#soft rage

i promise that the reason all of the pics i post of me r taken by myself is not me being a friendless loser i PROMISE I PROMISE I PROMISE !!

- Freegrandmaa

People keep telling me I’m strong. I keep pretending I agree. I eat my pride with a plastic spoon, and call that dinner. I’m not bitter. I’m just full of things I wasn’t allowed to say at the time they were happening. If you ask me how I’m doing, I’ll tell you I’m tired. That’s the polite version of "Please don’t leave, but also don’t get too close." I’ve learned to be fine in lowercase. Because uppercase always asked for attention no one had to give. So I’m quiet. And healing. And angry. And fine. All at once. That’s the truth. And I finally know how to say it.

You didn’t break me. You just gave me a reason to renovate. And babe, the new floors are gorgeous.

(Imagine grieving someone you never had.)