#spider's queue

when will my shoulders be free of this weight? when i'm dead.

i walk on eggshells because i still live with him

cain

talking to you feels like screaming in an echo chamber. everything comes back to me, it's all my fault, i made the mistake, i was in the wrong... it was never you. mama, what did i do wrong? was i born too soon? where you too young? you were 32. i don't understand...

I. i am so glad to have had 22 years with you. i love you forever.

II. it feels like getting kicked in the face accept i think that would hurt less, and at least people would be able to see why i'm hurting.

III. it hasn't even been a year and i miss you more than ever and - and now he's gone too...