#sophposting

mad men: still slightly at a loss wrt an ongoing watch project (it's so nice not to have to think about what to stick on during my lunch break etc) since finishing this rewatch but i had so much fun. peggy really a character and face of all time 2 me (peggy/stan forever), still in awe of the magic trick they pulled off pivoting pete to comedy after All That etc. cried a bunch through the finale obvs!

the seventh seal: sometimes you get around to ticking off a classic film and you have to go oh it is actually revelatory, cool cool cool

bridget jones: mad about the boy: oh god i cried so much (like from the first scene where daniel is being so kind to her and the kids and then basically throughout), i love you bridget. i think the first bridget jones was maybe the first 15 cert i ever snuck into at the pictures and now here we are

persuasion (1995): still perfect thx. god ciarán hinds is so hot

persuasion (2022): for some reason i thought this might not be as bad on rewatch but it still sucks lol. baffling how cosmo jarvis can be so fun in shōgun and so blah in this

manhunter: they finally put this on bfi streaming and i leapt on it, michael mann doing michael mann things, absolutely gorgeously shot (the colours!!), brian cox a very fun hannibal (when he's on the phone in his cell with his feet up the wall! okay!!)

broadcast news: holly hunter 4eva, i simply love a film full of yappers, the albert brooks line about wishing she were two people is an all-timer

kpop demon hunters: i have had golden stuck in my head for a good two weeks

witness: got influenced by the rewatchables into a rewatch, god it's good, a masterpiece of Longing, harrison ford unspeakably hot, my sign to finally reread a forbidden rumpsringa etc

thirteen lives: i was going to rewatch apollo 13 but tried this instead and i found it really really moving! lovely understanded performances from colin and viggo and joel and also a benjamin wallfisch score is just cheating emotionally speaking

dorothy dunnett, scales of gold & the unicorn hunt: i am aiming to finish niccolo by the end of the year and that feels doable! scales of gold absolutely killer back half and then the unicorn hunt probably my fave of the series since the first one due to the incredible levels of marital derangement. as ever i love to turn nicholas and lymond around in my head with wolf hall thomas cromwell and am amusing myself by picturing wout van aert from cycling as nicholas - not for like narrative reasons but bc flemish and great at suffering

jane austen, persuasion: still perfect thx

im so tired of the "you shouldn't tell your classmate/friend to swan dive off a roof in any context" takes. how about THIS for some context?? imagine you have a best friend from the time you are babies. you do not know how to conceptualize yourself apart from him; being by his side is baked into your personality. he is one of the only constants in your life. like, parent-level constant from infancy. the nicknames you have for each other are baby-ish and born out of mispronunciation and misreading because you've been friends since before you could pronounce or read your own names properly. IMAGINE THAT FOR 2 SECONDS.

and then imagine that age four rolls around and you manifest a prodigy-level superpower and suddenly everyone around you can only define you by that. and you are just a kid, like, a LITERAL TODDLER. you dont know any better, so it's confusing. who are you? don't you get to discover who you want to be? or do you just have to be what everyone tells you you should be, because of your power? even your friend starts defining you by it. to add insult to injury, he doesn't seem to care about any of his own talents at all. like, he is obsessed with other people's powers and even YOUR power, but it seems like somewhere along the way you lost your friend... like he became just like everyone else. like, he stopped caring about YOU and HIMSELF as people and started only caring about powers. fuck, man. maybe the only thing that matters IS power.

so you define yourself by your power, because that's what you were taught to do. you develop a bigoted worldview based on power and who has it because that's what you were taught. and even then, you want to be a hero, because if you have to live in this stupid world where people aren't created equally, where your best friend can't achieve his dream just because of biology, you might as well live it for him, even if it's miserable.

and he has the audacity to never give up on his dreams of being a hero, even though he has no power. like. is he stupid?? is he DETERMINED to be miserable forever?? why can't he just be CONTENT with his life? why can't he accept that even if he's a lame-ass nerd, at least people like him for who he is as a person and not just for his stupid powers. and one day, you just snap. you just can't take it anymore.

"IF YOU THINK YOU'LL HAVE SUPER POWERS IN YOUR NEXT LIFE, WHY DONT YOU JUST TAKE A SWAN DIVE OFF THE ROOF?"

but it isn't because you think he really should. it isn't because you actually think he is worthless because he has no power. it's because HE thinks that. it's because you NEVER COULD. it's because you being the powerful one was a mistake; because he is the one who was always so much more heroic than you, but he can't move on. it's because you don't know what to do with these FEELINGS and this GUILT because youve only been alive for, like, thirteen years or something, but you want your friend back— you want him to love himself or stop wasting your time.

west coast gay people, i think you lost this: