#springmun

William Afton/Springtrap is my comfort character. I use him to deal with my various mental issues. He makes things easier for me.

Yet I see things almost every single day like “William fans have no rights,” “William fans have no braincells,” etc. and when he’s submitted to something that spreads positivity for a character people actually tell the poster that it’s not okay. Because some people don’t like William, all us fans of him just don’t get to have any fun, I guess. Also, those blogs get unnecessarily flooded with messages and possibly even harassment and that’s seriously not okay. I’ve seen people admitting to bullying a William fan and being proud of it.

You should never be proud of abuse.

It’s why I’m not doing anything here anymore. Tumblr was my escape from bullies, but bullies have found their way onto my dash, and so many that I had to remake my account and start over so I wouldn’t be seeing that stuff. It’s distressing for me to see so much hate toward the character that helps me with my depression, the character that I use to push myself to actually do the basic things that are so damn hard to do for me.

But I’m not going to tell people to stop saying that they hate William. I’m responsible for my online experience, not them. I remade, I blocked people who take pride in insulting people like me so they won’t get the chance to target me, don’t follow people who actively hate on William every chance they get, and I’m happy over there. I surrounded myself with the content that I want to see, and I haven’t seen a single bit of hatred on my dash.

If you don’t want to see something, don’t look at it. Don’t ruin the fun for people who do. It isn’t hurting a thing. You can hate a character all you want, but when it spreads to the fans of that character, that’s bad. That targets real people. That’s bullying, and it does hurt people, even if it’s not directed at a specific person. I’m a perfect example of this, because even though I haven’t been targeted, those general posts have distressed me so much that I’ve broken down crying randomly and I’ve experienced a spike in depression that contributed to my needing meds again. That’s not the only reason for these things, but it is partially, and it’s a hell of a lot harder to deal with things when you feel guilty comforting yourself as well. I’m doing better now since I moved blogs. I will never understand why people think it’s okay to hurt a group of people just because they disagree with them.

I’m so tired of my Audio Service just stopping every once and a while. This time it claims I have no Audio Output Device installed.

I still don’t want to leave, but I don’t feel safe here either. I’m so attached to what I’ve accomplished, but I want to be able to like what I like and witnessing certain behaviors has made me afraid to do that here. I’m still not sure what to do, but moving entirely is an option I’m considering. After all, I have zero drive to create anything relating to this blog at the moment.