#sopher junior

January 17 2021

It feels so good to treat yourself with kindness rather than aggression. There’s already so much outside pressure so there’s no point in becoming your own bully.

I’m constantly growing and I can proudly say I’ve been so much happier the past few weeks. I’m finally allowing myself to be the person I want to be instead of succumbing to the expectations or lifestyle of other people. I’m going to navigate through my day my way. I’m going to be kind to myself because I love myself.

Today, I managed to finish my essay draft and communicate with my groupmates. I didn’t finish everything all in one pomodoro session and I didn’t completely focus during the sessions either but I did get things done and I am so proud of myself. I’m proud of myself for showering this morning, doing my makeup, setting up my table, eating breakfast, drinking my vitamins and water. I’m proud of myself for finding a French cafe playlist, messaging people and taking lots of photos.

Normally, these things are seen as distractions, me “procrastinating” before doing the “actual tasks”. But aren’t these tasks as well? These things also take energy and they make me happy. I don’t see them as negative things anymore. It’s just how I am. I’ve been like this for years and I don’t mean this in a complacent way but I think this time, I should think of it as part of my routine instead of another reason to hate myself, y’know? (I’m still learning and growing and figuring out different methods)

November 2018 🇭🇰

Can’t believe it’s been three years since my last trip abroad! I miss freshman year so much. I remember cutting my trip short and going home earlier than my family because I didn’t want to miss uni LOL. (It was a weekend trip if I remember correctly?) That’s how much I enjoyed it. Everything was so new and wonderful and I know I can still say the same for today but...nostalgia really bites y’know?