugh, shaking his head a little, still clearly not fully recovered from how easy everything suddenly feels. “Of course.”
The answer comes so quickly it makes your smile tug a little wider. Like there was never really another option in his head.
He shifts first, reluctantly breaking the stillness, but even then he doesn’t really create distance, just enough to move with you instead of staying frozen in that moment, like he’s aware of exactly how much he doesn’t want to let go.
“Let’s get you home pretty girl,” he says with a wink, and you can’t help but giggle at it. Steve’s grin widens immediately at the sound, like he’s filing it away somewhere important.
It’s only a few steps to your door, Steve walks beside you, close but not crowding, his hand brushing yours once, then again, like he’s testing something. The third time, his fingers curl gently around yours, hesitant for half a heartbeat before settling.
You glance down at your joined hands, then up at him. He’s already looking at you.
“What?” he asks, a little smile tugging at his mouth.
“Nothing,” you say, but your thumb brushes over the back of his hand anyway.
His smile softens. “Okay.”
It feels easy in a way that makes your chest ache a little.
He squeezes your hand, just a little, like he felt what you did without you having to say it. You reach your door too quickly
You both stop there, a little closer than necessary, your joined hands still between you like neither of you has remembered to let go.
Steve glances at the door, then back at you, a quiet kind of reluctance settling into his expression.
“I guess this is here we say goodnight.”
You look at him, still close, your hand still in his. “Guess so,” you say softly, though you don’t move to open the door.
His eyes flick to your lips just for a second, then back up. It’s slower this time, like he’s not pretending he didn’t do it. Steve exhales softly, almost like he’s steadying himself.
“I’m really trying to do this right,” he murmurs, voice low, honest in a way that makes your chest tighten.
Your thumb brushes lightly over his hand again, a small reassurance. “You are.”
His gaze lingers on you at that, something easing in his expression.“Yeah?” he asks, quieter.
You nod. “Yeah.”
That small confirmation seems to settle something in him. He shifts just a little closer, not enough to crowd you, just enough that the space between you feels intentional now. His eyes flick to your lips again, then back up, checking, always checking.
“Can I…” he starts, then pauses, a faint, almost nervous smile touching his mouth. “I know I already did, I just… wanna make sure.”
Your heart skips, but you nod, soft and certain. “You can.”
That’s all he needs. He lets go of your hand, settling his palms at your sides, thumbs brushing lightly against the fabric there, grounding himself before he closes the distance. His gaze lingers on yours for one last second, soft and searching, making sure. Then he leans in.
You tilt your head just slightly, closing the distance just enough to meet him halfway, like you’re both arriving at the same place at the same time. His lips find yours softly at first, like he’s still holding onto that care, that need to get it right, but it only takes a second before it melts into something more certain. Something deeper, something steadier. Like he’s finally letting himself feel it instead of holding back.
Your hand tightens slightly where it now rests against his chest, and he responds without thinking, his hands on your hips squeezing lightly as he presses you a little closer into him. Usually you would be slightly insecure about the way you’re being held right now, the awareness of your body making you overthink things at the worst possible moments.
But right now, that thought doesn’t get very far. Because the way Steve is holding you isn’t about anything like that at all. It isn’t judgment. It isn’t expectation. It isn’t anything that asks you to be smaller, different or anything you arent.
It’s just him. Warm hands at your sides, steady and careful in a way that makes it feel like he’s choosing you in a way that doesn’t require you to become anything else to be worth choosing.
His touch at your hips remains firm enough to keep you close, but gentle enough that it never feels like pressure. More like reassurance. Like he’s making sure you don’t drift away, not because you could, but because he doesn’t want to risk a single inch of distance right now.
The kiss itself slows without either of you deciding it should. It just naturally softens at the edges, like both of you are exhaling into the same moment. His breath catches lightly against yours. When he pulls back, it’s only by a fraction. Close enough that his presence still wraps around you. Close enough that the rest of the world feels like it’s a long way away.
His eyes stay on yours for a second before anything else happens, soft and unreadable in the best way, like he’s still taking you in, still quietly surprised by how real this feels.
Then he lets out a quiet, almost disbelieving breath, like he’s trying to steady something inside himself that’s finally loosened.
Goodnight,” he murmurs, softly, like he doesn’t quite want the word to create distance.
“Goodnight Steve,” you whisper back, like you’re saying it carefully, like anything louder might break the quiet between you.
Neither of you moves right away. There’s still that small space between you, but it doesn’t feel like distance. It feels like a pause, like something neither of you is ready to end just yet. His gaze lingers a second longer, even softer now, almost reluctant, before he finally lets go of you.
“I’ll call you,” he says quietly, like it’s already decided, like there’s no world where he doesn’t.
A small, almost shy smile pulls at his mouth afterward, softening the seriousness of it, but not the meaning. His hand slips away from your slowly, reluctantly, like even that feels like too much space all at once. Still, he doesn’t step back immediately.
Just lingers there for one more second, looking at you like he’s already counting down to the next time. Then, finally, gently. “Tomorrow,” he adds, softer.
“Tomorrow,” you echo, barely above a whisper.
The word lands softly between you, simple and certain. His smile warms at that, like it’s exactly what he wanted to hear. For a moment longer, neither of you moves. The space between you feels suspended, like the world is holding its breath just to let you have this.
Then he finally steps back, slow and reluctant, eyes still on yours as if he’s memorizing you one last time before distance becomes necessary. Even then, he doesn’t fully let go of the moment, just eases out of it gently, like he knows it isn’t ending. Only pausing. It’s only the beginning.
reader who is in the trauma room while jack and al-hashimi flirt and gets jealous because of it. her and jack aren't official or anything but they talk a lot in the workplace and she thinks they had something
𝐌𝐚𝐲𝐛𝐞 𝐍𝐨𝐭 𝐍𝐨𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐧𝐠 ♡
Jack Abbot x fem!reader || Main masterlist || Spotify
summary: Watching Jack slip so effortlessly into rhythm with someone else makes you question what you thought about the two of you.
word count: 1.7k
tags/warnings: Jealousy. Unofficial relationship. Soft angst. This is not a place for Al-Hashimi bashing!
The trauma room is too bright. It always is, but tonight it feels worse. Fluorescent lights humming overhead, everything too sharp, too exposed. You’re standing at the side of the bed, gloved hands hovering, waiting for the next instruction that doesn’t come.
Because Dr. Al-Hashimi is laughing. It’s quiet and controlled, professional, even, but it’s still laughter. And Jack is the one who pulled it out of her. You don’t look at him at first. You focus on the patient, on the monitor, on the steady beep that should be grounding but isn’t.
“Careful, Abbot,” she says, something light threaded through her voice. “You almost sounded confident just then.”
There’s a pause. You feel it before you hear it. Then Jack huffs, low and amused. “Don’t spread rumors like that. I’ve got a reputation to maintain.”
You hate how easy it sounds, how natural. Like they’ve been doing this longer than a single shift.
“Clamp,” someone says. And you pass it off without thinking, your hands moving on muscle memory while your ears stay locked on them.
“Oh,” Al-Hashimi hums, glancing at him over her mask. “Could’ve fooled me.”
Jack shrugs, casual and loose, like he’s not standing in the middle of a trauma case. Like this is just another conversation in a hallway. “You’re too easy to fool then.”
And there it is again, that almost-smile in his voice. Something tightens in your chest. It’s stupid, you know it is. You and Jack are not anything. Not really. You’re just someone he talks to between cases. Someone he leans against the counter with, shoulder brushing yours like it’s nothing. Someone he shares bad coffee with at three in the morning, both of you too tired to care that it tastes like burnt plastic.
Someone who you thought… No, you can’t go there right now.
“Pressure’s dropping,” you say, sharper than you mean to.
Jack’s attention snaps back immediately. That part of him, the doctor, never hesitates.
“Alright, let’s move,” he says, stepping closer to the bed, all focus now.
For a second, relief flickers through you. Because this is the version of him you know best. The one that pulls everything into alignment, the one that makes chaos feel manageable. The one who, just last night, had leaned in a little too close while you were both charting and murmured, “You’re still here? Thought you’d have escaped by now.”
And when you’d shrugged and said “I’m not that easy to get rid of, he’d smiled, soft, almost private.
“Good,” he said. “Gets boring without you.”
You’d carried that with you longer than you should have, apparently.
“Scalpel.”
Al-Hashimi hands it to him before you can move. Their gloves brush, brief, insignificant, but you notice anyway. Of course you do.
“Thanks,” Jack says, not looking at her, already working. “See? Teamwork. Whoever said day and night shifts can’t work together clearly hasn’t spent a week in the trauma room.”
“Don’t get used to it,” she replies, but there’s no bite to it.
You swallow. Your hands feel too warm inside your gloves. Your chest feels too full, like there’s something lodged there that won’t go down, won’t come up. It’s ridiculous. He’s allowed to talk to people. To joke, to flirt, if that’s even what this is.
You’re the one who made something out of nothing. Out of shared glances and lingering conversations and the way he always seemed to find his way to your side of the room. Out of the way he says your name, quieter than he says anyone else’s.
“Hey.”
It takes you a second to realize he’s talking to you. You look up. Jack’s eyes are on you now, steady, searching in a way that makes everything else fade for a split second.
“Stay with me,” he says, softer than before. Not a command, it’s something closer to concern. “I need you focused.”
Your throat tightens. Because for a moment, just a tiny moment, it feels like before. Like the two of you are the only ones here.
You nod. “I am.”
His gaze lingers, like he’s trying to read something off your face. Then it’s gone, and he’s back in it, calling out instructions, moving fast. The room fills with motion again. Noise, purpose. And you fall into step like you always do, because you’re good at this. Because this part doesn’t get to fall apart just because your chest feels like it’s cracking open.
Still, you can’t help it. Not when Al-Hashimi says something else under her breath and Jack answers without missing a beat. Not when they fall into that rhythm again, easy, effortless. Not when you realize, maybe it was never yours to begin with.
The monitor steadies, someone exhales. The tension breaks, just a little. Jack steps back, pulling off his gloves, running a hand through his hair. He looks tired now. Human again. You avoid his eyes this time. Because you’re not sure what you’d do if he looked at you like that again, like you mattered more than the room.
“Nice work,” Al-Hashimi says to him, a small smile tugging at her mouth.
He nods. “You too.”
You busy yourself with cleanup that doesn’t need doing. Anything to keep your hands occupied. Anything to keep from thinking about how easy that sounded, how natural.
The room begins to empty in slow, uneven waves. The patient gets sent up to surgery, the doors swinging shut behind the gurney with a dull, final sound. Just like that, it’s over. The room has to be cleaned so it can be ready for the next emergency. You leave with an empty feeling, happy that the patient is going to be okay, but with something else sitting heavy underneath it.
It follows you out into the hallway. Into the slow, methodical motions of washing your hands, peeling off the rest of your gear. You tell yourself it’s just the adrenaline wearing off. But then Jack’s voice breaks through your thoughts.
“Hey.” And then your name, quiet and careful.
Of course he comes to you, of course he does. You turn towards him. He’s standing close, not enough to be touching you, but close enough that you can feel the heat of him, familiar in a way that suddenly feels scary. Like you could reach out and it would mean something. But now you’re starting to think that it probably wouldn’t. That it would feel bigger in your head than it ever would to him. Your chest tightens at the thought.
“You good?” he asks. And the worst part is, he means it.
You nod automatically. “Yeah. Just tired.”
He studies you for a second, like he doesn’t quite believe you.
“Long shift,” he says.
“Yeah.”
There’s a beat. You could say something, you could ask. But you don’t. Because whatever this is, whatever you thought it was, it doesn’t have a name. And searching for one might break it completely.
Jack exhales softly, shifting his weight like he’s debating something. His hand comes up, then drops again, like he almost reached for you and thought better of it.
“I was, uh…” He glances past you for a second, then back, a little more focused. “I was gonna grab something to eat after this.”
You blink. It takes a second to land. “Breakfast?”
“Yeah,” he says, a little too quick, like he’s trying to make it sound casual and missing by just enough. “There’s that place down the street. The one that’s open way too early for its own good.”
You know the one. Of course you do. He’s mentioned it before, once, offhand, while the two of you were splitting a vending machine sandwich at an ungodly hour because there only was one left in the machine.
“You said their coffee doesn’t taste like burnt rubber,” you say before you can stop yourself.
Something in his expression shifts, it softens, just a little. “Yeah,” he says, quieter now. “That one.”
Another pause. The noise of the trauma room filters back in around you, distant but insistent. Someone’s laughing across the hall. A monitor beeps somewhere far off.
But here, right here in this little spec of space between you, it’s still.
Jack rubs the back of his neck, almost sheepish. “I figured, if you’re not dead on your feet or anything, we could…” He trails off, then tries again. “You know. Go together.”
Your chest tightens, because he’s looking at you like this matters, like your answer matters.
And for a split second, all you can think about is five minutes ago, about the easy rhythm between him and Baran, about how natural it looked, how effortless. How you don’t know where you fit in that.
You actually really like Baran. She’s good. Sharp, steady under pressure. Easy to be around in a way that doesn’t demand anything from you. You’ve shared a few shifts, quiet jokes, the kind of mutual respect that builds fast in places like this. You don’t resent her, but maybe that would be easier.
Instead, you like her. Which somehow makes this worse. Because it means the way your chest tightened back there, the way you noticed every glance, every word they exchanged,it has nothing to do with her. And everything to do with him.
You swallow, forcing your thoughts back into place, back into something manageable. Jack’s still watching you.
“You don’t have to,” he adds quickly, misreading your silence. “I just thought, since we’re both getting out around the same time and…”
“I’ll go.” The words come out before you can overthink them.
Jack stops. “Yeah?” he asks, like he wasn’t entirely sure you would say yes.
You nod, a little more grounded now. “Yeah. Breakfast sounds good.”
Something like relief flickers across his face, quick, but real. “Okay. Good.” He huffs out a small breath, almost a laugh. “Good.”
Another beat, softer this time.
“Cool,” he adds, because apparently he doesn’t know what to do with himself now either.
You almost smile. Someone calls his name from the hallway. Jack glances over his shoulder, then back at you.
“I’ll meet you out front?” he says.
“Yeah.”
He lingers, just for a second. Like he wants to say something else.
Then he nods, once, and steps away. And this time, when he leaves, it doesn’t feel like the end of something anymore.
Okay but imagine reader and Dennis who had a one night stand and then like a month later she ends up in the er and he gets assigned as her doctor. she needs to take a pregnancy test for some medical reason and turns out she is preggo
𝐒𝐮𝐫𝐩𝐫𝐢𝐬𝐞, 𝐒𝐮𝐫𝐩𝐫𝐢𝐬𝐞 ♡
Uh, such a cute (and juicy!!) idea! Thank you for the request, hun <3
Dennis Whitaker x f!reader || Masterlist || Spotify
summary: After fainting in a grocery store, you end up in the ER. Turns out your stay comes with a couple surprises. Not only who your doctor turns out to be, but what you thought was just stress also turns out to be something more.
word count: 9.9k
note/tags: Afab!reader. No use of y/n. One night stand. Unplanned pregnancy. Fluff/tiny bit of angst? May contain medical inaccuracies. Dennis is a sweetheart.
You sit yourself down on the side of the hospital bed with a mix of self-pity and embarrassment, hunched slightly forward with your elbows on your knees. The fluorescent lights overhead make everything feel harsher than it should be, and the faint smell of disinfectant only makes the nausea rolling in your stomach worse.
You swallow hard, pressing the back of your hand against your mouth. This is ridiculous. People go to the ER for actual emergencies. Broken bones, car accidents, things that bleed or stop working. Not because they passed out in the middle of a grocery store. The nurse who brought you in gives you a sympathetic smile as she logs something into the computer in the corner of the room.
You like her, she seems nice, and you have the feeling that she’s rooting for you, like she is on your team. It’s not often you feel that when you’re in places like this.
Usually, it’s the opposite. Usually, it feels like you’re being evaluated, quietly measured against some invisible standard you’ve already failed to meet. But she doesn’t look at you like that. There’s no impatience in the way she moves, no thinly veiled skepticism when she glances in your direction. Just calm, steady attention.
You drop your hand back into your lap, fingers curling together. The nausea ebbs slightly, replaced by a dull, lingering shakiness that makes your limbs feel like they don’t quite belong to you.
“Your doctor will be with you in just a minute,” she says kindly. “In the meantime, I’m gonna start taking your vitals, alright?”
You nod, shifting slightly on the bed as another small wave of nausea rolls through you. “Yeah, okay,” you mumble.
She gives you a small, reassuring nod before reaching for a blood pressure cuff and wrapping it around your arm. Quietly explaining while she does so.
“Just relax,” she says softly.
You try. The cuff tightens, squeezing your arm, and you focus on the steady hum of the machine instead of the lingering unease in your stomach and now your arm, before it slowly loosens again.
She glances at the numbers on the monitor. “Well, your blood pressure is on the lower side,” she says. “That could definitely explain the dizziness.”
You just nod, not really trusting yourself to say anything without your voice giving you away.
“Did you eat today?”
“Yeah, some toast,” you admit. “That’s about it.”
She nods again before reaching for your arm to remove the cuff, her touch light and careful as she slides it off. “Alright,” she says softly, setting it aside. “And have you been eating normally lately?” she asks.
“No… not really,” you admit. “I’ve been feeling kinda sick the past few days.”
“Nauseous?”
You nod again.
“Okay. Have you experienced any stomach pain?”
You shake your head. “Not really.”
“Any vomiting?”
“No…” you hesitate, glancing down at your hands. “But there have been a few times I’ve felt like I might,” you admit, your voice quieter now.
Then, in that same neutral, routine tone, she asks, “Any chance you could be pregnant?”
The question lands heavier than it should. You’re just about to blurt out no, out of pure instinct, something automatic, easy and safe. But the word catches in your throat. Your love life hasn’t exactly been active the last year or two. And that’s why your brain wants to say no without thinking.
But there was that one night about a month ago.
It was the kind of night out that wasn’t supposed to turn into anything. Just a way to get out of your own head for a few hours, to feel normal again. You hadn’t expected anything from it. You had just met up with some of your friends, some of your friends’ friends. And a few people who turned out to be friends of friends of friends –people you didn’t know, names you didn’t catch, faces that blurred together after a while.
You hadn’t planned on staying long. Just a drink or two, a laugh and a light conversation, then leave. But then you noticed him. He looked even more out of place than you felt. Leaning against the wall, drink in hand, like he wasn’t sure where he belonged. His eyes roamed the room but didn’t settle on anyone, not until they landed on you.
You smiled first, almost without thinking. He looked surprised, a little caught off guard, and then he smiled back, awkwardly, nervously, but genuine. And somehow, that was enough. It was awkward, sure, but real in a way that made you want to stay a little longer than you first intended.
You started talking. He was one of those friends of friends of friends. The kind of person you could’ve missed entirely if things had gone just a little differently that night. At first, just small talk to fill the time, but then it wasn’t just small talk anymore. It was laughter and shared glances, a kind of ease that felt like it had slipped through the cracks of the night. He was charming in a quiet, unassuming way. Sweet, earnest, a little clumsy, completely unlike anyone you’d met in a long time.
And it was so nice. Someone kind, nervous, and a little awkward. Someone who had made you feel lighter than usual. One drink became two, two turned into standing a little closer than before, conversations dipping softer, quieter. There had been a moment, just a small one, where neither of you were really talking anymore, just looking at each other like you were both trying to decide something at the same time. And then you had.,.
You swallow. Your fingers curl tighter in your lap, nails pressing lightly into your skin
“There might be a little chance.”
The nurse doesn’t flinch, doesn’t look at you differently. She just nods, like it’s the most ordinary thing in the world.
“Alright. We’ll have you take a pregnancy test just to rule it out.”
Your stomach twists again, though this time it’s not entirely because of the nausea. Because technically, there is a chance.
The thought settles heavy, sinking somewhere deep in your chest. The nurse gives you a small, reassuring smile, like nothing about this is unusual, like this is just another step in a routine process.
“I’ll see if your doctor is ready now,” she says gently.
“Okay,” you manage, your voice quieter than you intend. “Thank you.”
The curtain shifts as she steps out, leaving you alone with the low hum of the machines and the faint buzz of fluorescent lights overhead. You exhale slowly, leaning forward again, elbows resting on your knees, trying to ground yourself.
It’s probably nothing. It has to be nothing. Low blood pressure. Not eating enough. Stress. Your fingers tighten together, then loosen again as you force yourself to breathe.
After a while the curtain rustles. You glance up, and everything in you stills. You are met by a friendly smile from your nurse, kind brown eyes, soft and familiar. But it is not her who makes your breath catch. It’s the person stepping in behind her.
He is looking down at the ipad in his hands, brows slightly furrowed in concentration, like he’s trying to finish reading something before stepping fully into the room. It gives you a second, just one, to see him without being seen.
The familiar slope of his shoulders. The way he holds himself, a little unsure, like he’s still getting used to being here. Light brown hair falling over his forehead, and curling up at the nap of his neck.
Then he looks up, and his eyes meet yours. Those wide, blue eyes, you remember all too well.
“This is Dr. Whitaker,” the nurse says softly, her tone carrying the gentle authority of routine, but your gaze doesn’t leave him. She tells Dennis your name, not knowing that he already knows it. “We already took her blood pressure, and you ordered a pregnancy test.”
His gaze flickers briefly toward the nurse, then back to you. “Thank you, Perlah,” he says, voice small.
There’s a pause, the kind that makes the air between you feel thicker. She gives him a quick look, a brow slightly raised, but he doesn’t seem to notice. Then she gazes back to you, smiling softly, as if nothing unusual has happened.
“If you need anything, you can call on the button and I’ll be back. But in the meantime, you’re in good hands with Dr. Whitaker.”
You give a small nod, your throat tight, words catching somewhere between nervousness and surprise. She steps out, the curtain swishing closed behind her, and the door closes, and suddenly the room feels impossibly quiet, the fluorescent lights buzzing a little louder, your heartbeat suddenly loud in your ears.
“Hi,” he says, an awkward smile tugging at the corners of his mouth, just enough to make it feel human, approachable.
“Hi,” you manage, your voice smaller than you would like, uneven, caught somewhere between nerves and surprise.
“So, uh, you fainted…” he continues, voice careful, like he’s stepping lightly around fragile ground. His fingers tap lightly on the edge of the ipad, a subtle rhythm that seems to mirror your racing heartbeat.
You glance down at your hands, twisting them together in your lap. “Yeah… I guess,” you mutter, voice barely above a whisper.
“Uhm.. If you would prefer another doctor, I can call them in,” he says, voice gentle, careful not to push. His gaze flickers to your face, giving you space, but holding just enough attention to make it clear he’s listening.
You shake your head quickly, almost automatically. “No… no, it’s fine,” you murmur. “You’re… you’re fine.” Your voice catches, tight and shaky.
He nods, a small, understanding smile tugging at his lips. “Alright,” he says softly.
There’s a pause as he studies you, and even in the sterile, buzzing hospital room, there’s a strange sense of understanding between you. The way he leans slightly, careful not to crowd your space, makes it clear he’s not in a rush.
“I could understand from Perlah that you have been feeling nauseous… Can you tell me when it started? And if it’s been constant, or comes and goes?”
You hesitate, twisting your fingers tighter in your lap, and then let out a quiet breath. “A few days… maybe longer,” you mumble. “It… comes and goes. Mostly in the mornings, but sometimes I feel it all day.”
He nods slowly, laying the ipad gently on the counter beside the computer, before sitting down on the stool near the bed. The movement is careful, deliberate, as if he’s trying to make the space feel less clinical and more… manageable.
Neither of you say anything for a moment. “This was not something I had expected today” he then says softly, his tone low and careful, like he’s aware of how fragile the moment feels.
You glance up, caught somewhere between nerves and disbelief. “Yeah… me neither,” you manage, your voice barely above a whisper.
He gives a small, awkward smile, rubbing the back of his neck as if to ease the tension.
“I, uhm… I regretted not asking for your number that night,” he admits softly, voice low, careful, like he’s letting you in without forcing anything. There’s a vulnerability there, subtle but impossible to miss.
You feel your chest tighten, words catching in your throat. “Me too…” you hear your own voice, small and fragile, but it somehow feels like the only honest thing you can say. The silence that follows isn’t uncomfortable, it’s heavy, yes, but also intimate, like the room has shrunk around just the two of you.
He nods slowly, as if letting your words sink in, the awkward smile lingering just a moment longer before he shifts slightly on the stool, just enough to lean a little closer without closing the space between you.
“I… I kept thinking about it,” he admits quietly, voice almost swallowed by the hum of the fluorescent lights. “I mean not in a weird way! Just… I don’t know, wondering if I’d get another chance to actually talk to you.”
Your heart tightens, and your fingers curl in your lap again. “We did a little more than just talking that night…”
He blinks, a faint flush creeping up his neck. “Right.” His eyes flicker away for a moment, like he’s gathering courage, before returning to yours.
The quiet stretches, heavy but intimate, as if the room itself has shrunk to hold just the two of you in this suspended, fragile moment.
“A lot of things can make someone feel nauseous, or make them faint” he continues softly, like he’s searching for the right words, careful not to overstep, not to make you feel any more exposed than you already do. His voice, low and careful, like he’s trying to build a bridge across the nervous tension in the room. “Low blood pressure, stress, anxiety, not eating enough… but we’ll get to the bottom of it.”
You nod, your throat tight, the simple act of acknowledging him feeling heavier than it should. Your fingers fidget in your lap.
He pauses, letting the words settle. “The first thing we’ll do is a urine pregnancy test. It’s quick and easy, just to rule it out before we look at other causes. Pregnancy can lead to low blood pressure and nausea, so it’s a standard step,” he explains gently, keeping his tone calm and steady, though there’s a subtle hesitancy in his voice, like he’s aware of how loaded the moment feels. He meets your eyes, letting the weight of the words hang without pressing you, giving you space to react.
“And what if it is positive?” you say, though it’s closer to a whisper, your voice catching, trailing off as your fingers twist in your lap. The words feel heavier than you expect, like stepping over an invisible line.
He looks at you for a long moment, eyes steady, patient, giving you space to let the words settle without rushing in. His lips press into a thin line before he finally speaks, slow and careful.
“Then, uhm… Then we’ll figure it out,” he answers softly, like the word takes a second to find its way out. His voice is gentle, a little unsteady, but sincere in a way that makes it land.
His words make something in your chest tighten, then loosen all at once. It’s something warm, unfamiliar in a moment that should feel cold and clinical. You swallow, your fingers stilling in your lap for the first time since he walked in. It doesn’t fix anything. It doesn’t answer the question hanging between you. But it softens it, just enough to breathe around.
Your eyes stay on him, searching, like you’re trying to understand how he can feel so steadying, while looking so nervous at the same time.
He clears his throat softly, like he’s grounding himself back into the role he’s supposed to be playing here. Professional, steady, your doctor. But there’s something in his eyes that doesn’t quite let him be just that.
His hand shifts against his knee, fingers curling slightly, like he’s grounding himself the same way you’ve been trying to. His gaze flickers briefly away, then back to you, and there’s still that same openness there, uncertain, but real.
For a second, it feels like he might say something else. But instead, he exhales quietly and gives a small nod, almost to himself.
“Okay,” he says, softly, like he’s settling into something steadier. “I’ll go get you something to drink, so uh…” he trails off, glancing briefly toward the door before looking back at you. “So you can take the test,” he finishes, voice quiet, the words coming out a little uneven.
The words hang there, simple and clinical on the surface, but they don’t land that way between you.
His gaze lingers on you for a second longer than it needs, like he’s checking something unspoken. Making sure you’re okay. Or maybe trying to make himself believe that you are.
You nod, even though your throat feels tight again. “Okay.”
He gives a small nod back, almost mirroring you, like that’s enough to anchor him.
“Okay,” he echoes. But he doesn’t move right away.
There’s a hesitation, subtle, but there. His fingers press lightly against his knee, then release, like he’s debating something he doesn’t quite let himself say.
“Hey,” he adds softly, drawing your attention back up to him. Your eyes meet his again. “If you start to feel lightheaded again… just lay down, and use the call button, alright?” he says, slipping gently back into that steady, professional tone, but it’s warmer now. More personal.
You nod, even though your throat feels tight again. “Okay,” you whisper.
He watches you for a moment longer, like he’s making sure you really mean it. Like he’s trying to memorize something. Your expression, maybe, or just the fact that you’re still sitting there, still steady.
“Alright,” he says softly. “I’ll be right back.”
You nod again, a little more firmly this time, like you’re trying to hold onto that steadiness he’s offering you.
“Okay,” you repeat, barely above a whisper.
He gives you one last look, longer than necessary, softer than it should be, and then finally turns, pulling the curtain aside. The hallway noise spills in again, distant and impersonal. Voices, footsteps, the faint clatter of something metal against tile. It all feels far away.
And then he’s gone. The curtain falls back into place with a quiet swish, and the room settles into stillness again. You sit there for a moment, unmoving. Your hands rest in your lap, fingers loosely intertwined now instead of clenched. Your breathing is a little uneven, but not as tight as before.
· · · · ·
Dennis leans back against the cool wall just outside the exam room, exhaling slowly through his nose like he’s been holding his breath for the past ten minutes without realizing it. His heart is still beating a little too fast, faster than it should for a routine case. For any case, really.
So for a moment, he just stands there, staring down at the floor, trying to put himself back together into something useful, something professional.
Because the second he walked into that room and saw you he was brought back to that night he met you, and that night wasn’t supposed to follow him here. It had been… simple, surprisingly so. Unexpected, but simple. A rare kind of ease he didn’t often get.
You had felt easy, talking to you had felt easy. Being around you had all felt easy, and nice, but also kind of terrifying in a way he hadn’t really let himself sit with until now. Dennis lets out a quiet breath, dragging a hand down over his face. Yeah. That’s the word. Terrifying. Not because of what happened, but because of how easily it had happened.
Trinity had dragged him along to the bar, and he hadn’t even wanted to go. Pittsburg hadn’t felt like home yet, not really. It still isn’t really, but that night had felt like something close to it. Or at least like a break from everything that didn’t.
Everything still feels slightly unfamiliar, like he is walking half a step out of sync with the rest of the world, but with you, he hadn’t felt so out of sync. It was as if something real had slipped in where it wasn’t supposed to. No expectations, no pressure, no weight. Just someone sweet, someone pretty and kind, who laughed at his awkward jokes like they were actually funny. Smiled at him like you meant it.
He shifts, the back of his head resting briefly against the wall as he now stares up at the fluorescent lights. They buzz faintly, steady and indifferent, like none of this matters outside of that room.
But it does. Because you’re in there. And there’s a chance that… He cuts the thought off before it can fully form, jaw tightening. This must be scary enough for you, he can’t let himself spiral. Because right now, your health, the test, the possibility… it’s about you. Not him
He technically doesn’t even know if he is the father if it turns out that you are pregnant. You could have had other sexual partners within the period of a possible pregnancy. And you would be totally justified in that.
The thought lands quietly this time, without resistance. And he lets it, because it’s true. You would be justified. It’s your life, your choices, your body. One night, no matter how real it felt to him, doesn’t give him any kind of claim or expectation.
Dana is standing by the nursestarion, watching him with that same calm, observant expression she always has, but there’s something a little more knowing in it now. Subtle, but enough to make him straighten instinctively when he notices that she’s looking at him.
“You okay, kid?” she asks, tone light, but not casual enough to ignore.
He nods a little too quickly. “Yeah. Yeah, I’m good.”
Dana doesn’t push. She just tilts her head slightly, letting the silence hang long enough for him to notice he’s holding himself too rigidly. Then she turns, returning her focus to the computer in front of her, fingers moving over the keyboard with practiced ease.
He closes his eyes, squeezing them shut for a second before opening them again, blinking a few times, to get himself back together. You need fluids. Ideally something with sugar. That’s an easy task, something manageable he can do right now. Fluids and a pregnancy test, he can get you that.
· · · · ·
You sit in the quiet for a moment, the hum of the fluorescent lights filling the space between your thoughts. Your fingers fidget in your lap, twisting together, letting the tension work itself out in small, unconscious movements.
The shock of seeing him, of him being the one stepping into the room, of being told that he was the doctor that should help you, curls around your chest, tightening in a way that makes your breath catch even though you’re trying to calm yourself.
Your gaze drifts toward the door, half-expecting it to open again, for the curtain to rustle, for him to step back in like this is all some strange, suspended moment that hasn’t quite decided what it is yet.
Out of all of the ER’s in Pittsburgh and all the doctors, it had to be him. The thought doesn’t even feel real when it settles in your mind. It just… sits there, heavy and impossible, like something that belongs to a different version of your life.
A month ago, he was just a stranger. Someone you weren’t supposed to see again, at least not under these circumstances. But somehow, here he is. And here you are. It’s not like you wouldn’t have wanted to see him again but not like this.
The thought settles heavy in your chest, quieter than the others, but somehow almost sharper. Because you had thought about it. Seeing him again. Not in any serious way. Not something you let yourself linger on too long, but it had crossed your mind in those quiet moments afterward. A passing what if. A soft, almost embarrassing curiosity about whether you’d ever run into him again.
Maybe at another bar, or at a house party Trin would drag him along to. Somewhere casual, somewhere easy. Somewhere you could’ve just smiled when you saw him, maybe teased him a little about that awkward first conversation, and about what followed, asked for his number this time without overthinking it. Something simple.
Your chest tightens faintly. Because that version of it doesn’t exist anymore, and it never will, no matter what that test says.
Your stomach shifts again, a low, uneasy roll that makes you press your lips together. You swallow it down, one hand coming to rest lightly against your abdomen, as if that might steady something deeper than just the nausea.
A pregnancy test. The words echo faintly in your head, softer now, but the words aren’t feeling any less heavy. You exhale shakily, dropping your hand back into your lap.
It’s probably nothing. You cling to it again, even as doubt presses in at the edges. Low blood pressure, not eating enough, stress. All things that make sense. All things that don’t change your life in an instant.
Unlike the alternative.
Your foot taps lightly against the side of the bed, a quiet, restless rhythm. And then, without meaning to, your thoughts drift back to that night. The way everything had felt so easy. Like you hadn’t been trying so hard to be okay for once. Like you hadn’t been overthinking every word, every movement.
He was different. Not in any obvious, overwhelming way. Not in the kind of way that demands attention the second someone walks into a room. No, he was much quieter than that. Softer. He hadn’t tried too hard. Hadn’t filled every silence or pushed every conversation forward like he needed it to go somewhere. There had been pauses, small ones, where neither of you spoke, and somehow they hadn’t felt awkward.
Or actually, they had, a little at least, but not in a bad way. Not the kind of awkward that makes your skin itch or your mind scramble for something to fill the space. It was just a little unsure. Like both of you were still figuring each other out in real time, neither quite knowing what to say next, but not wanting to walk away either.
You remember noticing that. The way he looked at you like he was actually listening. Like he wasn’t just waiting for his turn to talk. Your chest tightens faintly. And the way he smiled. A little unsure, a little crooked, like he wasn’t entirely used to it landing somewhere it was truly wanted. It had made something in you soften.
You shift a little on the bed, the paper cover beneath you crinkling softly. The sound feels too loud in the quiet room, making you pause for a second before exhaling slowly. Time feels strange in here, stretched thin. You have no idea if it’s been a minute or five since he left the room–maybe even ten.
Your gaze drifts back to the curtain again, like it might give you some kind of answer. It doesn’t. It just hangs there, still and closed, separating you from everything outside this room.
You exhale slowly, shoulders rising and falling in a measured attempt to stay grounded. But without anything to distract you, your thoughts keep circling back to the same place. The test, him, that night.
Because if it’s negative… Your chest lifts slightly with the thought, something almost like relief brushing against the edges of your ribs. Then this can just stay what it was. A strange coincidence, an almost, something soft and unfinished that you can tuck away and maybe, maybe, come back to later, under different circumstances.
Your throat tightens faintly. Maybe you would actually get that second chance. Maybe you could both laugh about this someday. The absurdity of it, running into each other here, of all places.
But if it turns out to be positive… Your lips press together. The thought doesn’t finish forming before your stomach twists again, sharper this time. Your hand instinctively comes back to rest against your abdomen, fingers pressing lightly like you’re trying to steady the unease from the outside.
If it is positive, everything changes. Not just tonight, not just this moment. Everything.
Your breath comes out a little uneven, and you force yourself to inhale slowly through your nose, exhale through your mouth, like you’ve done a hundred times before when things start to feel like too much.
It wouldn’t just be yours to figure out. Your eyes flicker toward the door again, something uncertain settling in your chest. It would be his, too. Not in the same way, of course. Not in the way it would live in your body, change your body, ask things of you every single day. But it would still be his as well as yours. Shared.
And that thought, that’s the one that lingers the longest. Not fear, exactly. Surprisingly, not even panic. Just a heavy, unsure weight. Because you don’t really know him. Not beyond a single night and a handful of soft, unfinished moments. And yet, you know enough to remember the way he looked at you. The way he touched you. The way he held you as you both caught your breath afterward. He didn’t rush you, didn’t push, didn’t make anything feel like it had to be more than it was.
Your chest tightens again, quieter this time. Would that change? Would this, whatever this is, turn him into someone else? Or would he still be that same person, just in a situation neither of you had asked for?
The thought lingers, unanswered as a soft knock breaks through the quiet before the door opens again, the curtain shifts, not waiting long enough for you to respond to your own questions.
Your head lifts instinctively. Dennis steps back in, the back of one hand pushing the curtain aside, in his arms he’s holding five different small sealed cups, a bottle of water, a can of La Crox. And in his right hand he’s holding another type of cup wrapped in sterile plastic and a packet of test strips.
His eyes find yours immediately. And for a second he hesitates. Like he’s checking the temperature of the room.
“Hey,” he says softly, stepping inside as the curtain falls closed behind him again. His voice is gentler this time, steadier, like he’s had a moment to pull himself back together. But there’s still something there under the surface. “I, uhm, I didn’t know what you like, so I brought a few options,” he finishes a little awkwardly, lifting his arms slightly like it might explain itself, as if he’s only just now realizing how much he’s carrying
Your lips part slightly, a quiet breath slipping out before you can stop it. “Thank you,” you say softly.
The cups shift a little in his hold, and he lets out a small, self-conscious breath before stepping closer to the table beside your bed. “I might’ve… overestimated how many choices you’d need,” he adds quietly.
There’s something almost endearing in the way he says it. Like he’s aware of it, but not enough to undo it. You can’t help it, the faintest hint of a smile tugs at your lips, soft and brief, but real.
“It’s okay,” you murmur.
He gives a small nod, like your approval matters more than it maybe should, like it settles something in him. He put the cups down on the little table next to the bed beside you, a little more carefully than necessary, like even that small action requires focus.
“The apple juice is, uh… probably better,” he adds, almost as an afterthought, gesturing lightly toward it. “You need some sugar.”
“Okay.” You nod, meeting his eyes with a sudden feeling of shyness. “I like apple juice.”
“Yeah?” he says, a little too quickly, like he didn’t expect an actual answer. Then he lets out a small, almost sheepish breath, the corner of his mouth lifting in a sweet, shy smile, like he is happy to learn even the smallest thing about you.
You nod again, a little more certain this time, though the warmth creeping up your neck gives you away.
“Yeah,” you murmur, almost like you’re confirming it for both of you.
His smile lingers for a moment longer than necessary. He removes the lid before handing you the juice cup. You take a sip, the sweetness hitting your tongue a little sharper than you expect, but not unpleasant. It settles something small in your stomach, even if the unease doesn’t fully go away.
You lower the cup slightly, your fingers still wrapped around it. “Good?” he asks, a little tentative, like he’s not entirely sure why it matters so much, but it does.
You nod. “Yeah… it helps.”
Something in his shoulders eases at that, just a fraction. “That’s good,” he murmurs, almost to himself.
There’s a quiet pause, the kind that feels softer now, less strained. Like the edges of the moment have smoothed just a little.
“I know this is… a lot,” he says finally, voice lower now, less clinical, more honest. “The fainting, and feeling sick, and then… this on top of it.” He gestures vaguely, like the words possible pregnancy is too heavy to just drop into the space between you again.
You let out a small breath, eyes dropping to the cup in your hands. “Yeah… it is,” you admit quietly.
He nods, like he understands that in a way that goes beyond just the medical side of things. His fingers shift against the edge of the table, restless for a second before stilling again. There’s something else sitting with him now. You can see it. He glances at you, then away, then back again, like he’s circling something he’s not sure he’s allowed to touch.
“I, uh…” he starts, then stops, a faint crease forming between his brows. He lets out a small breath through his nose, almost a quiet laugh at himself, like he’s aware of how awkward this is about to sound. “I’m trying to figure out how to ask this without making it weird…” he admits softly.
Your grip on the cup tightens just slightly.
“I don’t want to assume anything,” he starts, the words slow, deliberate. “And you don’t have to answer if you’re not comfortable, I just…” he exhales softly, like he’s trying to steady himself. “Timing-wise…” He trails off, glancing at you briefly, then back down, then back up again. Then, more carefully. “That night was, what… about a month ago?”
You nod slowly. “Yeah.”
He nods too, like he expected that, but hearing it still makes something in him settle—and tighten at the same time.
“Okay,” he murmurs. Then another pause. “You don’t have to tell me anything you’re not comfortable with,” he says. “Really. I mean that.” His hand comes up briefly, rubbing the back of his neck again before dropping back down. “It’s just… medically, it helps to know, and…” he hesitates, then corrects himself, more honest now, “and not just medically,” he admits, quieter now.
That lands a little heavier. The way he says it, so careful, so indirect, makes your chest ache a little. He’s not pushing. Not claiming anything. Just asking for a place in something that maybe don’t een exist, but already feels bigger than either of you can name.
“There hasn’t been anyone else,” you say softly.
His eyes widen just the slightest fraction, a flicker of relief passing through them before he smooths it down into calm attentiveness. He doesn’t smile or anything, but you can see the tension in his shoulders ease, just a little.
“Okay,” he says softly. His voice low, steady and careful. “That… helps, a lot. Thank you for telling me.” He lets the words hang for a moment, letting them settle between you both.
“Dennis?”
He blinks at your voice, a faint pause filling the space as if the single word pulled him up from a careful orbit around himself. His eyes flick to yours, wide, attentive, the weight of that moment settling on him too. “Yeah?” His voice is soft, still careful, like he’s bracing himself for whatever comes next but ready to meet it.
“Can I get your number?”
You don’t even know why you are asking him right now, the timing is weird, but it suddenly feels very important.
His eyebrows lift just the slightest fraction, like the question took a second to land. “Yeah,” says finally, voice low, almost shy. “Of course.”
You pull out your phone, swiping your thumb across the screen and unlocking it with quiet, deliberate motion, trying not to let your hands shake. You open up your contacts, fingers hovering over the ‘+’ button for a new entry. Your thumb hesitates just above the name field for a moment, and then, with a quiet breath, you type in Dennis. You tap the number field and carefully hand the phone toward him, your fingers brushing briefly against his as he takes it.
His hand is warm, steady, and there’s a soft, almost shy smile tugging at the corners of his mouth as he glances down at the screen. He types in his number slowly, deliberately, like he’s memorizing the motion as much as the digits. Then he hands the phone back to you.
“Thank you,” you say softly as you press the button to save the contact. You tuck the phone back into your pocket.
He hesitates for a second, like he is weighing something, then finally lifts his phone. “Uh… can I get your number too?” His voice is quiet, careful, almost shy, as if he’s afraid of breaking the fragile rhythm between you.
You feel a small warmth rise in your chest at the request. “Of course.”
It’s his turn to pull out his phone, fingers fumbling just slightly as he unlocks it. You watch him for a moment, the soft concentration on his face, the way his eyebrows draw together just a little, and it makes your chest tighten in a good, nervous way.
You hold out your hand, and he hands over the phone, your fingers typing again, warm and familiar before handing it back to him again. His eyes meet yours with that shy little smile before pressing save.
He glances down at the small collection of cups on the table beside your bed, then back up at you, eyes soft and careful. “Do you need some more to drink?”
You shake your head just slightly, still feeling the warmth from the phone exchange linger in your chest. “Maybe just a little,” you murmur, your voice quieter than you intend, like the words are tentative, testing the space between you. You have to be able to pee to take the test, but you don’t feel ready, even though you know you should.
The thought of standing up, moving, letting go of control for even a moment, of taking a test that could change everything, twists your stomach in a way that has nothing to do with nausea.
“What would you like?” he asks, eyes soft, giving you room to choose without pressure.
“Just some water.”
He nods right away, like the answer really matters “Yeah, okay,” he says softly, reaching for the bottle. He screws the bottle open before handing it to you, the sound of the plastic breaking softly in the quiet as the seal of the bottle cap breaks.
You take a small sip, then another, your throat easing as the water settles. He stays where he is, close but not too close, his weight shifting slightly from one foot to the other. His hands hover like he’s not entirely sure what to do with them, before one comes up to rub the back of his neck again.
“So, uhm, Perlah will come back in a few minutes,” he says, voice a little uneven at first before he steadies it. “She’ll, uh… take you to the bathroom. And she will explain what to do, she is definitely a lot better at that than me.” He clears his throat softly, a small, sheepish smile tugging at his lips. He shifts his weight again, glancing briefly at the door before looking back at you, softer this time. “And then it only takes a few minutes,” he adds. “For the result, I mean.”
A few minutes. It sounds so short, but it doesn’t feel that way at all. You swallow, taking another sip of water, letting the coolness settle. “Right.”
There’s a soft knock at the door before either of you can say anything else. The curtain shifts a second later, and Perlah steps in, her presence gentle but efficient, like she’s done this a hundred times before.
“Hi,” she says with a small, reassuring smile, glancing between you and Dennis before focusing on you. “How are you feeling?”
You hesitate. “A little better,” you manage.
“Alright.” She nods, like that’s enough for now. “When you’re ready, we’ll have you give us a urine sample so we can run the test, okay?”
“I, uhm, I think I’m ready,” you say, your voice small, almost swallowed by the quiet room. You take a last sip from the water bottle before setting it down on the table
“Okay.” Perlah nods, her smile steady and patient. You’re glad you know her name now, you had been too nauseous and out of it to catch it when she first introduced herself and you were too embarrassed to ask again. “We’ll take it one step at a time.”
Dennis hands her the specimen cup, sealed in clear wrapping, along with the small box of testing strips. His movements are careful, almost tentative, as if he’s afraid to break the fragile rhythm of the room. Perlah accepts them with a nod, her hands steady and practiced.
“Follow me, hun,” Perlah says gently, her voice warm but professional. She steps toward the door, holding it open for you with a soft, encouraging smile. Dennis shifts slightly, giving you a reassuring glance before staying where he is, letting you move forward.
When you reach the bathroom, she gestures toward it. “Alright, just like I said. You can use the cup here. When you’re done you can just leave the cup on the counter and I will take it to testing.”
“Okay, thank you,” you say quietly, your fingers tightening just slightly around the cup.
Perlah gives you one last reassuring nod. “I’ll be right outside, but you can take all the time you need,” she says softly, before stepping back and letting the door close behind you.
The small click of it feels louder than it should. For a moment, you just stand there. The bathroom is simple, clean, thank god. The cup in your hand feels light, but your chest doesn’t. You let out a slow breath, your shoulders rising and falling as you try to steady yourself.
When you’re done, you set the cup carefully on the counter before washing your hands. You catch your own gaze in the mirror, and for a second, you don’t quite recognize yourself.
You let out a sigh before looking away. You dry your hands slowly, buying yourself an extra second before reaching for the door. When you open it, Perlah is right where she said she’d be. She looks up immediately, her expression soft and steady.
“All set?” she asks.
You nod. “Yeah.”
“Perfect.” She steps inside, her movements easy and practiced as she picks up the cup from the counter. “I’ll take this to testing now. It won’t take long.”
You nod again, even though your chest tightens at that.
She pauses for just a second before stepping back out, her voice gentler now. “You can head back. I’ll come find you as soon as we have something.”
“Okay,” you murmur. “Thank you.”
The walk back feels quieter than before, like the air has thickened somehow. When you step through the curtain, Dennis looks up immediately, like he’s been listening for your steps. His shoulders ease the second he sees you.
“Hey,” he says softly.
“Hey.”
There’s a small pause as you move back toward the bed, sitting down carefully. Your hands come together in your lap, fingers beginning fidgeting before you even notice that you’re doing it. It’s starting to become a bad habit.
Your eyes drift to his hand for a second, then back up to his face. He notices, just barely, and something in his expression softens even more.
For a second, neither of you says anything. Then, slowly, carefully, he steps closer. You scoot just slightly, making space for him without thinking about it. He notices. Of course he does. He sits down beside you, careful with the distance, close, but not crowding. Close enough that you can feel the warmth of him, the quiet steadiness he carries with him.
Your hands are still fidgeting in your lap, fingers twisting together, and after a moment, his gaze drops to them. But it’s not in a way that makes you self-conscious.
Then his hand shifts. Slowly, deliberately, he rests it on the bed beside yours. It’s tentative, like a question, an option.
You hesitate, your breath catching just slightly. Your fingers still for a moment, like they’re deciding something before you are. Then, almost without thinking, they drift, just enough to brush against his.
The contact is light. Barely there. But it’s enough. His shoulders drop a fraction, like something in him settles.
“Sorry,” he murmurs softly, though he doesn’t pull away. “I just…”
“It’s okay,” you say quickly, your voice quieter than you expect. You glance down at your hands for a second, then back up at him. “It’s… nice.”
That earns the smallest, most relieved smile from him. “Okay,” he says, almost to himself.
The silence that follows feels different again. Still quiet, still heavy with waiting—but softer around the edges now. Less alone.
Your thumb shifts slightly against his without you realizing it, a small, grounding motion. His hand responds instinctively, just barely tightening, like he’s anchoring himself there too.
“Do you wanna talk about it?” he asks after a moment, voice gentle. “Or… not talk about it,” he adds quickly, a hint of nervousness slipping back in. “Either’s okay.”
You let out a small breath, your gaze drifting somewhere past him for a second. “I don’t even know what there is to say yet,” you admit.
“Yeah,” he nods. “That’s fair.”
“I think I’m just scared of knowing,” you add, quieter now.
He doesn’t hesitate this time. “Yeah,” he says softly. “Me too.”
The honesty of it sits between you, simple and unguarded. And somehow, that makes it easier to breathe. But it doesn’t stop your heart from skipping a beat as the sound of soft, but firm knock lands against the door. It cuts clean through the quiet and both of you still.
Your hand tightens just a fraction before you even realize it, and he responds immediately, steady, present.
“Hey,” Perlah’s voice comes gently from the other side before she steps in, her expression changing for a split second when she sees the two of you sitting on the bed. Not judgment, just a slight surprise. Like she’s clocking the moment and choosing, very deliberately, to handle it gently.
Your heart jumps into your throat. She steps fully inside, glancing between the two of you, briefly, not intrusive, before her attention settles on you.
“The results are ready to be confirmed, so I need Dr. Whitaker for a moment,” Perlah finishes gently. The words land softly, but they shift something in the room immediately.
Dennis stills beside you. There’s a small pause, like he’s switching something inside himself, stepping back into a role he can stand on. His hand slips from yours this time, slower, more deliberate. “Yeah,” he says, voice quiet but steady. “Of course.” He says to Perlah before he glances at you, and for a second the doctor is still there, but there’s something else underneath it. Softer. More personal. “I’ll be right back, okay?”
You nod, even though your chest feels tight. “Okay,” you echo, your voice barely above a breath.
He hesitates, just for a fraction of a second, like he wants to say something more. Then he doesn’t. Instead, he gives you a small, reassuring nod before standing.
Perlah steps back slightly to give him space as he moves toward her. There’s a quiet efficiency in the way they fall into step with each other, like this is familiar ground for her and something he’s trying very hard to navigate correctly.
The curtain shifts closed behind them. And just like that, you’re alone. The room feels different without him in it. Quieter. And now bigger, somehow.
You stare down at your hands, still curled slightly like they’re remembering the shape of his. Outside, their voices are low. Too low to make out clearly, it’s just the soft murmur of conversation, the faint rustle of something, the clinical rhythm of confirmation.
Minutes stretch. Or maybe it’s seconds. Yeah, it probably is just second, but you have a hard time telling. Every second in here feels like a minute. Your knee starts bouncing before you notice it, a restless energy you can’t quite contain. You press your hands against them to make them still, but the movement doesn’t fully stop.
But then the curtain moves. Dennis steps back in, and you know. You don’t know how, but you just know. It’s in his face, not panicked, nor cold, but very careful. Grounded in a way that feels intentional, like he’s choosing how to hold this moment before he gives it to you, but there is still a small hint of both nervousness and shock that he can’t really hide.
“Hey,” he says softly.
Your throat feels tight. “Hey.”
He doesn’t come all the way in right away. There’s a brief pause, like he’s giving you a second to breathe, to brace, like he understands that once he says it, there’s no taking it back. Then he steps closer.
“Can I sit?” he asks gently.
You nod. He sits beside you again, leaving just a little space this time, professional and careful, but still close enough that you don’t feel alone.
A breath passes. Then another. And then, quietly. “So… as your doctor I needed to confirm the result.” He glances at you, just briefly, like he’s making sure you’re with him. “And, uh… It did come back positive.”
The words settle into the room slowly, like they don’t quite know where to land. Positive. For a second, everything feels very still. Your ears ring faintly, like the world has stepped just half a pace away from you. Your gaze drops somewhere between your hands and the floor, unfocused.
Positive. It echoes again, quieter this time, heavier. Your breath comes in, but it’s shallow. Not enough. You swallow, your throat tight, like there’s something lodged there that won’t move.
“Hey.” His voice is soft. Careful.
You don’t look up right away.
“I know this is… a lot,” Dennis adds gently, and there’s something in the way he says it, like he’s holding the weight of it with you instead of just handing it over.
You let out a small breath, but it shakes on the way out. “Yeah…” you manage, though it barely sounds like you.
Silence stretches again, but it’s different now, thicker, more real.
Your hand drifts, almost without thinking, back to your abdomen. It rests there lightly, like before, but now the gesture feels different. Your chest tightens.
“I…” you start, then stop. Your voice doesn’t want to cooperate. You shake your head slightly, a small, almost helpless motion. “I don’t know what to say. I thought it was just stress.”
“That’s okay,” he says immediately. Too quickly, almost, like he doesn’t want you to feel like you have to say anything. “You don’t have to say anything right now.”
You nod faintly, even though your thoughts are anything but still. Everything is moving too fast and not at all at the same time.
“Would you hate me if I kept it?” You can’t stop the words before they leave your mouth, you don’t even know why the thought feels so important to you, but in this moment it’s a question every fiber in your body needs an answer to. You don’t look at him, you can’t. It’s like something in you is bracing for impact.
Dennis stills. “Hate you?” he repeats softly, like he needs to hear it again to believe it.
You don’t look at him. Your gaze stays fixed somewhere low. “I don’t know…” you murmur, your voice small, fragile in a way you can’t quite hide. “I don’t even know what I want.” Your voice barely holds together by the end of it.
“No,” he says. His voice cuts in softly, but not sharply. Just catching you before you spiral too far ahead of yourself.
You still. You don’t look at him.
There’s a small pause. You can feel him shift beside you. not away, just adjusting, like he’s trying to meet you where you are without crowding you.
“No, I wouldn’t hate you for that,” he repeats, quieter now, but no less steady. “ Not for anything.”
Your throat tightens. You swallow hard. “I just,” you shake your head slightly, your voice barely holding together. “I don’t know what I’m doing. I don’t know what I’m allowed to feel about it. It’s like…” your breath stutters, “like if I even think about wanting it, I’m already messing everything up.”
That lands deeper than you expect it to. There’s a shift beside you again, closer this time, but still careful. Always careful. “You’re not messing anything up,” he says gently.
You let out a quiet, shaky breath, but it doesn’t quite steady you.
“I don’t even know what you’d want,” you admit, finally glancing at him, your eyes searching his like you’re bracing for something you’re not sure you can handle.
That’s what this is really about. Not just the question. Him. You don’t even know what you want, but not knowing what he wants somehow feels worse. Not knowing what you want is overwhelming, but not knowing where he stands? That feels like standing on something that might give out beneath you at any second.
“I want you to be okay,” he says first. It’s not a deflection. It’s just the most honest place he can start. Then, after a small breath. “And yeah,” he adds, quieter, more personal now, “I care about what happens. I’d be lying if I said I didn’t.”
Your chest tightens again, and you gather all your courage to look up and meet his eyes again. There’s something so rawly vulnerable in his expression now.
“But that doesn’t turn into pressure on you,” he continues quickly, gently. “It doesn’t get to.” His hand shifts slightly on the bed, closer again, still not assuming, still leaving the choice with you. “This is your decision,” he says softly. “Not mine to make for you, or mine to judge.”
You swallow, your throat still tight, but something in your chest has shifted, just enough that you can breathe a little deeper than before. “I know,” you say quietly, and you mean it. You can feel how careful he’s being, how hard he’s trying not to tip the balance one way or the other.
A small pause. Then, more carefully. “If you kept it, I wouldn’t hate you.” His voice softens even more. “And I’d… want to be there. If you wanted me to be.” That last part is quieter, almost tentative. “Honestly, I would want to be there even if you wouldn’t want me to.”
He stops himself. Like he hears it as he’s saying it and realizes how it might sound too much, too fast, crossing a line he’s been so careful not to cross.
A small breath leaves him, and he shakes his head slightly, softer now, correcting, not taking it back, just placing it better.
“I mean,” he says quietly, “I wouldn’t force that. I wouldn’t show up where I’m not wanted.” His eyes meet yours again, steady, open. “But I wouldn’t just stop caring either.”
That lands differently. No pressure, just truth.
“But we don’t have to figure everything out right now,” he continues, voice steady but soft. “This is just… information right now. Okay? Just one step.”
“Just one step,” you repeat, like you’re testing the shape of it.
His thumb shifts lightly against your hand, careful, reassuring. “Yeah.” The words sit between you, quieter now. You both let the silence settle. Your breathing evens out a little more, your shoulders lowering inch by inch, like your body is finally catching up to what your mind is trying to process.
His hand is still there, steady against yours. Not holding tight, not claiming, just present. Close enough that you can feel it if you need to. And you do.
“You need to stay for monitoring,” he says gently, voice slipping a little more into something professional, but still soft, still him. “Just for a couple of hours. Given the fainting earlier, we need to make sure everything stays stable. And we have to check a few other things, just to be sure,” he finishes gently, smoothing the sentence as it comes together.
He glances at you, like he’s checking how it lands before continuing. You nod, a small, quiet motion, your eyes still on him. “Okay,” you say softly.
“It’s just routine things,” he adds, softer again. “Blood pressure, heart rate, maybe some blood work. Nothing invasive unless we have a reason,” he adds quickly. “And we’ll talk you through everything before we do it.”
You nod again, a little more firmly this time.
“Okay…” A small breath leaves you. “That sounds… manageable,” you admit.
There’s the faintest hint of relief in his expression, not because the situation is easier, but because he seems to care a lot about your reaction.. “Yeah,” he says softly. “That’s the goal.”
“Thank you for being so nice to me,” you say quietly. The words come out softer than you expect, but they feel important to say.
He stills for just a second, not surprised exactly, but like he wasn’t expecting you to say that. “You don’t have to thank me for that,” he says gently.
You shake your head a little, your fingers shifting faintly against his. “I know,” you murmur. “But still.” Your eyes meet his again, steadier now. “Thanbk you for not making this feel worse,” you finish softly.
The words hang there for a second, fragile but honest. He doesn’t answer right away.
You can see the moment it lands, really lands, in the way his expression shifts. Something quieter, more affected than he’s been letting himself show.
“I’m really glad to hear it didn’t,” he says finally, voice low, but a sheepish smile tugs at the corner of his mouth, small and a little self-conscious, like he’s not entirely sure what to do with being seen like that. His gaze dips for a second before coming back to you, even softer now.
Your fingers move slightly against his again, a small, unconscious motion, but you don’t pull back at all. There’s a pause. Then, more quietly.
“If everything looks good, you should get discharged around the time my shift ends, so if you… I don’t know, uhm… maybe we could go grab something to eat after,” he says quietly, almost as if testing the idea out, letting it hover between you. “If you want to.”
You blink, caught off guard, but the thought warms your chest in a way nothing else has in hours. “Yeah,” you manage, voice small but steady, “I’d like that.”
A small, genuine smile spreads across his face, softening the tension you didn’t realize had been holding you so tight. “Okay,” he says, letting the word linger, careful not to rush it.
Your fingers brush against his again, just slightly, and he doesn’t pull away, instead of that ,his thumb brushes lightly over yours in a small, steadying motion. The room feels a little softer, the air a little warmer, and for the first time in hours, the tight coil in your chest loosens just enough for a small, real breath to escape. And for now, in this little moment of time, that’s enough. He’s on your team.
jack abbott x reader who adopted her nieces (toddler and older maybe six or eight?) after their parents died (sister and brother in law) and none of her coworkers knew until the older got injured and had to go to the ER w/ babysitter and little sister . everyone thinking she has a secret family and her having to clarify those are her nieces - jacks heart just getting all fuzzy seeing her being all soft with her nieces ?!
𝐘𝐨𝐮𝐫 𝐄𝐲𝐞𝐬, 𝐓𝐰𝐢𝐜𝐞 𝐎𝐯𝐞𝐫 ♡
This is such a cute (and kinda sad🥺) idea!!
Jack Abbot x resident!reader || Masterlist || Spotify
summary: The night takes a turn when Jack finds you in the ER hallway with two little girls who look unmistakably like you. He realizes there’s a whole part of your life he never knew about. But maybe, if you let him, he’d really like to understand it.
word count: 8.0k
warnings/tags: No use of y/n. Hurt/comfort. Angst and fluff. Canon typical medical traumas. May contain medical inaccuracies. I usually prefer not naming kid characters in my stories, but reader's nieces are named in this (I found it too difficult writing two unnamed child characters in the same scene, hehe)
Jack is looking at the board with a slight crease between his brows, eyes scanning the patient list like he’s expecting something to suddenly appear. It’s an unusually quiet night, which, in Jack’s experience, usually means something is about to go down.
He shifts his weight slightly, arms folded over his chest as he studies the list like it might suddenly rearrange itself if he watches long enough.
A couple of minor injuries. One patient waiting on labs. Someone in observation who probably should’ve been discharged an hour ago. He can’t remember the last time the board looked this manageable.
“Don’t stare at it too hard,” a well-known voice says from behind him. “You might scare the calm away.”
Jack glances over his shoulder.
You’re leaning against the counter. You look tired, yet you still have that small, sweet smile on your face, the one he’s noticed shows up most when the shift is at its worst, like you’re stubbornly refusing to let the place grind you down.
It’s a smile he has begun to rely more on than he probably should. It’s subtle. Easy to miss if someone isn’t paying attention. But Jack always notices.
It’s steady, reassuring. And somewhere along the line, Jack realized he looks for it now. Which is a bit of a problem. You’re his resident, which means he probably shouldn’t be noticing things like that, but he just can’t help it.
He shouldn’t be cataloguing the way your smile softens the hard edges of a shift, or how the tension in his shoulders eases a fraction when you walk into a room. He shouldn’t be aware of the way your voice sounds when you’re explaining something gently to a patient versus when you’re arguing with an elderly patient about why they really do need to stay for observation.
But he does. He notices all of it.
“Calm’s a myth,” he says after a moment. “Just means the ambulance bay’s about to light up.”
You hum softly behind him. “Optimistic as always, Abbot.”
“Just speaking from experience.”
“Sure.” Your tone is light, teasing, but there’s something softer under it that Jack can’t quite place.
You have been a little different lately. Jack noticed it before he meant to. It’s just in glimpses, short moments where you linger a little longer than usual after a hard case. Your usual optimism is by no means gone, but it seems like you’re fighting a little more for it. The smile is still there. Still warm, still steady. But sometimes it takes a second longer to show up.
Sometimes he catches the moment just before it does. The quiet breath you take before turning back to a patient. The way your shoulders drop when you think no one’s looking. The way you stare at a chart a little too long after delivering bad news. Most people probably wouldn’t notice, but he does.
You push yourself off the counter and walk up beside him, leaning slightly so you can see the board better. Your shoulder brushes his arm for half a second before you settle next to him. Neither of you mention it.
“Got anything good for me?” you ask, leaning a little closer, eyes bright even though your body is clearly tired.
“I got a dislocated collarbone in room twelve,” he offers.
You’re studying the list, brow slightly furrowed now, that little smile still sitting at the corner of your mouth like it belongs there. It’s ridiculous, honestly, how much it steadies him.
“Yeah, we better get that fixed,” you murmur, voice low, almost to yourself, but loud enough that Jack hears.
He glances at you, smiling despite himself. “You know cherrypicking is against hospital policy, right?”
“You’re one to talk,” you shoot back, eyes glinting.
Jack snorts softly, shaking his head. “That’s called careful evaluation. Strategic thinking.”
“Strategic, huh?” you tease, leaning just a little closer, it makes you brush your shoulder against his side again. It’s just the slightest touch, but it’s still enough for him to notice. “If you say so,” you murmur, voice low and teasing, “but I think we both know you just like standing here watching me pick the fun cases.”
Jack shakes his head, though a grin tugs at the corner of his mouth. “You finish your notes on the chest pain in four?”
“Yep,” you say. “Negative trops, normal EKG, probably reflux. I set up discharge and told him to follow up with his PCP.”
Jack nods once, approving.
You glance sideways at him. “You already knew that, didn’t you?”
“Just checking.”
“You’re so reassuring,” you deadpan.
Jack’s mouth twitches faintly, like he’s trying not to smile and mostly failing. “Part of my job description.”
You huff out a quiet laugh, shaking your head, but you don’t move away. If anything, you settle a little more comfortably beside him, shoulder still brushing his arm every now and then when one of you shifts. It’s easy like this, too easy.
“Yeah,” you murmur after a beat, voice softer now, “it’s… nice to have a good attending.”
Jack glances at you, caught slightly off guard by the softness in your voice. He opens his mouth to respond, he doesn’t even know what to say, but he is cut off when your phone suddenly rings. The sound slices clean through the quiet moment.
You blink, startled, and pull it from your pocket, glancing at the screen. Your expression changes immediately. The teasing ease disappears. Your shoulders stiffen just slightly. You frown, glancing at the screen. “Sorry, I really need to take this.”
You turn and begin walking away with quick steps, your thumb swiping over the answer button almost instinctively. “Hello?” Your voice is calm, but there’s an undertone of alertness now, of attention fully focused.
Jack watches you as you disappear down the hall. He gives a soft shake of his head, almost like he’s trying to shake off the sudden shift from warm ease to professional focus. Then he turns back to the board, pushing his thoughts aside.
But he barely has time to refocus before Lena appears at the board, her expression tense but professional. She doesn’t waste words. “We’ve got a trauma coming in. Motorcycle accident, one patient, multiple injuries. Five minutes away.”
That’s all it takes for him to snap fully back. “Do we have vitals?”
“No.”
“Okay, room prep. Get trauma two cleared, full protocol, you know the drill,” he says, already moving. “Vitals on arrival,” he calls out as he reaches the bay.
The patient is in rough shape upon arrival, but he pulls through and after working on him for half an hour he’s finally stable and on his way up to surgery.
Jack peels off his gloves, the latex snapping softly as he drops them into the bin, and as he washes his hands the adrenaline finally begins to ebb. Warm water runs over his fingers as he scrubs methodically, gaze fixed somewhere on the tiled wall in front of him
The patient had made it. Stable enough for surgery, that counts as a win in the ER. He steps out of the trauma bay and stops short.
You’re in the hallway near triage. On your hip is a toddler, she can’t be more than two years old, sleepy, fighting a great fight to keep her eyes open, clutching a stuffed rabbit to her chest. In front of you, perched on a gurney with an ice pack pressed to her head, is a little girl who looks suspiciously like you. Same eyes, same shape to the mouth. Even the tilt of her head when she looks up at you feels familiar. She looks to be about five or six years old.
For a second his brain just stalls, and then it does something unhelpful. Oh… she has kids. It’s absurd how hard that thought lands. Around him, whispers start immediately.
“Did you know she had kids?”
“Since when?”
“Wait, is she married?”
Jack hates how tight his chest feels. You never mentioned a partner. Never mentioned children. He’s spent so long memorizing all the little things about you, the way you take your coffee, the way you sigh after long shifts, the way you rub your temples when you’re overwhelmed, and somehow missed an entire family?
He watches you press your forehead to the little girls on the gurney’s, murmuring reassurances. The toddler tiredly pats your cheek like she’s comforting you too. Jack feels something in his chest rearrange.
Ellis raises a brow at him. “Did you know?”
“No,” he mutters, unable to look away.
Jack watches the scene like he’s accidentally stepped into someone else’s life.
You’re standing there in the harsh fluorescent light of the ER hallway, still in your scrubs, just like he has seen you hundreds of times before, now you’re just holding a toddler like it’s the most natural thing in the world. Your hand is rubbing slow circles on her back while you lean down toward the older girl on the gurney.
Jack stands there longer than he should. Long enough to feel vaguely like he’s intruding on something private. Because the version of you he knows exists in trauma bays and chart rooms and late-night coffee runs. The version of you who stubbornly smiles through brutal shifts and argues politely with patients who want to leave against medical advice
This version of you is… different. Soft in a way that makes something in his chest pull tight. But then he pulls himself together. Because standing there staring isn’t helping anyone. And the whispers behind him are getting louder.
“Did she ever mention kids to you?” someone murmurs.
“Nope.”
“Do we know who the dad is?”
Jack’s jaw tightens. He steps forward before he can think too hard about it. You turn your head in his direction as he approaches. For a moment your expression freezes, but you recover quickly, shifting the toddler a little higher on your hip as her little head droops against your shoulder.
“Hey,” he says, keeping his voice low and even. “What have we got her?”
You glance down at the little girl on the gurney before answering, your voice automatically shifting into the calm, clinical tone Jack is used to hearing during rounds.
“She fell out of bed and hit the corner of the nightstand,” you finish gently, brushing a stray piece of hair away from the little girl’s forehead. “She cried right away. No loss of consciousness, no vomiting. Babysitter said she seemed a little dizzy after, but she’s been alert the whole time.”
“I just had to pee,” the little girl insists, her lower lip wobbles a little.
You give her a soft smile immediately. “I know you did,” you murmur gently, brushing your thumb across her cheek where a tear had started to slip down.
The toddler on your hip lifts her head a little at the sound of your voice, blinking slowly like she’s trying very hard to stay awake. Her tiny hand pats your shoulder once before she tucks her face back into your neck, rabbit still clutched tight.
Jack feels something strange twist in his chest.
“Let’s get her to peds and have a look,” Jack says gently.
You nod immediately.
The next five minutes pass in a blur, the kind of blur that only comes from moving quickly but carefully, every motion practiced and precise. You walk beside the gurney, still cradling the toddler, while Jack guides the gurney towards the pediatric room.
“I’m Dr. Abbot,” Jack begins, his voice calm but firm, as he closes the door behind them, shutting out the harsh fluorescent buzz of the main ER. He glances at you, taking in how naturally you balance the toddler on your hip while keeping an eye on the older girl. “Is it okay if I take a look at your head and ask a few questions?” he says gently as he pulls, first a chair for you to sit beside the gurney, before rolling a stool for himself to sit on the other side.
You whisper a small thank you as you settle, carefully shifting the toddler from your hip to your lap, letting her slump a little as her eyelids droop.
“Okay,” the little girl on the gurney whispers.
You give her a soft nod, brushing a stray curl from her forehead. “Dr. Abbot is just going to check your head and make sure everything’s okay, alright? He will be super gentle, I promise. He’s really, really good at this.”
Jack feels a strange mixture of awe and something heavier, something private, almost fragile, coil in his chest. He swallows hard, keeping his voice low and steady, though his chest feels just a little too tight. “Yeah, I’m gonna be super gentle, promise.”
Jack wheels his stool a little closer to the gurney, keeping his movements slow and unthreatening the way you would with any nervous pediatric patient. The little girl watches him carefully, her small fingers gripping the edge of the blanket.
“Alright,” he says softly, offering her a small, reassuring smile. “First things first, what’s your name?”
“Sophia,” she says in a small voice.
Jack nods gently, keeping his tone soft and warm. “Hi, Sophia,” he says, like they’re just meeting under normal circumstances and not in the middle of a late-night ER visit. “That’s a really good name. Means wisdom, right?”
“Mhm,” she nods seriously, like this is very important information.
Jack smiles faintly. Your thumb brushes gently over her ankle through the blanket. “Alright,” Jack continues gently, shifting a little closer on the stool. “I have this flashlight,” Jack says, pulling the small penlight from the pocket of his scrub top. He clicks it on, letting the beam shine briefly against the wall first so Sophia can see it. “I’m just going to use it to look at your eyes, okay?”
Sophia watches the light with cautious curiosity. “Okay…” she murmurs.
“Perfect,” he says, offering her a small, reassuring smile. Jack keeps his movements slow and predictable, the way he would with any nervous kid. “Can you look right at my nose for me?” he asks gently.
She is very cooperative, squinting a little as she focuses hard on the middle of his face.
“Perfect,” Jack murmurs. He lifts the penlight and shines it briefly into one eye, then the other, watching the pupils carefully as they react to the light. “Great job,” he murmurs. “You’re really good at this.”
That seems to make her proud. Her shoulders lift just a little, like she’s sitting a bit taller on the gurney. Jack notices and lets the moment sit for a second before continuing.
“Alright,” he says gently, clicking the penlight off and slipping it back into his pocket. “Now can you follow my finger with your eyes, not your head.”
Sophia nods solemnly, clearly taking the task very seriously. Jack lifts a finger in front of her face and begins to move it slowly from side to side. Sophia’s eyes track it carefully, her brow furrowing in concentration.
“Perfect,” he murmurs. “Now up here.” He moves his finger upward, then down, watching closely as her gaze follows smoothly. “Great job.”
Sophia’s shoulders relax a little at the praise.
“I heard you felt a bit dizzy after you fell,” Jack continues gently. “Does your head feel spinny right now? Or do you feel nauseous at all?”
Sophia thinks about it very seriously, her brow scrunching as she considers the question.
“A little before,” she admits quietly. “But not now.”
Jack nods once, calm and reassuring. “Okay, that’s good.”
But the little girl shuffles slightly on the gurney. “But I still have to pee…” she says quietly.
You sigh, closing your eyes a brief second, the sound carrying a mixture of exhaustion and guilt. “You never got to go to the bathroom, did you, sweetheart.”
“No,” she says, her voice small.
The sound of your voice wakes the toddler on your lap, her eyelids fluttering as she takes in her surroundings. Her eyes land on Jack wide and curious, a tiny frown tugging at the corner of her mouth. You shift slightly, holding her securely against your chest while keeping one hand free to guide Sophia.
The little girl in your lap lifts the stuffed rabbit in her hand and points it vaguely in Jack’s direction.
“Bun,” she informs him.
Jack nods very seriously. “That’s a great bunny.”
She seems satisfied with that. Her little frown turns into the sweetest, little tentative smile, and she wiggles slightly against your chest, the rabbit still clutched tight.
“Let’s go find a toilet,” you murmur softly, shifting the toddler gently so she’s more comfortable against your hip, but her little feet kick lightly, a little whiny sound of disapproval leaving her mouth, like she isn’t willing to move so shortly after being woken up. “Sweetie, Sophia has to go to the bathroom,” you murmur gently, tilting your head so the toddler can see your face. Her little frown deepens, and she lets out another small whiny sound, hugging her bunny a little tighter.
“Here,” Jack says, reacting on instinct more than thought, holding his arms out gently toward the toddler. “Want to come to me for a sec?”
Your eyes finds his, a tired, thankful look in your eyes as hand the little girl over her tiny body shifting hesitantly into Jack’s arms. He catches her with ease, one hand under her bottom, the other supporting her back, letting her hug her rabbit close against his chest. The toddler relaxes slightly, leaning into him as if she’s known him far longer than a few minutes.
Jack gives a soft, reassuring hum, careful not to startle her. “There we go,” he murmurs gently, adjusting her so she’s comfortable.
“Okay, let’s find you a toilet,” you murmur to Sophia, gently squeezing her hand. “Are you okay to walk?”
She nods and you help her down fram the gurney, your hands steadying her as she plants her small feet on the floor. “We will be back in a minute,” you say, looking at Jack.
Jack gives a small nod, his arms still steady around the toddler. “I’ve got her,” he says softly, his voice low and calm, like he’s afraid any sudden sound might startle her.
You glance at him, the weight of the night and the exhaustion in both of you hanging between you for a moment. “Thank you,” you murmur quietly, the tired gratitude threading through the simple phrase.
Jack meets your eyes for just a second, his expression softening in a way that makes your chest tighten slightly. “Of course,” he murmurs, his tone steady and gentle, a small, almost imperceptible smile tugging at his lips. “Anytime,” he says gently, shifting the toddler slightly so she’s snug against his chest.
You make it to the door, Sophia’s hand in yours, your gaze lingers for a moment, grateful and weary, before you turn your attention back to Sophia and leave the room. The toddler shifts a little in his arms, pressing her cheek more firmly against his chest, and Jack instinctively rocks her just a fraction, careful and deliberate.
Jack adjusts her tiny weight slightly, settling her more comfortably against him. Her small sigh of contentment is almost inaudible, but it’s enough to draw a faint, careful smile across his face. He rocks her gently, slow and steady, as if the motion itself could smooth out the rough edges of the night.
He glances down at her little hand clutching the stuffed bunny, the way she presses it to her chest like it’s a lifeline. Even in the chaos of the ER, this small, quiet connection feels grounding. His eyes flick up briefly toward where you’ve just disappeared with Sophia, and there’s a flicker of something unspoken in his chest, acknowledgment, relief, admiration.
For a few seconds, it’s just him and the toddler, the world outside the room fading to the soft rhythm of her breathing and the faint hum of hospital life beyond the walls. Jack rocks her just a little more, careful not to disturb the fragile bubble of calm, letting himself breathe into it, too.
He had no idea that you had children, but seeing you now, so effortlessly caring, so present even under the harsh glare of the ER lights, shifts something in him.
The image of you juggling a little tired toddler on your hip while gently guiding Sophia, your voice soft and steady, imprints itself firmly in his mind. It’s not just admiration or curiosity, it’s a quiet, sinking awe that someone so capable, so brilliant, also carries this other life, these tiny, fragile humans who rely on you so completely.
“I never got your name,” he murmurs, careful, low, his voice soft as if saying it too loud might shatter the fragile calm between him and the toddler. The little girl in his arms shifts slightly, nuzzling her cheek against his chest, and he instinctively rocks her just a fraction more. She is clearly too tired to answer, but he wasn’t expecting her to do so anyway.
Her small hand twitches, brushing against the edge of the stuffed rabbit, and he tightens his hold just a little, letting her feel secure. The simplicity of it, her trust, her quiet presence, anchors him more than any adrenaline rush or successful trauma ever could.
For a few minutes it’s just him and her, the faint hum of the hospital, the steady rhythm of her breathing, the gentle sway of his arms. Jack exhales slowly, letting himself sink into the strange, grounding calm.
When you come back the world shifts again, snapping into motion with the same gentle urgency that fills every corner of the ER. Sophia’s hand still clasped in yours, her steps small but determined. The little girl in Jack’s arms stirs slightly at the sound of your voice, lifting her head and blinking up at you with sleepy, trusting eyes.
Jack straightens just a fraction, still careful, still protective, as if even a slight motion might break the fragile bubble of calm. “We’re back,” you murmur, voice soft but steady, like a bridge between the chaos outside and the tiny universe he’s holding. “Did you fall asleep again, honey?” you murmur gently, tilting your head slightly so the toddler can see your face.
The little girl in Jack’s arms lets out a tiny, sleepy yawn and snuggles closer, her grip on the rabbit tightening just a fraction. Jack shifts her slightly as he stands up, easing her into the curve of your shoulder as you step closer. “She’s been a really good girl,” he says quietly, his voice low and steady, careful not to startle her. “Just got herself a little nap.”
You smile softly down at the toddler, brushing a strand of hair from her face. “I see that,” you murmur, pressing a light kiss to the top of her head before looking at him again. You smile softly, warmth threading through your tired eyes. “Thank you,” you murmur, voice gentle but carrying that quiet, exhausted gratitude that Jack can feel in his chest more than he can hear.
He meets your gaze, just for a moment, his expression softening in response, the small crease between his brows easing. “Anytime,” he murmurs, voice low and calm, a faint, careful smile tugging at his lips as he adjusts the toddler slightly so she’s snug against your shoulder again.
The little girl presses her face into your chest, and you can’t help but hum softly in response, rocking her gently.
Jack feels that quiet, twisting mix of awe and something warmer, something protective, settle deeper in his chest. He has to look away as if to reset himself, to stop his thoughts from spiraling too far. The sight of you, so effortlessly present with the toddler and Sophia, so gentle and patient, so human, feels like it’s pulling at something inside him he wasn’t sure he still had room for.
He turns his attention back to Sophia. “Alright,” he murmurs, voice soft and steady, “let’s see how your head’s feeling now.”
Sophia nods, her weary seemingly fully gone, her weariness seemingly fully gone now, replaced with that careful, attentive focus that comes from trying to do exactly what she’s asked. Jack helps her up onto the gurney just enough so she’s sitting comfortably, his hands steadying her small frame. “Good job,” he murmurs, his voice calm, low, gentle. “Did you hit anything besides your head when you fell? Anywhere else it hurts?”
Sophia thinks seriously for a moment, brow furrowed. “No… just my head.”
Jack nods slowly, his voice still calm and gentle. “Okay, that’s good to know.”
Jack’s eyes soften as he examines the small gash on Sophia’s forehead. It’s shallow, just enough to bleed a little, but nothing alarming. He keeps his tone calm, gentle, and steady, aware of how closely you’re watching.
“I’m gonna clean this up, okay?” Jack murmurs softly, leaning slightly closer so Sophia can see exactly what he’s doing.
“Okay,”she whispers, her small voice tentative but trusting.
“And then I’m gonna close the wound with a little bit of medical super glue,” Jack continues gently. Keeping his voice is calm, low and steady, the kind that makes scary things seem small.
Sophia’s eyes widen just slightly at the mention of glue, and she leans back a fraction. Jack notices immediately and gives a reassuring smile. “Super glue?” she whispers, her voice tiny and uncertain, brows furrowing.
Jack nods gently, keeping his tone soft and steady. “Yeah, but it’s not the kind you use at home. This is special hospital glue. It helps the skin stick together so it heals really fast. You won’t even feel it much, I promise.”
“It’s true,” you murmur softly, brushing a stray curl from Sophia’s forehead, your voice gentle and reassuring. “And Jack is really good at this, and the glue helps your wound heal so it doesn’t leave so bad of a scar.”
Sophia blinks up at you, confusion knitting her small brows together. “Who is Jack?” she asks, her voice small but genuinely curious.
“I mean Dr. Abbot,” you correct yourself, looking a little sheepish as you glance back at him.
For a moment Jack pauses, he can’t help but like the way his name sounded when you said it. It sounds easy coming from you, natural in a way that settles somewhere warm in his chest before he has time to think about it. The corner of his mouth lifting in quiet amusement.
“Jack is fine,” he says gently, his voice warm as he crouches slightly so he’s more at Sophia’s eye level.
Sophia studies him very seriously, her small face thoughtful, for just about half a second before she then gives a small, decisive nod. “Okay.”
Jack’s smile softens at her approval. “Okay,” he echoes lightly. “Now let’s get that wound cleaned.”
Sophia nods again, a little braver now that she knows what’s going to happen. It’s a quick, careful process. Jack works with practiced ease, dabbing gently at the small cut while keeping his movements slow enough that nothing startles her.
“There we go,” he murmurs softly. “This might sting a little.”
Sophia scrunches her nose a little at the cool antiseptic wipe but holds perfectly still, her small hands gripping the edge of the gurney.
“You’re doing amazing,” Jack adds quietly, genuine approval in his voice.
Beside the gurney, you shift the toddler slightly against your shoulder as she stirs, humming softly until she settles again, her cheek pressed into your chest and the stuffed rabbit tucked under her chin. The quiet rhythm of it fills the small space between the four of you.
Jack finishes cleaning the wound and straightens just a little, reaching for the small applicator of medical glue. “Alright,” he says gently. “Now for the tiny bit of glue we talked about. This part is really quick.”
Sophia nods solemnly, eyes fixed on him, trusting. It’s a quick fix, and he’s sure the scarring will be minimal. “And… done,” he says softly after a second, leaning back.
Sophia’s shoulders drop in visible relief. “All finished?” she asks hopefully.
Jack smiles. “All finished.”
A small proud smile spreads across her face, and she happily accepts his offer of a high five when he lifts his palm. Sophia beams, as her small hand connects with his in a perfect, confident high five. The sound echoes softly in the room, and Jack can’t help but mirror her grin, warmth threading through the exhaustion of the night, and when Jack glances at you, there’s that same quiet warmth in your eyes that makes his chest tighten in a way it probably shouldn’t, but he just can’t help it.
That warmth in your eyes lingers for just a moment too long. Jack notices it immediately. He notices everything about you lately, which is exactly the problem.
Sophia is still smiling proudly, clearly thrilled that the entire ordeal ended with a high five instead of something scarier. The toddler in your arms has sunk back into that half-asleep state, her cheek pressed against your shoulder, rabbit tucked beneath her chin.
And it hits Jack all over again how strange it feels to see you like this. That he hasn’t known this part of you. Not in passing conversation between patients. Not in the quiet moments over stale coffee at two in the morning. Not in the long shifts where people start sharing pieces of their lives just to stay awake.
And yet here you are, like this has always existed just outside the edges of the world he knows. Sophia swings her legs a little where she sits on the gurney, clearly pleased with both the praise and the attention.
“See?” you murmur softly to her, brushing a curl back from her forehead. “Told you he was good.”
Jack pretends not to notice the way you said that, like it’s something you’ve known for a long time.
Sophia nods seriously. “Mhm.”
Jack huffs a quiet laugh under his breath. “Well,” he says lightly, pushing himself up from the stool, “I had a very good patient.”
Sophia sits a little taller at that, visibly proud of herself. The little girl stirs faintly against your shoulder, her small fingers tightening in your scrubs as she shifts. You instinctively rock her a little, one hand coming up to steady the back of her head while the other rests against her back.
The movement is automatic, practiced. Jack notices that too, of course he does.
You shift slightly, adjusting the toddler so she’s more comfortable against your hip, and murmur softly. “We should probably go find Lauren,” you say with a small smile to Sophia before you look at Jack to explain. “She’s their babysitter, she was panicking when they came in, so I told her to take a snack in the cafeteria.”
Jack nods. “It’s never fun being the babysitter when accidents happen.”
“Yeah, it feels like a big responsibility to take care of other’s kids…” you mumble, your gaze turning briefly to the toddler in your arms. Jack follows your glance down at the little girl in your arms, who’s nuzzled comfortably against you, and his chest tightens just a fraction.
Your gaze turns to Sophia. “Are you okay going home with Lauren now? I will be back for breakfast.”
“You don’t have to stay,” Jack interrupts softly, keeping his voice low so as not to startle the toddler in your arms.
“I would really like to follow up on my asthma patient,” you murmur quietly, voice low but firm, glancing at Jack. “Is that okay?” you ask, now turned to the girl on the gurney.
Sophia nods solemnly. “Mhm,” she says, trusting, a faint smile tugging at her lips.
He holds the door open for you as you leave the pediatrics room. You shift slightly, adjusting the toddler so she’s more comfortable against your hip, and pause just outside the door.
“Can you say goodbye to Dr. Abbot,” you murmur softly to Sophia, brushing a curl from her forehead.
Sophia looks up at him and lifts her hand in a tiny wave. “Bye, Dr. Jack,” she says clearly, her voice proud and earnest.
Jack crouches slightly, meeting her gaze with a soft, warm smile. “Bye, Sophia. You were so brave tonight.”
Sophia beams at the praise, then lifts her hand for a high five. Jack feels a warm molten feeling rise in his chest as he raises his own hand to meet hers, holding it steady at her height. Her small palm smacks against his with a crisp confidence, and she grins like she’s just won something important.
“Alright,” he murmurs with a soft chuckle, lowering his hand again. “Perfect high five.”
The little girl’s grin only widens at that, clearly thrilled with herself. She rocks a little on her heels, still glowing with pride.
Jack’s eyes meet yours as he straightens again, and for a moment the hallway feels quieter than it should, the distant noise of the ER fading into the background. There’s a softness in his expression he doesn’t quite try to hide.
You give him a small, tired smile in return, shifting the toddler slightly, the movement, and the chance from the quiet room to the hallway waking her. She blinks sleepily, brow knitting for a moment as she lifts her head, still clutching the stuffed rabbit beneath her chin. Her eyes drift around the hallway before settling on him.
For a second she just stares at him, heavy-lidded and quiet, trying to place where she is. Her fingers tighten a little in the fabric of your scrubs, rabbit still tucked under her chin.
Jack’s expression softens even more at the sleepy focus of her gaze. “Hey there,” he murmurs gently, careful to keep his voice low.
A small, sleepy smile tugs at the toddler’s lips at the sound of his voice, slow and uncertain but unmistakably there. She blinks at him once more and her smile widens, the kind that belongs entirely to half-awake toddlers who haven’t quite decided if they’re still dreaming.
She lets out a sleepy giggle, soft and warm, the kind that seems to fill the small space between you all. The soft giggle seems to catch him completely off guard, and his smile widens despite himself.
“Oh, you are a real charmer, aren’t you,” Jack murmurs quietly, voice warm as he watches her fight sleep. Jack tilts his head slightly, studying her for a second before glancing up at you.
“What’s her name?” he asks softly.
“Her name is Rosa, but we call her Rosie the most,” Sophia says quickly, clearly pleased to be the one answering. A small smile touching your lips as you glance down at the toddler. Sophia rocks a little beside you, clearly proud of the introduction she just delivered.
“Yeah, you’re our little flower, right?” you murmur softly, brushing your fingers lightly over Rosie’s cheek.
Jack’s gaze lingers on the two of you, something warm and thoughtful settling in his expression.
Rosie lets out one more tiny, breathy giggle before she suddenly leans toward him, her tiny hand reaching out curiously. Without thinking, Jack steps closer and lets her grab one of his fingers.
Jack stills for a second when her tiny hand closes around his finger. Her grip is warm and unexpectedly strong for someone so small and half-asleep. Rosie peers at their joined hands with slow, fascinated focus, like she’s just discovered something very important.
Jack watches her for a moment, careful not to move too quickly. “Well,” he murmurs softly, glancing up at you with a quiet, amused smile, “that’s… a pretty firm handshake.”
“Yeah, she’s tougher than she looks,” you say softly, a quiet hint of amusement in your voice, though there’s something else there too, something more subdued, almost melancholic. Jack notices it. “And so are you Phia,” you murmur quietly, shifting your gaze down to the older girl, giving her hand a gentle squeeze.
It’s as he stands there, watching the three of you, with Rosie’s tiny fingers still curling lightly around his, that Lena comes walking down the hallway. Her steps are light but purposeful, an ipad tucked under one arm.
“Dr. Abbot we need you in room four,” Lena calls softly as she approaches, her voice gentle but carrying that unmistakable urgency. She glances at the scene before her, Rosie still holding Jack’s finger, Sophia’s small hand in yours, and the quiet warmth between you all, and offers a small, understanding smile.
Jack gives Rosie one last, careful squeeze of her tiny hand before letting go, to let her curl her fingers back around your scrubs. “Duty calls,” he murmurs softly, a small, reluctant smile tugging at his lips as he straightens.
Rosie blinks slowly when his finger slips from her grasp, her tiny hand hovering in the air for a moment as if she’s trying to understand where it went. Then her fingers curl again, to bunch into the fabric of your scrubs instead. She lets out a small, sleepy hum and presses her cheek back against your shoulder, rabbit still tucked beneath her chin.
Sophia watches the exchange with great seriousness before giving Jack another small wave. “Goodbye,” she says earnestly.
Jack’s smile softens. “Bye, Sophia,” he replies gently. “Take care of your sister, okay?”
Sophia nods like she’s just been entrusted with something very important. Jack’s gaze flicks back to you then, lingering for a quiet second.
“I’ll be back on duty in sec,” you say quietly, almost apologetically, shifting Rosie a little higher on your hip so her head rests more comfortably against your shoulder. The words half directed to Lena, who pauses a step behind Jack, her expression softening with understanding.
She gives a small nod. “Take your time,” she says gently.
Jack’s eyes linger on you for another moment, the corner of his mouth lifting faintly as he watches you adjust Rosie against your shoulder, the toddler already drifting fully back into sleep.
For half a second he doesn’t moment, he doesn’t move. “See you back on the floor,” he says finally, his voice low but warm, a hint of a smile tugging at the corners of his mouth. He gives the girls a last wave then he turns with Lena, the two of them heading down the hallway toward the ER rooms, already slipping back into the rhythm of the shift.
The shift hums around him again, he checks his watch briefly before slipping back into the flow of patients and charting.
It’s not until the end of the shift that he gets a chance to speak with you again. It’s quiet now, the ER settling into the slower rhythm that comes in the early morning. You’re at the nurses station, finishing up the last of your charting while chewing lightly on your lower lip. He walks up to the station, settling his forearms on the counter, learning slightly toward you as he watches you work.
He watches you for a quiet moment, the hum of the ER soft around the two of you. “You know lip chewing can lead to inflammation,” he says quietly, the teasing edge in his voice soft but present as his gaze lingers on you.
You glance up quickly. “Of course, I’m a doctor,” you say with a small, mock-offended smile, tilting your head slightly. “And I’m not chewing my lip,” you mumble, though the small twitch betrays you. “But I am finishing my charting,” you say, pushing the last key with a satisfying click. You push back slightly from the keyboard, letting your shoulders relax, and finally look up at him fully.
He offers you a small, amused smile, the kind that lingers more in his eyes than on his lips. For a moment neither of you says anything. The quiet of the early morning hums around you, monitors beeping softly somewhere down the hall.
The events of the night seem to hang quietly between you for a moment. Rosie’s sleepy giggle and Sophia’s bright smile, seems to linger in the air, like soft echoes. But that underlying melancholy he has noticed earlier still lingers faintly beneath it all.
His expression softens a little as he watches you, though the hint of amusement never fully leaves his eyes. “Been a long night,” he says quietly.
You nod once, letting out a small breath. “Yeah.”
For a second the two of you just stay there in the quiet hum of the ER. Then you glance toward the clock, push your chair back, and stand.
“Walk with me?” you ask casually, nodding toward the hallway that leads to the staff lockers.
“Sure,” Jack replies easily, pushing himself away from the counter.
He falls into step beside you as you head down the quieter hallway toward the lockers. For a moment neither of you says anything. It’s the kind of quiet that doesn’t feel awkward, just tired after a long shift.
“Thank you for being so gentle with them earlier,” you say after a few steps, your voice quieter now, almost thoughtful.
Jack glances over at you, a little surprised by the sudden sincerity in your tone. “Of course,” he says softly, his voice low but steady. “And it wasn’t hard, they’re great kids.”
You glance at him briefly, catching the subtle warmth in his expression, and then look away, letting a small smile tug at your lips. “I just… appreciate it. They have had a hard time, and they don’t usually warm up so quickly to new people.”
Jack gives a small, easy shrug. “Guess I got lucky.”
You chuckle softly, shaking your head. “Yeah, lucky for them… and for me.”
For a moment, neither of you speaks, the quiet of the hallway wrapping around you like a soft blanket after the chaos of the shift. Then you reach the lockers the two of you stop, letting the quiet stretch for a beat longer.
“You never told us you have kids.” It comes out rougher than he means it to.
You blink up at him, your tired eyes catching his, those pretty, pretty eyes of yours. “It’s also relatively new… they’re my nieces,” you say quietly. “My sister and her husband...” Your throat tightens, and you swallow hard before continuing. “They were in a car accident five months ago.” The words settle heavy. “I adopted them.”
Jack swears the air gets knocked out of him. The resemblance clicks into place in a different way now,
“I didn’t know.”
You shrug, offering him a sad smile.“I haven’t told anyone here.”
Jack blinks, his expression softening as he processes your words.
“I guess, I needed to have a place, where things just were ,as they used to,” you continue quietly. “I didn’t know how to tell you guys without breaking down, and I can’t do that, I have to be there for the girls.”
Jack’s eyes soften even more, the air of playful teasing that often hangs between the too of you is gone completely now, replaced with steady, quiet understanding. He shifts slightly closer, careful not to crowd you, letting his presence speak more than words.
“You’re doing amazing,” he says softly. “I don’t think most people could handle what you’ve taken on… but you-you’re doing it. And you’re doing it so well.”
You let out a small, shaky breath, the tension in your shoulders easing just a fraction. “I try,” you mumble, your voice barely above the quiet hum of the hallway. “But some days… it feels like I’m just holding everything together by a thread.”
Jack doesn’t rush to fill the silence. He simply shifts a little closer, his presence steady and grounding, the kind of calm that doesn’t demand anything from you. “I get that,” he says softly. “It’s a lot to carry, but you’re carrying it with so much care. And if you need anything,” he continues, his voice low and steady, “you can always ask. No judgments, no questions.”
You blink up at him, the words settling around you like a warm, quiet reassurance. “I… thank you,” you murmur, your voice barely above a whisper, yet it carries the weight of genuine relief. “It means a lot… just knowing that.”
Jack gives a small, steady nod, his eyes never leaving yours. “You’re never alone,” he says softly. “Even when it feels like it, you’ve got people who care. And I’ll always be one of them.”
For a moment, the hallway feels almost suspended in time, the soft hum of the ER fading into the background as the two of you simply stand there. You let out a small, shaky laugh, the kind that carries both exhaustion and a touch of gratitude. “I guess I’m pretty lucky then,” you say quietly.
“Maybe,” Jack replies, a hint of warmth tugging at the corners of his mouth. “But mostly… you’ve earned it.”
You glance at him, meeting that steady, unspoken understanding in his eyes, and for the first time in hours, it feels like you can finally exhale.
“I would ask you if you wanted to grab a quick coffee before heading out, but I promised someone I would be home for breakfast,” you trail off, a small, wry smile tugging at your lips. “But some other time, maybe?” you add softly, tilting your head toward him, voice casual but carrying a quiet hope and just a hint of your usual teasing edge.
Jack lets out a quiet, warm laugh, the tension in his shoulders easing just slightly. “Yeah, I would never say no to that,” he says, his voice low and easy, a faint smile tugging at the corners of his mouth.
“Great,” you murmur, a small, relieved smile tugging at your lips. You finally unlock your locker, grabbing your bag and jacket.
“Get home safe, okay?” Jack says softly, his tone gentle but carrying that quiet weight of care.
You give a small nod, slinging your bag over your shoulder. “I will.”
“Good. And I’ll look forward to that coffee,” he says, the faint teasing edge returning to his tone.
You glance at him, a soft smile tugging at your lips. “Me too.”
For a second neither of you moves, but the quiet between you isn’t awkward, it’s warm, steady, like something gently settling into place.
Jack nods once, that small smile still resting at the corner of his mouth. “Good,” he says softly.
You pull your jacket on and adjust the strap of your bag on your shoulder. The exhaustion of the shift is still there, the tired gaze still lingering in your eyes, but it doesn’t seem quite as suffocating as it did earlier.
As you step past him, he shifts slightly to give you space, but his hand briefly brushes your arm, light, almost absent-minded, the kind of touch that lingers for just a fraction of a second longer than necessary.
“Hey,” he says quietly.
You glance back at him.
“Seriously… you’re doing a great thing,” he adds, voice low but certain.
You give him a smile, the kind that’s tired but genuine, your eyes softening just a little. “I hope so,” you say quietly. “And thank you, Jack.”
“Of course,” he replies softly. For a moment he just looks at you, debating with himself if he should say something else but decides against it. Instead he gives you a small nod, the kind that carries quiet certainty. “And you’ve got this,” he adds simply.
You hold his gaze for a second longer, something warm and steady passing between you. Then you shift your bag a little higher on your shoulder.
“I’ll see you around,” you say, a faint smile touching your lips.
“Yeah.”
He leans back lightly against the lockers, watching as you start down the hallway toward the exit, the soft morning light already creeping in from the far glass doors.
“Get some sleep,” he calls after you gently.
You glance back over your shoulder with a tired smile. “I will, after breakfast duty.”
That earns a quiet laugh from him.
And as you disappear out the doors, Jack stays there a moment longer than necessary, hands in his pockets, the faintest smile still on his face, already looking forward to that coffee.
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Denis x f!reader who is Santos best friend and has no idea that she got a new roommate and turns out he is cute 🥺🙂↕️ (looove your writing!)
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Dennis Whitaker x f!reader || Masterlist || Spotify
summary: An unexpected visit over takeout leads to quiet first impressions, gentle curiosity, and a surprising easy evening.
word count: 3.1k
note/tags: Fluff. No use of y/n. Reader and Santos are best friends. Mention of background Sntos x Garcia. Let’s just pretend that Dennis has his season 2 haircut here.
You don’t knock like a stranger. You knock like someone who’s been here a hundred times before, it’s how you always knock when you visit Trin. Two quick raps before you shift the bag of takeout to your other hand, already half-turning to check your phone while you wait.
Trinity didn’t answer your call, but you decided to come anyway, because you’ve never needed an invitation before. You also have a key, just like she has one to your place.
You smile to yourself, thinking about a funny thing that happened at work, that you’re excited to tell her about. But when the door opens the smile dies on your face, because the person standing in the doorway is not your best friend. It’s a guy… A guy you have never seen before.
He looks like someone who wasn’t expecting anyone. Soft brown curls falling over his forehead, slightly mussed like he’s run his hands through them one too many times. He is in a loose hoody and a pair of pajama pants, looking just as startled as you feel. His blue eyes so wide he looks like a deer caught in headlights.
You blink. He blinks.
“Hi,” he says. His voice is gentler than you expect.
“Hi,” you answer, confusion filling your brain.
You glance past him into the apartment. Same couch, same framed print you helped Trin hang. Same overwatered houseplants, that for some reason, still refuses to die. Wrong person.
“…Is Trinity home?” you ask carefully.
He hesitates like he’s not sure if he’s allowed to answer that. “No, she, uh. She picked up an extra shift.” He steps back automatically, like he thinks he’s in your way.
You stare at him. He shifts under it.
“I-I’m sorry. I’m not, like, breaking in. I live here.”
You raise an eyebrow. “You live here?”
He nods, a little too fast. “Yeah. I moved in a couple weeks ago.”
A couple weeks ago… She was at your place three days ago, yapping about some surgeon she stabbed with a scalpel, and who she definitely has a crush on.
“I’m Dennis,” he adds, as if that might help. It does not.
Your dear friend Trinity Santos sure has some explaining to do.
“Right…” you say slowly, before telling him your own name, and something like recognition flickers over his face. “I guess Trin isn’t coming home anytime soon?”
“Yeah, she only left about an hour ago, and it’s a 12 hour shift, so…”
“Hm,” you hum softly, rocking back on your heels.
You hesitate for just a moment, it’s your best friend’s apartment, but there’s a strange man standing in the doorway, but he also looks like he apologizes when other people bump into him. Worn hoodie. Pajama pants. White tennis socks. Hair just a little too messy. He doesn’t look threatening. He just looks tired. Soft around the edges. Like someone who hasn’t quite caught up on sleep. And if he really is gonna live with Trin you’ll have to get to know him anyway.
“Are you hungry?” you ask suddenly, lifting the takeout bag slightly.
He blinks at you. “Me?”
“No, the cactus,” you deadpan.
His mouth twitches before he can stop it.
“I, uh. I mean, I can Venmo you,” he says quickly. “I don’t want to just—”
“It’s fine,” you cut in. “I bought too much, anyway.” That part isn’t even a lie.
He hesitates, clearly waging some internal moral battle about accepting food from a girl he just met in his borrowed doorway.
“Okay,” he says finally, it’s soft. “Yeah, I’m a little hungry.”
You nod once before stepping inside. He closes the door gently, too gently, like he’s worried it might take offense while you toe off your shoes.
“She said you had a key,” he says.
“I do.”
“Right, yeah, okay.”
A stretch of silence follows. You can feel him standing a polite distance behind you while you set the bag of food on the coffee table before turning again. He’s still watching you, but in that way that doesn’t feel invasive. Just careful, like he’s trying to read the room and not take up too much space in it. There are faint shadows under his eyes. A crease between his brows that looks like it lives there now.
“So,” you say. “You’re Trin’s…?”
He flushes. “Coworker.”
You wait.
“And roommate,” he finishes, like it pains him to assume the title.
“Huh.” You cross your arms and tilt your head. He straightens slightly, as if bracing for interrogation. “So you work at the ER?”
“Yeah, student doctor.”
“Ah.”
That explains the exhaustion. The way he looks like he’s halfway between here and somewhere much louder.
“And she just didn’t think to mention that she moved a man into her apartment?”
His ears go red. “I thought she would have.”
“Well, she didn’t,” you say flatly. “Probably been too busy being in love with that surgeon,” you finish dryly under your breath.
His head snaps up. “What?”
“Oh, she didn’t tell you?” you ask sweetly.
He looks horrified. “No… I mean, I don’t—”
You laugh, the sound finally breaking some of the tension in the room. “Relax, I’m kidding. Mostly.”
He exhales like you just pulled him back from the edge of a cliff. He bites back what might be a smile. It’s subtle, shy, like he doesn’t fully trust it, and something about that makes your chest tighten unexpectedly.
“I’m sorry,” he says again, softer this time. “I didn’t mean to make it weird.”
“You didn’t,” you reply automatically.
But it is weird. Because now that the shock is wearing off, you’re noticing things. Like the way he keeps his hands tucked into the pocket of his hoodie so they won’t fidget, like he’s not sure what to do with them. Or the way he stands slightly off to the side instead of directly in front of you, as if he’s instinctively making space. The way he looks at you when you speak, so attentive, even if it makes him look a little startled every time your eyes meet.
“You look familiar,” he says suddenly.
You frown. “I do?”
“There is a picture of you on the fridge.” His mouth twitches. “I think it’s from new years.”
You close your eyes. “She did not keep that up.”
“It’s very much up.”
Mortification floods you. He’s smiling properly now, small, but real. And god, he’s cute. It’s in an unpolished way, like he hasn’t realized it himself yet.
“Great,” you groan. “Love that for me.”
“It’s a nice picture,” he offers gently. “You look very happy on it.”
That catches you off guard. You swallow. “She has dozens of normal pictures of me,” you mutter
“She likes that one.”
“Of course she does…”
There’s a small pause, and when you look back at him, he’s not laughing at you. He’s just looking. Careful and thoughtful. His ears go a little pink again. “She talks about you a lot.”
That catches you off guard. You weren’t expecting that. Not that you didn’t think your best friend wouldn’t talk about you. Of course she would. You just didn’t expect it to land like that. Or that she talked about you to a guy who lives in her apartment without you knowing about it.
“A lot?” you repeat carefully.
“Yeah.” He nods, then immediately looks like he regrets how quickly he answered. “Not, uh. Not in a weird way. Just… Normal best friend amount… I think.” He pauses. “I don’t actually know what the normal amount is.”
You stare at him for a second. Your pulse picks up, not from fear, but from the strange little warmth of realization. Trin’s world includes this guy now, and apparently, you’re still very much part of it.
“The normal amount,” you repeat slowly.
He winces a little, like he can hear how that sounded. “I just meant, you know, she mentions you. In stories. In passing. When something reminds her of you.”
“It’s only good things, I hope,” you say, almost teasing, though your voice has a little edge of vulnerability. It’s weird sitting with a stranger who knows more about you than you do about him.
He glances up at you, earnest and careful. “Yeah, definitely.”
“That’s a relief.”
“She also said you’d show up unannounced from time to time,” he adds carefully.
“Oh,” you say, caught between amusement and mild exasperation.
“And that if you did, I shouldn’t panic.”
You blink. “Are you panicking?”
He hesitates. “…A little.”
You laugh again, softer now. He lets out a quiet laugh too, almost sheepish, and scratches the back of his neck like he’s aware he’s still on thin ice with you.
“See?” you tease lightly, “Nothing to worry about. I only come bearing food.” You lift the bag slightly.
“Right,” he says, giving a small nod, and a smile, that has no business being that sweet. “That I can handle.”
You set the bag down again, careful not to make things awkward, and watch as he settles a bit more into the room, shoulders loosening like someone letting go of a weight they didn’t realize they’d been carrying.
You gather plates and glass from the kitchen and start to set them out on the coffee table. You don’t say much while you do it. The quiet hum of the apartment, the faint scent of takeout, and the subtle shuffle of Dennis moving around you is enough.
Once the plates and glasses are arranged, you sink into the couch, giving him a small, easy smile. “So you are a student doctor,” you start, resting your elbows on your knees, “and Trin just moved you into her apartment after just meeting you. What else do I need to know about Dennis..?”
“Whttaker,” he says, a little hesitant, as if testing whether you actually want the answer. “Uhm, I don’t know. I’m from Nebraska, grew up on my family’s farm
You tilt your head, studying him, letting the image form in your head. Him being a small town farm boy kind of makes perfect sense. And you can’t help but find it kind of cute too. The way his hands seem used to work, the quiet attentiveness in the way he moves, the soft hesitation in his voice when he’s unsure.
“Farm boy, huh?” you muse lightly, teasing but warm.
He chuckles softly, a little sheepishly, running a hand through his mussed hair. “Yeah… I guess so.”
You grin, letting the small moment stretch out. There’s something easy about sitting here with him, even though you barely know him, there is something unforced about him. The quiet steadiness of someone used to work and responsibility, but without the arrogance that usually comes with it.
“So, Nebraska to Pittsburg,” you say softly, leaning back, curious now. “That’s a bit of a leap.”
He swallows, smiling faintly. “Yeah… I wanted to do something different, I guess. Something where I could… make a difference. The farm’s great, but… I wanted to try something else.”
You nod, letting his words settle. There’s a sincerity to him that’s hard to ignore, the kind that doesn’t feel performative. It’s just him, quietly explaining his path. “I get that,” you say, your tone easy, reflective. “It’s brave, doing something so different.”
He shrugs, still soft, still careful, like he doesn’t want to overstate himself. “I wouldn’t call it brave… just… I don’t know. I guess I needed to know I could do more than what I grew up with.”
You smile, a little warm, a little amused. He meets your smile with a faint one of his own, hesitant, like he’s not sure he deserves it, but it’s genuine all the same.
You lean back a little further, letting yourself absorb the small, steady rhythm of the apartment around you. The soft shuffle of his movements, the faint hum of the fridge, the smell of food, it all feels oddly grounding.
You eat and talk, and it’s easy. Conversation flows in little bursts, quiet and comfortable, like you’re not filling the space so much as letting it exist with someone else in it. He talks about the hospital, the long hours, the chaos, the small victories, and you listen, curious to hear about from a different perspective than Trin’s, asking the occasional question that pulls out a little more of him without forcing it.
It’s not awkward. Not exactly. And you both become more and more comfortable as the conversation goes on. It’s just… new, and surprisingly easy, and quietly charged with a kind of curiosity that makes the time stretch just enough to notice the little details.
You finish your meal slowly, savoring the food more than usual, not because it’s anything special, but because the quiet company makes it feel different.
You catch yourself watching him for a fraction longer than necessary, how his sleeve rides up when he reaches across the table, the way his eyes flicker with thought before he answers a question, the faint crease in his brow when he’s concentrating. There’s something grounding about him, like he fits into the room in a way that doesn’t demand attention but gently claims it anyway.
When the last bite is gone and the plates are cleared, neither of you rush to fill the silence. Instead, it stretches comfortably, a shared space of quiet that feels almost rare. You realize, with a little shock, that this is one of the easiest first encounters you’ve ever had with someone new. And you can’t help but wonder what it says about Trin, that she could bring someone into her world, and somehow, immediately, they belong.
Dennis finally leans back slightly, a small, self-conscious smile tugging at his lips. “Thank you for dinner, it was nice,” he says softly, almost hesitant, as if he’s testing whether politeness is enough.
You shrug lightly, grinning. “No problem. I don’t know what I would have done with all that food if you hadn’t been here.”
He nods, a little relieved, and the corners of his mouth lift into a faint, genuine smile. “Yeah… I didn’t expect company, honestly. But, uh… it was nice. Really.”
You tilt your head, studying him for a beat, letting the words settle in the quiet room. “Well,” you say softly, “I’m glad I showed up then. I still can’t believe you’ve lived here for weeks without me knowing about it.”
He shifts slightly in his seat, a soft laugh escaping him, low and hesitant. “Yeah… sorry about that,” he says, rubbing the back of his neck. “I really thought she would have told you.” His blue eyes flick to yours for a moment, careful, curious.
“No need for you to apologize,” you say, letting the words come easy, softening the moment. “It’s not your fault she hasn’t told me. She probably just wasn’t in the mood to have me yelling at her for inviting a guy she has known for one day to live in her apartment.”
Dennis lets out a quiet laugh, the kind that’s both embarrassed and relieved, rubbing the back of his neck again. “Yeah… that sounds about right.”
A stretch of silence follows, comfortable this time, not awkward. He shifts slightly in his seat, then leans back, letting out a small sigh that feels more like relief than anything else. “She really does things her own way,” he murmurs, almost to himself. “But… I think it works. Somehow.”
You smile, soft and easy. “Yeah, it usually does. She has this… talent for making people fit into her world, whether they want it or not.”
Dennis glances at you, a faint, curious smile tugging at his lips. “I guess I have to be very thankful for that.”
You let the silence settle again, but it’s different now, lighter, threaded with something unspoken but not uncomfortable. The way he moves, the careful attentiveness in his posture, the faint warmth in his smile, it all makes the silence feel like it isn’t empty at all, just shared.
He looks tired, the kind of bone-deep weariness that comes from long hours and little sleep, but it doesn’t make him any less present. If anything, it makes the quiet weight of him feel even more real, real and grounded. You can’t help but notice the faint dark circles under his eyes, the slight slump in his shoulders, and yet there’s a steadiness to him, a calm that quietly balances the room, but you don’t want to overstay your welcome, he looks like someone who could needs to go to bed sooner rather than later.
You shift slightly on the couch, weighing whether to linger or give him space. There’s a softness to him, the kind of quiet presence that makes the room feel fuller just by being in it, but also the kind that suggests he could really use rest.
“Alright,” you say after a moment, leaning back into the couch, “I think I’ve learned enough about Dennis Whitaker for one evening. But you better be ready, Trin’s going to want to know everything I’ve found out.”
He raises an eyebrow, a small grin appearing. “Everything?”
“Everything,” you confirm, playful but firm. “No secrets from me. I’m her best friend, after all.”
He laughs, and it’s a little more freely this time. “Of course.”
You help gather the empty plates and glass, taking them back to the kitchen and putting the leftovers in the fridge for Trin when she gets home, but he insists on washing up when you offer to help with that too.
He shakes his head gently, a faint smile tugging at his lips. “Nah, it’s fine. I’ll take care of that later. You’ve done more than enough already.”
“Alright, if you insist” you say, “I guess I’ll let you have your alone time with the dishes.”
He chuckles, the sound low and easy, and then there’s a comfortable pause.
“Well,” you then say, forcing a little more brightness back into your voice. “I should get going.”
He follows you to the door, stopping a few steps behind you, his hands in the pockets of his pyjama pants as he watches you reach for the door knob.
You turn your head, catching a glimpse of him over your shoulder. “Dennis?”
He looks up like he wasn’t expecting you to use his name.
“Yeah?”
“If you murder my best friend, I will beat your ass.”
He blinks. Then, almost imperceptibly, he smiles. “Noted.”
You open the door, the hallway air feels cooler than it should. You walk halfway down before you realize your heart is beating way faster than it has any right to. You pull out your phone to text Trinity.
YOU HAVE A MAN LIVING IN YOUR APARTMENT??!!
Three dots appear almost immediately.
oh yeah. lol
did u meet huckleberry?
isn’t he sweet
You glance back at the closed door. Sweet, yeah, that might be the problem.
Jack Abbot x nurse!reader || Masterlist || Spotify
summary: Your first night back at the Pitt turns out to be an absolute gut punch.
word count: 6.2k
warnings/tags: Single mom afab!reader. No use of y/n. Reader’s daughter is unnamed. Hurt/comfort. Angst and fluff. Canon typical medical traumas *mention of the death of a teenager! May contain medical inaccuracies.
Your first shift back feels wrong before it even starts.
Not necessarily bad. Just… off. Like your body remembers the routine but your chest hasn’t quite caught up yet.
Four days is long enough to recalibrate your nervous system, to shrink your world down to bedtime stories and apple slices and a little girl who insists on sleeping in your bed at night, because the dark feels a little louder lately. Long enough to remember what it feels like to breathe without monitors humming in the background.
Long enough that walking back into the Pitt feels like stepping between two versions of yourself.
The automatic doors slide open with their familiar hiss. The smell hits you first, antiseptic and something faintly plasticky, the undertone you never quite stop noticing once you’ve learned it.
You clip your badge on and let muscle memory take over, even as something in your chest lags half a step behind.
“Welcome back,” Bridget calls from the nurses station, not looking up from the screen she’s glaring at. “We survived without you, but morale was questionable.”
You huff a quiet laugh, stepping closer to the counter. “I don’t believe that for a second.”
She glances up then, her expression softening when she really looks at you. “How’s your girl?”
The question lands gently, but it still tugs something open in your chest. “Good,” you say, warmth threading through the word without you trying to put it there. “Still sore. Still dramatic about it.”
“As she should be,” Bridget says solemnly.
“Yeah, she has earned it.” You smile, small and real, then turn toward the board. Your name is slotted in where it always is. Same type of assignments. Same rhythm. Familiar enough that it almost lulls you into forgetting how different you feel. But also just almost.
Your fingers brush the strap of your bag on your shoulder, inside it, between all your usual things, is a folded piece of paper pressed flat and careful. Crayon wax has a way of leaving itself behind. On fingers, on tables, on everything it touches. Bright, unapologetic color that refuses to stay contained.
You’d tried to talk her out of it, just a little. But she had been very insistent. It was your own fault really. You had told her that her grandparents probably would be so happy if she made them a drawing to show how much better her wrist had gotten, and she had taken that logic and run with it.
“What are you drawing?” you’d asked, watching her little hand drag a yellow crayon across the page with intense concentration.
“An ice cream,” she’d said, like it was obvious. Like there was no other reasonable answer. “It’s for Dr. Jack.”
You’d paused then, the way you do when something small catches unexpectedly in your ribs.
“For Dr. Jack?” you’d repeated, careful to keep your voice neutral.
She nodded, switching crayon with great seriousness. Then she glanced up at you, brows knitting just slightly, the stitches being a bit of a hindrance. “Will you give it to him?”
You’d looked at her for a long second, at the careful way she kept her wrist still, at the seriousness with which she waited for your answer, like this mattered in a way that deserved your full attention. There were a dozen adult reasons crowding the back of your mind. Boundaries, lines, the quiet instinct to keep work and home from bleeding into each other.
But none of them felt like something you could explain to a four year old with crayon on her fingers and trust in her eyes. “He likes ice cream,” she’d said, like that settled the matter completely.
The thought of giving it to him makes a weird ache appear in your chest, but there was no way you could deny her that. Not when she was offering something so freely, when she believed, so completely, that kindness was meant to be passed along.
“Yeah, I can give it to him,” you’d said finally.
She’d smiled then, satisfied, and gone back to her drawing like the matter was settled. Now, standing back in the Pitt, that promise presses against your side with every step you take.
You head for the lockers to stash your things before the night really starts. The metal door squeaks slightly when you open it, the sound familiar, and you tuck your bag inside with more care than usual, like the folded paper might bruise if you’re not gentle.
You start your rounds. The ER has found its usual rhythm, controlled chaos. A language you speak fluently, even when you’re tired, even when your chest still feels a half-beat behind.
Vitals, charting, a quick check-in with a patient who insists he’s “fine now” despite all evidence to the contrary. The night settles into you slowly, like a familiar coat you haven’t worn in a few days, but still yours, still shaped to your shape, just a little heavier than you remember.
But the shift pulls you in the way it always does. A patient who needs reassurance more than medication. A resident who looks at you like you’re the answer key. You move through it smoothly, competence settling over you like a second skin. This part of you still fits. It always has.
And then. “Hey.”
You turn before you even think about it. Jack is standing a few feet away, a pen in hand, posture loose but alert. He looks tired in the familiar way, the kind that never quite leaves, but his eyes soften when they land on you.
“You’re back,” he says.
“Yeah,” you reply.
He nods once. “How’s our little superstar doing?”
Straight to the heart of it. He always does that. “She’s good,” you say, and the warmth in your chest steadies the word. “Wrist’s healing. She’s very proud of herself.”
A small smile tugs at his mouth. “She should be.”
There’s a pause. Not necessarily awkward, just open.
The pause stretches just long enough for a smirk to tug at the corner of his mouth. “You have been missed. Mr. Jenkins has kept asking about you,” he adds, voice dropping into that teasing lilt that always makes your chest tighten just a little.
You snort softly despite yourself. “Of course he has.”
Mr. Jenkins, who has been a recurring fixture in the ER for long enough that everyone knows his preferences. Chronic COPD, a stubborn streak a mile wide, and an uncanny ability to arrive just before shift change. He’s opinionated, loud, and strangely protective of “his” nurses.
Jack’s smile turns fond in that way it only ever does when he’s talking about patients who’ve wormed their way under his skin. “Third time today. Asked if you’d quit. I said no. He said, and I quote, ‘Well then she better hurry back, because this place runs worse without her.’”
Your chest does that stupid, traitorous thing again, because the way Jack says it makes it sounds like he agrees whole heartily with Mr. Jenkins. “He said that before or after he refused his meds?”
Jack’s eyebrows lift. “After. He said he’d cooperate once you were back on shift. I told him that was emotional blackmail.”
“And did it work?”
Jack glances down at his pen, then back up at you, lips twitching. “He took the meds.”
You shake your head, smiling now, unable to help it. “Unbelievable.”
“He’s in three,” Jack adds, already half-turning his body back toward the chaos of the department. “Stable. Grumpy. Very disappointed you weren’t here,” Jack finishes. “He feels abandoned.”
“I hope he will forgive me, and if he doesn’t, then let him be grumpy for a while,” you finish, dry. “He does it so well.”
Jack lets out a quiet huff of a laugh, the sound brief but real. “That he does.”
He lingers a beat longer than necessary, eyes flicking over your face like he’s checking something he won’t name out loud. Whatever he finds seems to satisfy him. He gives a small nod, already turning away again.
That annoying, familiar ache settles in your chest again as he turns away, sharper this time, like you moved too fast on a still-healing muscle.
You watch him go for half a second longer than you need to. Not because you’re hoping he’ll turn back, he won’t, but because there’s something grounding in the familiar line of his shoulders disappearing into motion, into purpose. Into the same place you live for twelve hours at a time.
When you turn you find Bridget watching you with one eyebrow very deliberately raised.
“What?” you say, already defensive.
“I didn’t say anything,” she says, noncommittal and deeply smug.
You stare at her. “Don’t.”
“I didn’t say anything,” she just repeats, shrugging like she’s the picture of innocence.
“You didn’t have to,” you reply. “Your face did all the talking.”
She nods, satisfied that you didn’t dodge it. “You’re just having that look again,” Bridget says mildly.
“What look?” you ask, already knowing exactly which one she means.
“The one where you look like you’re thinking very hard about something you absolutely should not be thinking very hard about while on shift.”
You scoff, shifting the chart in your hands. “I have no idea what you’re talking about.”
“Mmm.” She leans an elbow on the counter, eyes flicking once, very pointedly, down the hall Jack disappeared into, then back to you. “Sure you don’t. Now go see Mr. Jenkins, he’s been asking for you.”
“God help me,” you mutter, turning toward room three.
“And hey,” she adds as you walk away, voice lighter again, “it’s good to have you back.”
You knock on the door to room three and before you step inside, Mr. Jenkins’ voice cuts through the gap. “If that’s another doctor telling me to be patient, they can turn right around.”
You push the door open fully. “Good evening, Mr. Jenkins.”
There’s a pause. Then a very deliberate sniff. “Well I’ll be damned,” he says, squinting at you like you might be a mirage. “You finally showed.”
“Miss me?” you ask lightly, already moving to his bedside, checking his oxygen, his monitor, the familiar numbers settling into place.
He makes a sound between a sigh and a scoff. “This place hasn’t been right without you. Told them that.”
“You tell everyone that?”
“No,” he says firmly. “Just the ones who try to drown me in meds.”
You smile despite yourself. “Funny, I heard from Dr. Abbot that you took them just fine.”
He looks away, muttering. “Temporary lapse in judgment.”
You finish your checks, efficient and gentle, the rhythm of care grounding you. This, these small, human exchanges, is where the two versions of you overlap. The mother who worries about scraped knees and a little girl who insists on sleeping in your bed, because she’s not sleeping great on her own lately, and the nurse who knows exactly how much oxygen he needs. Both present, and both necessary.
When you’re done, you straighten. “I’ll be back to check on you later.”
He eyes you. “You better.”
You leave the room with a soft smile and a shake of your head, easing the door shut behind you until his muttering fades back into the steady soundtrack of the ER. You almost walk right into Jack as you step back into the hallway. You both freeze in that awkward half-step, your smile still lingering because you didn’t have time to tuck it away.
“You look less grumpy being back at this place than I would,” he teases, like it’s a measured observation, not really an insult.
You raise an eyebrow, trying to keep your expression neutral, but you’re not fully sure you’re succeeding. “Wow. That’s the nicest thing anyone’s said to me all night.”
He shrugs. “I’m a giver.”
You roll your eyes, but the corners of your mouth twitch anyway. “Generous and humble. Got it.”
Jack glances down the hallway, then back at you. “Seriously though… you holding up okay? First shift back after four days off can either ruin you or remind you why you put up with us.”
“Remind me why,” you mutter, half to yourself, half to him, and he laughs, a low, easy sound that makes your chest unclench a little.
Before either of you can get too comfortable, the moment gets interrupted when Lena approaches, phone in hand and a serious look on her face.
“We got a trauma alert level one coming in five minutes,” she says, already moving past you toward the board.
The shift snaps tight around you instantly
Jack’s smirk falters, replaced by focus. “Looks like your reminder just arrived.” He looks at you for half a second before turning to Lena. “If anything needs to be cleared, clear it,” he finishes. “I want trauma two ready and respiratory on standby.”
“On it,” Lena replies, already halfway down the hall.
“I’ll prep two,” you say, not waiting for confirmation. You don’t need it.
Jack’s eyes flick to you, quick and assessing. A nod. “I’ll meet you there.”
Muscle memory takes over completely now, smooth and practiced. This version of you doesn’t hesitate, doesn’t overthink, it just does.
It’s one of those cases that stick. You work for hours trying to perform a miracle. Time fractures. There’s only the room, the patient, the rhythm of commands and responses. Sweat gathers at the base of your neck. Your feet ache, but you don’t shift your weight. You don’t dare break the rhythm for even a second.
A seventeen year old boy, accidentally shot by a friend who swore the gun wasn’t loaded. Too young for this kind of damage, too young for the kind of stillness that settles over the room when things start to get worse in quiet, terrifying ways.
The miracle never comes. You’re still working when the room begins to change. Voices drop. Movements become smaller, more deliberate. The choreography shifts from urgency to inevitability.
Someone calls out the time. It sounds far away, like it belongs to another room, another night. You step back because there’s nothing left for your hands to do. Someone pulls a sheet up with careful respect, covering too much, and somehow not enough at the same time. The room exhales a collective breath it’s been holding too long.
Jack stays where he is, eyes fixed on the patient for a beat longer than necessary. When he finally looks away, you see it, just a flicker, quickly banked. The weight of it settles into the lines around his mouth.
“Good work, everyone,” he says quietly. Not perfunctory, it’s fully meant.
You nod, because that’s what you do when there’s nothing else to say.
Later, because there is always a later, you’re at the sink, scrubbing your hands until the skin starts to sting, but you don’t stop right away. You need the burn. You need something to anchor you back in your body.
There are still other patients, other people who rely on you. A young toddler with a fever that won’t break. A woman with a nasty burn, who is more wrapped in guilt than gauze because she spilled the pot herself, and keeps apologizing like pain is a moral failing. An elderly man who just wants someone to sit with him for five minutes because his wife died last winter and nights are the hardest.
You move through them all. You explain, you reassure, you adjust IVs and tuck blankets and keep your voice steady even when something inside you feels bruised and tender. The ER doesn’t slow down out of respect for grief, it never has. It just keeps asking things of you, one after another, until the sharp edge dulls enough to function around.
When morning comes, you finish your last round of charting with hands that ache in that familiar, deep way, your chest feeling just a little too heavy.
The ER hums with shift change, voices overlapping, chairs scraping, the subtle exhale of people clocking out and people clocking in.
You sling your bag over your shoulder and take a few steps toward the exit, before you stop. You haven’t really seen Jack since the trauma, only in passing a few times. It’s not unusual. Attendings disappear between dawn and handoff all the time, pulled into meetings, consults, the quiet administrative afterlife of a long night. You tell yourself that as you stand there, bag digging into your shoulder, the automatic doors a few steps away.
But something in your chest tugs, quiet and persistent. You think of the way he stood still after the trauma, like if he moved too fast something would crack. You think of the drawing tucked away in your bag. You hesitate only a second before turning around.
The elevator ride is slow in that way that feels personal, like it knows you’re tired and is daring you to rethink this. You stare at your reflection in the steel doors, washed out, eyes rimmed with exhaustion, the ghost of adrenaline still clinging to your posture.
You tell yourself you’re just checking, just making sure he’s okay. That it’s normal to do so, that it is human. The door to the roof gives that familiar reluctant creak when you push it open.
Jack is there. The city stretches out behind him in quiet layers, traffic just beginning to thicken, the sky pale and undecided, like it hasn’t fully committed to being day yet. One hand is wrapped around a paper cup that’s long gone cold, he isn’t drinking it.
He doesn’t look back when the door creaks, and for a second you’re not sure if he’s heard you at all. Then he exhales, slow and measured.
“Hey,” he says.
“Hey,” you answer.
For a moment neither of you moves. The roof feels like a pocket outside of time, suspended between night and morning, between what happened during your shift and whatever comes next. The noise of the hospital doesn’t reach up here. Just wind and distant traffic, the sound of the city breathing.
“Thought you were security for a second,” he says quietly, still facing the skyline.
You step closer. “Sorry to disappoint.”
That gets him. He turns then, just enough to look over his shoulder, and the softness that crosses his face is small but unmistakable before he schools it away.
“Not a disappointment.”
The words hang between you, gentle and tired. You come to stand beside him, mirroring his posture without even thinking about it. Neither of you looks at the other right away. It feels easier that way, letting the quiet do some of the work.
For a long moment, there’s just the wind and the faint, far off sound of a siren threading through the streets below.
“That one…” he starts, then stops, swallows and tries again. “That one’s going to sit with me for a while.”
You don’t rush to fill the space. You’ve learned better than that. Some things need room.
“He was seventeen,” you say quietly. Not as a reminder, but as an acknowledgment. Cases like these always stick.
“Yeah.” His voice is rougher now. “I hate that talk with the parents after,” he says, eyes still on the horizon. “No parent should outlive their kid.”
You glance at him then. The lines at the corners of his eyes look deeper in the early light, the fatigue laid bare without the harsh fluorescents to hide it.
His words make your nurse heart break in that quiet, contained way you’ve gotten very good at. The kind that doesn’t shatter, just aches, low and steady, like a bruise you keep pressing without meaning to. But they make your mom heart shatter in a million sharp, breath-stealing pieces.
You watch the city for a moment longer before you speak, because if you look at him when you say it, you might soften it. And you don’t want to.
“Do you ever wonder why we keep doing this?” you ask. The words aren’t dramatic, they’re almost casual, that’s what makes them feel dangerous.
Jack doesn’t answer right away. His fingers tighten around the paper cup, then relax again, he lets out a breath that sounds more tired than sad.
“Yeah,” he says finally. “More than I probably should.”
You nod, eyes still forward. The sky is beautiful now, infuriatingly so. Pale gold edging the buildings, like the morning light finally has decided to break the night, pink bleeding into the golden like the sky is trying to soften the edges of what happened in the night, whether you’re ready for it or not.
“It almost feels wrong,” you say quietly. “The world keep being so beautiful, after a night like tonight.”
He glances at you for a moment, you feel his eyes on you, you don’t dare to look back at him. He turns his eyes back to the morning sky again, and you gather enough courage to sneak a look at his profile.
He’s still for a second, jaw set, gaze fixed on the skyline like it’s asking something of him he isn’t sure how to answer.
“It is,” he says quietly. “Beautiful.”
He lets the word sit there, unfinished, then exhales through his nose like he’s debating himself.
You shift your weight, careful not to break the fragile quiet. “I have something for you,” you say with a quiet voice, “I promised to give it to you.”
Jack finally shifts his weight, just a little, and glances over at you with the faintest raise of an eyebrow. Curiosity, careful and measured, dances in his gaze.
You take a deep breath before pulling the folded paper from your bag and holding it out carefully, like it’s fragile as the silence between you. Jack’s gaze flickers to the paper, then back to you, slow and deliberate.
You feel how your pulse catches in your chest, loud and insistent despite the quiet around you. Your fingers brush the edge of the paper as you extend it, and for a heartbeat, neither of you moves.
His hand hovers for a moment before he finally reaches out, his fingers brushing yours as he takes it. The contact is brief, but enough to make your chest tighten in a quiet, contained way.
He unfolds the paper carefully, reverently. His eyes track the lines of crayon slowly, the towering scoop of yellow and pink, the crooked cone, the careful, crooked attempt at letters that are spelling out his name. She had asked you for help, she had insisted on writing his name on the drawing. It had made your stomach twist a little at the time, something about it had felt too intimate, too much, but you’d kept that thought to yourself, so you had written his name on a piece of paper so she could copy it, brow furrowed in concentration, whispering the letters like a promise she didn’t want to get wrong.
Jack goes very still, his thumb gently slides over one of the uneven letters. For a moment, he doesn’t say anything at all.
“It’s an ice cream…” you say softly, because you don’t know what else to say and the silence suddenly feels too heavy. You think she has done a really good job, but it’s still a crayon drawing made by a four year old and you don’t expect him to be as good at interpreting her drawings as you are, you are her mom after all.
Something in his face softens in a way you’ve never quite seen before. “Yeah,” he says. “I can see that.”
You risk a glance at his face. He’s still looking down at the paper. The care in the way he holds it, the quiet attention, makes your chest twist
“She, uhm… she said you like ice cream,” you say softly, your voice careful, almost hesitant.
He smiles, a soft huff of a laugh slipping past him, quiet and unguarded. “I did say that, didn’t I?” His lips twitch, and there’s a faint warmth in his gaze as he finally looks up at you. “Guess she pays attention, huh?”
You nod “She does. She notices everything.”
He smiles softly, still holding the paper like it’s fragile. “She must have picked that up from her mom,” he says, and there’s no teasing edge to it.
The gentleness of it catches you off guard. For a second, you don’t know what to do with it. “Occupational hazard,” you say finally, aiming for light, for deflection. “I’m paid to notice things.”
He tilts his head slightly, like he can see straight through that.
“And she picks up my bad habits too,” you say, trying to aim for lightheartedness, for something that will dull the edge of what he just gave you.
His mouth curves faintly at that. Not amused exactly, more like he’s recognizing the shield you’re trying to lift. “That can’t be many,” he says quietly.
The compliment lands soft but deep. You feel it in your chest before you know what to do with it. You let out a small breath, somewhere between a laugh and surrender.
He folds the paper again, carefully, taking his time, like rushing would somehow cheapen the moment. When he looks up at you again, his eyes are bright in that way that makes your chest ache.
“Tell her thank you for me,” he says. His voice is steady, but there’s a weight underneath it. The words land heavy and gentle all at once.
“I will,” you promise, just as quietly.
He tucks the folded drawing into the pocket of his pants, one hand lingering there for a second longer than necessary, like he’s making sure it’s really there, safe.
For a moment, neither of you speaks. The sky is still soft with morning light, the city stretching awake beneath it. After everything the night held, the stillness feels almost sacred. You step a little closer, drawn by the quiet gravity of the moment, careful not to break it.
Jack tilts his head toward you, gaze soft but steady. “You okay?” he asks, voice low, carrying more than just concern, it’s the kind of question that reaches past the words and lands somewhere deeper.
You nod, slow and deliberate. “Yeah… I’m okay. Just tired. That’s all.”
He studies you for a heartbeat, as if weighing whether to press, then lets it go with a faint exhale, shoulders relaxing. “Good,” he says finally, and the word feels like a balm, quiet but full of meaning.
The wind brushes past you both, carrying the faint city sounds upward, and you notice how ordinary everything feels, yet impossibly fragile.
“You should get home to your little one,” he says finally, voice soft, careful.
You glance down at the street far below, your daughter’s face popping into your mind, bright, determined, still slightly wary of the dark at night. You can’t help but smile softly. “She will be on her way to daycare soon,” you say, tugging the strap of your bag over your shoulder. “I need to get home and sleep, so I can keep up with her energy later,” you finish softly, a small, tired smile tugging at your lips. “It’s her first day back since she fell, so I’m expecting a full performance when I pick her up.”
Jack lets out a quiet huff of amusement, the sound easy and warm, and for a moment, the wind carries it softly between you. “I can imagine,” he says, voice low, almost reverent.
You glance at him, and the corner of his mouth lifts just enough to make your chest tighten again. He would have been a good dad. The thought lands before you can stop it.
It’s sudden and uninvited, blooming warm and aching in the center of your chest. The thought startles you with its certainty. Not in some abstract, hypothetical way. Not in the distant, polite sense people use when they mean someone is good with kids.
You swallow and look away before your face can betray you. He’s watching the skyline again, unaware of the direction your thoughts just took. Or maybe he is aware in some sense, but kind enough to not to call it out. With him, it’s kind of hard to tell.
You clear your throat softly, the sound almost lost to the wind. “You know… She talks about the ER like it’s a cartoon,” you say, aiming for neutrality, keeping it safe. “Thinks it’s just a place where people come in broken and we send them back out fixed.”
Jack huffs a quiet breath through his nose. “Wouldn’t that be nice.”
“Yeah.” You fold your arms loosely over your chest, grounding yourself. “I let her think that. For now at least.”
He nods once. He understands the shape of that decision without you having to explain it. The choice to preserve softness. To delay the weight of reality for as long as possible, at least to a degree.
“You’re good at that,” he says after a moment.
“At what?”
“Protecting what matters.”
The words are simple. Unadorned. They land harder than anything else he’s said this morning.
You swallow, eyes fixed on the skyline. “That’s just… part of the job.”
He shakes his head slightly. “No. That’s you.”
You don’t answer right away, you can’t. A gush of wind rushes across the rooftop, cool against skin that still feels overheated from the night. The city below keeps moving, unaware, unchanged.
You force a small exhale. “You’re giving me too much credit.”
“I don’t think I am.” His voice is steady. Not teasing, not soft in a fragile way. Just certain.
You glance at him then, just for a second. His expression isn’t intense, it isn’t loaded, it’s simply observant, like he’s stating something clinical. A fact he’s arrived at after careful review. Silence stretches between you again, but it isn’t uncomfortable. It feels like something being acknowledged without being dissected.
Your fingers tighten slightly around the strap of your bag. “You’re good at it too,” you hear yourself say before you can reconsider.
“At what?” he asks, almost cautiously.
“Making people feel steady,” you answer. “Even when things aren’t.”
He doesn’t react immediately, he just watches the skyline like you are. But something shifts in his posture. A subtle stillness.
“I fake it well,” he says after a moment.
You shake your head. “No, you don’t.” A beat. “You don’t fake staying.”
That lands. You can tell. His jaw tightens slightly, then relaxes. “Part of the job,” he echoes softly.
“Yeah,” you say, but you both know that isn’t all of it.
The morning light has fully broken now, gold spilling across the rooftops. It paints everything in something forgiving. Makes sharp edges look softer than they are.
You adjust your bag on your shoulder. “I should go. If I don’t sleep at least a few hours, she’s going to run circles around me.”
He nods, but he doesn’t step away. “Yeah,” he says quietly. “Wouldn’t want that.”
Neither of you moves at first. The moment stretches, fragile but not fragile enough to shatter. Just thin. You glance toward the roof door. “You heading down too?”
“In a minute,” he says automatically, then looks at you again, like he’s reconsidering. The pause shifts. Softens. “Actually… yeah, I am.”
You offer him a faint smile, something small but real. “Race you?” you murmur, knowing full well neither of you has the energy for that.
A ghost of a smirk tugs at his mouth. “Not a chance.”
“Rude,” you say lightly.
He steps toward the door anyway, reaching past you to push it open. “After you.”
You walk side by side toward the elevator, not touching, but close enough that you’re aware of him with every step.
The elevator dings almost immediately, as if it’s been waiting. You step inside together. The doors slide shut with a muted thud, sealing you into the small metal box. For a second, neither of you speaks. The hum of descent fills the quiet.
Then he slips his hands into his pockets, in the way he so often does. There’s the faintest pause. His brow lifts slightly. You see it, the moment his fingers brush paper. He stills, and then slowly pulls it back out. He unfolds it carefully, smoothing the crease with the side of his thumb. The bright crayon colors seem almost defiant under the sterile elevator lighting.
Your throat tightens unexpectedly. There’s something in his expression that isn’t just about the drawing itself. It’s more about being seen. About a small person deciding, without hesitation, that he was worth color and effort and space on a page.
There’s a pause, and then he shifts, a small, deliberate movement that feels like he’s testing the air. “You still have Sundays off?” he asks, voice casual enough that it almost passes for idle conversation.
You blink, caught a little off guard by the pivot. “Yeah, most of them.”
He doesn’t look at you immediately. He studies the drawing one more second, then folds it with the same careful precision as before. Edges aligned, crease pressed flat before looking at you. Only then does he look at you again, with a softness in his eyes that almost breaks you.
“Maybe sometime, if you’re both up for it, we could… I don’t know… go get ice cream together. Me, you, and her. An ice cream for an ice cream.”
For a second, the elevator feels too small. You search his face for hesitation, for a hint that he’s offering something just to be polite and not because he means it. But there’s none. Just the steady, open, honest way he’s looking at you, like the idea itself is enough.
“She’d like that,” you say quietly.
He nods once, almost to himself. “Yeah?”
“Mm,” you echo softly, letting the word stretch into the quiet hum of the elevator. Your shoulders relax a fraction, the tension of the night finally giving way to something lighter, something quietly tender.
Jack glances down at the folded paper, thumb brushing over the soft edge. “And you would like it too?”
You nod, a small, almost shy movement. “Yeah… I would.”
You have felt a tension, a pull, between you and Jack for so long, fragile, unspoken, threaded through long shifts, quiet moments, and half-smiles. It isn’t loud or dramatic, it lives in small gestures, in the way he notices details, in the careful attention he gives, in the spaces between words.
Sometimes it has made you feel like you were going crazy, noticing him in the corners of your vision, remembering a laugh a beat too long, holding your breath when he brushed past during a shift. Your lives are, in many ways, so, so different, yet so similar in others.
There is your age difference, of course, the separate rhythms that have shaped you. The experiences that have tempered him, the weight he carries with quiet certainty.
Yet somehow, despite all the differences, you’re so similar in a way you can’t even fully articulate, as if you’ve been moving through parallel currents all this time, brushing against the same eddies of thought and care, noticing the same small details, responding to the same unspoken cues. Knowing the same kind of grief.
Most of the similarities aren’t loud or declarative, they’re in the way he holds the folded paper, careful and deliberate, the same way you would. The way he notices without needing to be told. The quiet gravity in his presence that mirrors the weight you carry yourself.
But you have never thought that he could feel the same way about you that you did about him, but the way he looks at you now, with that quiet softness and steady attention, tells you that maybe there is a chance that he might do.
The realization of that lands slowly. Not like a spark, or like something explosive. More like a tiny shift in gravity. It settles low in your chest, warm and unfamiliar
The elevator continues its descent before slowing with a soft ding, reaching the bottom floor. He glances at you, expression lighter now, teasing but warm. “I guess I have to find Robby now. And finishing the last of my charting.”
“Mm, he’s probably already dragging his feet somewhere,” you reply with a small smile. “Unless Shen took pity on you and did the handover for you,” you say with a lifted brow, and a hint of amusement, like you’re daring him to hope for it.
“One can hope. But you should get out of here,” he he says, voice soft but firm, a faint smile tugging at his lips.
You tilt your head, a faint smile tugging at your lips too. “Yeah… I really fucking should,” you admit, voice light but tired, the weight of the night still lingering in your shoulders.
You walk down the hallway slowly, the soft squeaks of your shoes against the polished linoleum echoing faintly. You say your goodbye to Jack, your chest tight in that familiar way.
He watches you for a moment, eyes steady, a quiet smile tugging at his lips. “Get some sleep,” he says softly, voice carrying that warmth that makes the words linger longer than they need to.
“I will,” you murmur, letting the words catch in your throat. You reach the door and pause, stealing one last look at him.