#sosiel

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Thanks to my beta reader//editor @moookiemooo

so i didnt think id actually get invested in pathfinder wotr. anyways im many hours in and i cannot stop thinking about My Character

Been thinking about my favourite bit of camp interaction (excluding any time camellia is throwing a tantrum about doing chores) is when Sosiel and Seelah are sat and he says something like

"I saw this soldier, no more than a young girl, she had no life left behind her eyes, she isn't returning from the war, even if she survives"

Seelah, normally jolly in all things, locks the hell in and is like

"Sosiel, you know that none of us are returning from the war right?"

and this like, stuck with me. So many things in the game are about the fact that there are some things that push you too far to fully heal from (from the burning lance, the origin of the neathers, Arue's shadow, even the fact that the land corrupted by the abyss cannot heal)

And Sosiels endings summarise that so nicely. He... gives up adventuring, goes home, refuses to speak of the war. Maybe he gets married or has happier versions, but I dont think there's an ending where he doesnt refuse to pick up a weapon again. He is the dead-eyed girl who can't quite move past the things hes seen

The other characters who dont quite struggle as much after the war are erm... Well, its Cam (for obvs reasons), Wendu and Lann (who both already lived short miserable lives), Regil does old man business, Daeran deals with the trauma of his life in his own cruel daeran way. Grebor was a hardened killer and general scum already

And then we have Seelah, who is meant to be a proud paladin. A normal, good human being, and yet in her endings, shes sometimes a little bit conflicted, but never does she seem to bare the same scars of fighting the abyss as everyone else (who isn't a serial killer, or started in a truly god awful position). It seemed so weird.

But then I remembered another camp interaction between ember and seelah, where basically seelah goes

"this was is so hard on every good person"

and ember, the little rascal goes

"then why isnt the war hard on you?"