#spravato

hey!! you are so so welcome! I scoured the internet for personal accounts before treatment and that’s what made me feel more comfortable. part of the reason I’m writing is because a lot of what I found was shorter form on instagram, Reddit threads, or one off YouTube videos and didn’t really talk in depth. I found a lot of “it’s life changing” without saying why or how those changes occurred. my logs have become very therapeutic for me because I journal in session for about 15-30 minutes at the end, and then usually the night of or next night I will write what you see here. I was not someone who liked journaling regularly before. actually I kinda hated it. my clinic gave me a Spravato journal and I think I have a pdf. I’ll try to find it and reblog here if I do. for another resource, there’s a YouTube series I watched from the channel “Nice People” where she talks about her sessions over the course of around 1.5-2 years. I would recommend checking that out. she is a little repetitive, but it’s mostly because she tries to give info in each video in case someone jumps into the series at a random point. she does seem to have a very vivid experience compared to what I experience so that might be helpful to you. oh also, her dog (who is in the videos) does pass away midway through :( so content warning for that if you’re sensitive to it.

I’m supposed to start EMDR in conjunction with the Spravato treatment soon and I will probably write about that too if you have any interest. my therapist has said that my Spravato treatments have “jump started” that process and I have essentially skipped the beginning of EMDR work. I think she basically means I’ve been able to view myself without judgement and strip away some layers of self protection to identify core issues.