#spnoc

No bc they’re so toxic and Alex is just made of flaws… He’s lwky a narcissist and needs attention bc he was so deprived of it as a teenager. He hates it when people don’t focus on him. He hates that he gets upset about it. He knows he’s doing this. He feels guilty about it. He knows he lashes out when someone else becomes more important than him especially when it comes to people he loves. “Why not me? It’s never me!” Then like proceeds to isolate himself because he literally just has no clue what to do about what he feels and why he feels that way. Then he feels guilty about what he did. He hates that he is wired that way and he doesn’t know how to overcome it. It’s all he knows.

THATS WHY… He is horrified of letting himself love Dean. Dean is trying to get Alex to see that he cares yet Alex feels guilty.. He thinks Dean is ‘loving’ him out of pity. He thinks he’s being ‘loved’ because he’s a pathetic sack of shit that aches for that kind of love and attention so that’s why Dean provides it for him, but refuses to let himself have it because he thinks he doesn’t deserve it. So then he thinks, “Why me? Why am I worthy of this?” He’s so fucked up in the head. Y’all dont know…

No matter what Alex is ALWAYS pushing Dean away.. but suddenly he holds him close when he’s breaking down crying, saying he’s tired, he cant take it anymore. Saying all of this negative stuff about himself because, first and foremost, Alex hates himself more than he loves anything. He cant allow himself to love anything because he doesn’t love himself first. He hates he aches for attention and gets mad when he doesn’t get it. He hates feeling the heavy weight of guilt on his chest as someone shows him the slightest bit of affection. He hates all of it. YET THROUGH EVERYTHING HE CANT HELP THIS SICK FEELING IN HIS CHEST THAT LOVES DEAN. HE HATES IT. He hates that he cant help but love him despite his entire being going against him. That’s why he sticks around so that maybe he’ll open up enough to let Dean help him. YET, his anxiety CONSTANTLY prevails. It never happens. He is always, ALWAYS too scared to confront anything.

sorry for the rant they are the only thing on my brain atm…

sorry if i was too late to answer this :b

1. Madalyn Jaymes Winchester

fandom: Supernatural

2. Aida Rain Anderson

fandom glee

3. Marvel/Twilight Crossover

4. Older Madalyn

fandom supernatural

5.Orginal Story with Orginal characters

6. create a whole nother oc ( give ideas please)

tagging people who I think read my writing

@thimbletea @raging-violets @randomestfandoms-ocs @hoqwaarts @jarvis-is-my-copilot @1lilspark

Day two: Earth/Beaten

The art 3 things; 1. rushed bc im tired, 2. I forgot to do the beaten part in the art so it’s more in the oneshot (below the cut), and 3. not the thing I’m most proud of

but here it is.

Oneshot warnings: S15 spoilers, kinda

Supernatural OCS in our Lord's 2021?! More likely than you think!

I've been rewatching the show and had an ITCH to make myself OCS since I'm.a dirty sinner! Meet Abel Winchester and Chamuel!

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Abel Winchester is Dean Winchester's son, he was born around the time the apocalypse started, Dean was never informed and his birth mother dropped him into foster care. He's AFAB (assigned female at birth) and has had top surgery as well as a Hysto!

He's a hot headed guy who hates being called short, his entire life surrounds him intense love for baseball and his inability to make it "big" do to his height and lack of connections in the industry. That doesn't stop him from using this to his advantage.

Abels weapon of choice is a baseball bat that's been scrubbed with rock salt, dipped in dead man's blood, tossed with holy water, iron spikes hammered into it and symbols of all types to prevent demons and angels alike from using it. Abels small frame and stature makes it easy for him to avoid being hit/stabbed easily. He's cocky, hot headed and has an intense love for indie and rock music of all types.

Chamuel is the archangel of love and war,

He was put on Earth as part of God's will to understand and connect with humans. He has the ability to take others emotions temporarily and place them on himself, he also can make just about anyone fall in love! Due to this for years he tried to help people only to become worn out and overwhelmed by the amount of emotions most people possessed.

So this is my first day for my mix between Suptober20 and Goretober

Each picture will have a little drabble/one shot to go with each drawing to help with expanding my supernatural ocs so yeah, one shot below the cut. Warning; I’m not good at writing and I wrote this at 2 am while kinda out of it from a cold