#sorenkin

- soren (guardians of gahoole)

I was so excited for season 4. I was so happy to see I got a fun redesign and that I was still on the good side and I was so happy to see where they’d take me. But then immediately it was… bad. Like… yeah I would mess around sometimes but I was never as… as fucking DUMB as they made me in canon. And it just fucking hurts to feel like they took all the important things that humbled me away. They turned me into a floss joke, and then made me a fucking stand-up comedian joke, and then whole thing with my pajamas under my armor, and then the crude, disgusting shit in the final episode?? I was never that crude and I never wore pajamas under my armor, I TOOK MY JOB AS CROWN GUARD SERIOUSLY.

They gave me a couple… okay moments in the season at least. One was cut short for yet another joke but it was close. Of course, some of it was based around specific trauma regarding my dad that just. Got ignored. But at least they were something.

Like. I had the moment of deducing my sister’s involvement (but that was the one cut short for the joke of “and that’s her bracelet”), I had the scene where I tried to help Rayla understand Callum, and when I argued with her over the life of a dragon and made a VERY good point about her being a dragon guard. And then there was the bit when Aaravos pointed out the fact my dad doesn’t love me (and never did)… and my whole part of an episode I spent begging my sister to come home because our dad was dead. But of course, after I see he’s alive… No more screen time. Just… ignored to be brought in for a joke.

But, I gotta say, the worst part of all of this is almost the emphasis of how no one cares about me. Not like how I cared about any of them. I would’ve given my life for ANY of them. For Ezran, Callum, *Rayla*, even my sister and at one point my dad. But no one actually cares for me. The first three didn’t seem to care I could be dead once they went into the labyrinth. Claudia… 🧍‍♂️. And my dad never loved me. Idk. Idk! Idk. I literally only had Corvus.

Everything around me is a fucking mess right now.

I’m hurt from it all. I don’t know what I can even do about it since no one I know truly kins from the show. I just wish I was more than a joke that people canonically don’t care a lot about or take seriously.

Maybe now I’ll be able to handle this much more calmly now that it’s off my chest

— a very, very sad and defeated Soren (the Dragon Prince/TDP) :(