#something personal

A fun fact about me: I wanted to learn how to crochet because of an Aziracrow comic where Aziraphale decided to learn knitting so he could make Crowley a sweater. Back then, and honestly, still now, I strongly identified with Aziraphale, and I also loved headcanoning that he'd be into knitting, so I decided to give it a try. I've been crocheting for about five years now :D

It's hard making friends. I don't 'act' like the majority of people my age do, especially not here in Malaysia. I'm not interested in what they are interested in, and vice versa. I feel alone. and, unfortunately, lonely. I feel like I can't truly connect to the depth that I'm capable of. I don't relate to them, and they also don't relate to me. That is a lonely feeling. I love my own company and solitude, but sometimes I, too, want to make friends and connect like any other human being. But it's a hard process for me. I feel like an alien, like I don't belong anywhere. I can pretend to blend in with the crowd as long as it makes me feel like I 'belong' enough, but it's still hard and detrimental to me in the long run. I wonder if there's someone else out there who feels the way I do. I wonder if my best friend is somewhere out there, wondering the same thing. I wonder.