A Place We Canāt Go Back To
rated g | 1k words | Project Hail Mary | Ryland Grace x Reader
Just a few months away from arriving at Erid, Rocky discovers an archive containing more media from Earth. While Grace happily loses himself in research papers, documentaries, and increasingly questionable internet videos, Y/N finds herself overwhelmed by memories of the life she left behind. For the first time in years, Earth doesn't feel millions of kilometers away.
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TAGS: project hail mary, ryland grace, sci-fi fanfic, angst, flirting, ryland grace x femme y/n, ryland grace x y/n, fluff
NOTE: Sorry I disappeared for a bit! College has been keeping me busy lately, but I'm finally back and writing silly little project hail mary fics again. Thank you for all the love on my previous storiesāit genuinely means a lot. š Now, back to our regularly scheduled Ryland Grace brainrot. Enjoy!
āQuestion.ā Grace immediately regretted looking up.
Whenever Rocky started a sentence with that tone, it usually meant one of three things: one, Rocky had made a scientific discovery. Two, Rocky had accidentally broken something. Three, Rocky had found something deeply concerning about human behavior.
āWhatās up?ā Grace asked, not looking away from his laptop.
āWhy does Hail Mary contain seventy-eight thousand videos of creature with hair?ā
Grace froze. Slowly, he turned around in his chair.
āā¦What?ā
Across the lab, Rocky sat in front of a monitor displaying what looked like an old Earth media archive. Rows upon rows of files filled the screen.
Movies. Songs. Television shows. Images. Videos. And apparently⦠cats.
āRocky, where did you find that?ā
āArchive directory,ā Rocky clicked his claws against the keyboard. āRocky searched for educational materials. Rocky found creature with hair.ā
Y/N glanced up from the maintenance panel she was working on. āYou found the entertainment archive?ā she asked.
Grace immediately abandoned his work. āOh my God.ā
He stared at the laptop he had originally given Rocky for basic system monitoring, now apparently repurposed into a gateway to human history.
Scrolling.
There were so many files.
Far more than he remembered authorizing for personal storage.
āRocky,ā he said slowly, āwhy are there⦠this many categories?ā
āOrganization attempt,ā Rocky replied proudly. āRocky sorted by āfunnyā, āconfusingā, and āemotionally distressingā.ā
Grace blinked. āā¦Emotionally distressing?ā
āYes.ā
āThat feels like a bad sign.ā
Y/N walked over now, wiping her hands on a cloth.
āWhat did you click on first?ā she asked.
āRandom selection,ā Rocky answered immediately. Grace winced. āThatās worse.ā
Y/N leaned over the screen. At first, she was smiling.
Then she wasnāt.
Because the archive wasnāt just cats.
It was everything.
Old Earth lectures.
Street footage.
Music videos.
News clips.
People laughing in places she had never been but somehow remembered anyway.
Grace noticed it first.
The way her hands stopped moving. The way her expression softened without her meaning to let it.
āHey,ā Grace said a little more carefully, āyou okay?ā
Y/N didnāt answer right away. She was watching something now.
A simple clip.
Rain hitting a window. A city street at night, headlights reflecting on wet pavement. People walking past without looking at the camera.
Ordinary. Completely unimportant, and somehow unbearable.
āOh,ā she said quietly.
Silence settled over the lab. Even Rocky stopped clicking.
Grace shifted slightly in his chair. āā¦You recognize it?ā
Y/N nodded slowly. āI think so.ā Her voice was softer now.
āNot this exact place. But⦠places like it.ā
Rocky tilted slightly. āExplain emotional reaction.ā
āI donāt know how,ā she admittedāand that might have been the most honest thing she had said all week.
Grace looked back at the screen.
Rain. That was it.
Just rain.
And yet his chest felt oddly tight.
āā¦Huh,ā he murmured.
And for once, he didnāt try to fix it. They spent the next few hours going through files.
At first, it was funny.
Rocky discovered memes.
Grace nearly had a breakdown trying to explain vines.
Y/N laughed at a cooking video from decades ago, shaking her head like she couldnāt believe people used to function like that.
For a while, it was just chaos.
Light.
Normal in a way nothing on the Hail Mary had been for years.
Then Rocky opened a folder labeled āeveryday life.ā
And the tone shifted.
A street corner. A bus arriving. A family arguing in a kitchen. Someone tying their shoes. A dog barking at nothing.
Grace stopped talking.
Y/N leaned closer to the screen.
Rocky went unusually quiet.
It wasnāt impressive; that was the problem. It was too normal.
Like Earth hadnāt been a mission objective or a problem to solve or a place they were trying to saveā
Just a place where things happened.
āI forgot what silence like that sounded like,ā she said quietly.
Grace didnāt respond immediately because he had too many thoughts and none of them had a proper scientific structure.
Finally, he said, āItās just ambient noise.ā
Y/N glanced at him. āYeah,ā she said. āThatās what I mean.ā
āI miss it.ā she added, softer.
She didnāt specify what āitā was. She didnāt need to.
āā¦Yeah,ā Grace said.
A beat.
āI get that.ā
And something about that felt heavier than anything they had fixed on the ship so far.
Hours passed.
The archive kept going.
But Y/N got quieter. Less laughing, less commenting, more just⦠watching.
Grace noticed. He noticed everything now, apparently.
Rocky kept browsing like nothing had changed, occasionally making comments that were either insightful or deeply unhelpful.
But Grace was watching her more than the screen.
The way her shoulders slowly tensed. The way she blinked a little slower. The way she stayed on one file longer than necessary. Eventually, she stopped clicking entirely. She just sat there.
Watching a looping clip of a crowded street.
And Grace realized something uncomfortable. She wasnāt just nostalgicāshe was homesick.
He cleared his throat.
āYou want to stop?ā he asked gently.
Y/N didnāt answer right away. Then, quietly: āNo.ā
But she didnāt sound sure.
Later, when Rocky had moved on to another folder and Grace pretended to be distracted by system diagnostics, Y/N stayed behind at the screen.
Just her.
Just Earth.
Grace didnāt move at first, then walked over slowly. Sat down beside her without saying anything.
For a moment, neither of them spoke.
Then Y/N said, barely above a whisper: āDo you think weāll remember it right?ā
āEarth?ā
She nodded.
āProbably not,ā he admitted.
Then, quieter: āBut weāll remember it together.ā
Y/N exhaledānot a laugh, not quite a sigh, but something in between. And for a long time after that, they just watched the archive. Not because it was interesting anymore, but because it felt like proof that something like that had existed at all.
The stars outside kept moving. The ship kept flying. And for the first time in a long time, Earth didnāt feel like something behind them.
Just something they were still carrying.
















