Been Waiting
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Summary: You and Happy have been secretly together behind your family for a year, but when the club goes into lockdown and the only room left for you is Happys dorm things start to unravel, all the secrets come out
Pairing: Happy Lowman x f!reader
Includes: Age Gap, Violence, Pregnancy
â˘Masterlistâ˘
â˘1 Year Agoâ˘
There was a new member to the group who was coming back after being a Nomad for awhile so Mom, the SAMCRO mother, had me help get things ready for the welcoming home party
I wasnât as involved with the group things as my mother, father and brother are seeing as Iâm still in my early twenties they wanted to keep me away from the danger and chaos
But I was always excited for a party, especially a SAMCRO party, I finished up helping with the food in the kitchen, changing into black Jean shorts, a v cut longsleeve white t shirt, black cowgirl boots, and matching silver jewelry with adorning onyx gemstones
I pull into the lot and the party is already started, members all over the place celebrating and drinking, some fighting in the ring while others watched and bet, I found mom and went to check on her
âHey sweetheart, looking pretty nice for all these slimy guysâ she smirks as she sets out some hamburgers
âWell I wanted to look my best for the new member to join the family, now where is he?â She nods as she points over to one of the fires where a man sits, eyes piercing black, sleeves of tattoos and my heart clenches in my chest, never have I seen a member like this but there was something about him that drew me in
I take a hamburger and put it on a plate and get a fresh beer, making my way over to him I sit and he turns to me not saying a word just watchingâŚ..observing
âI hear youâre the newcomer, thought Iâd welcome you to the family myself!â I smile as I hand him the burger and beer, he takes it hesitantly but his shoulders seem to relax
âYou a croweater?â He asks his voice raspy sending a thrilling chill through me
âWhat no, Iâm Jaxâs sisterâ his eyes go wide for a split second
âDidnât know, never seen you around beforeâ he takes a swig of the cool beer
âYeah theyâve been hiding me away for a while now, but Iâve convinced them to let me come around moreâ he grunts as his eyes subtly glance over my exposed thighs
âGoodâ
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After that day I started dropping by the club more just to get a glimpse of him or anything really, sure it may sound desperate but that man was all I could think about, he was so mysterious it enticed me, when you grow up in this town with guys knowing your family they werenât too keen on trying their luck, but Happy is apart of this world
I turn the corner heading to Jax dorm to pass out, completely exhausted from cleaning up after one of the guys drunken ragers they had the night before, when I bump into a firm chest
âShit sorry lil girlâ that nickname oh god he was killing me, looking up I catch his gaze as they roam my body, heâs gotten more comfortable with me since the first night we meet, Jax told me heâs not one for trusting immediately
âNo itâs my fault Iâm just tired, didnât see where I was goingâ I say rubbing my eyes his hands still on my shoulders
âGuys got you running around?â His voice dropping a level like he was mad
âMom says itâs my job, I have to clean up after everyone, and the guys sure like to make a messâ I try to laugh it off but heâs not laughing
âCome youâre sleeping in my roomâ he leads me with no hesitance to his dorm, its clean unlike Jaxâs
I sit on the bed and he throws me on of his white shirts
âGet comfortable and relax lil girlâ then he was gone leaving me with so many feelings
â˘Presentâ˘
Itâs been a year since the first moment I meet the love of my life, sure we had an age gap but I didnât care and he didnât either, he treated me amazingly unlike how some members treat their woman, even though Jax is my brother heâs a prick to girls, canât keep his emotions in check, or his dick in his pants, but with Happy I never have to worry about what heâs doing when Iâm not there because heâs mine and Iâm his, and he reassures me every chance he gets in his own ways
I huff as I strip out of my clothes and unhook my bra as happy lays in the bed, I walk to the mirror and pull my hair back into a messy bun and pull on one of his SAMCRO shirts
âYou know I love you in my shirts but your sexy as hell without them lil girlâ he grunts making me laugh at his filthy mind
I crawl in next to him and he immediately wraps his arms around me, my head to his chest, I trace my finger gently over his multitude of tattoos
âThink the guys are catching onâ he says as he hand lifts the bottom of my shirt resting on my lower back
âHow?â
âWell before you I was all over the ladies, think they see Iâm not messing aroundâ
âEver the ladies man, but how could they connect that Iâm the only woman you want hmmm?â I tease as I brush my fingers over his cheekbone and he looks down at me
âSooner or later someone will catch us, youâre not the quietest girlâ he smirks tapping my ass
âHey I canât help that you fuck me just rightâ
âYou got that rightâ
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At the garage Iâm sorting through some papers to help mom out since everyoneâs been so busy with the white power group coming to town
Hearing the rumble of the bikes we head outside seeing the guys pull up, seeing Happy on his bike always did something to me, weak in my knees seeing him in his kutte showing his muscles and tattoos, all I want to do in that moment is run over like Tara and mom are doing but I canât, so I just lean against the building as our eyes meet so a while
Chucky comes out of the shop with a burger in hand to see the guys, he was a little ray of sunshine around the place but when the smell of the meat hits me my stomach flips, I run to the garbage can next to the shop and empty everything Iâve eaten today
âShit are you okay?â He asks worried, I wipe my mouth and nod trying to catch my breath, he helps guide me to the steps to the office to sit down
Looking up happy is crouched in front of me the worry written all over his face
âSick?â He asks putting his hand on my knee and I feel a little better just at his touch
âI donât know, just hit me Iâm sure Iâm fineâ looking behind him I see the guys taking glances at us, confused as to why Happy cared
âTheyâre watchingâ I whisper as I place my hand ontop of his
âDonât care right now, had to check if youâre okayâ he grumbles
âAre you getting soft on me Happy?â
âSoft? Never and you know that lil girlâ he smirks before squeezing my hand and heading back to the guys
I know itâs not just sickness, Iâve been late for my period for 2 months and Iâm only now just realizing
I get my purse and head to my car when mom stops me
âAnd where are you going little lady?â
âI just need to head to the store quickly, need anything?â
âNo sweetheart you go, donât be longâ
Driving to the store my mind is racing, how do I tell him? We havenât really talked about kids, we havenât even told anyone weâre together let alone having a baby together
I speed through the store getting the test and going to the bathroom, the ten minutes were the slowest of my life
When the timer on my phone goes off my hands are shaking as I take the test and turn it over
Two linesâŚâŚIâm pregnant
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I feel the anxiety in my body the whole day even when Iâm at home alone nothing can ease me right now except the man I need to tell
The door to my place opens like every other night and itâs Happy, he throws off his boots and slumps down on the couch next to me sighing as he wraps his arm around my shoulders and kissing my temple
âYou still feeling sick Angel?â He only used Angel when he was worried
âI have something I need to tell you Hapâ his eyes bore into mine telling me to go on
âI wasnât just sick, Iâve been missing my period for two months, I took a testâŚâŚIâm pregnantâ he was still not a single emotion on his face as his eyes went from mine to my stomach
âI know itâs a lot, we havenât even talked about itâ he gets up and heâs out the door just as quick as he came leaving me with a whole in my heart, I never thought of all his reactions heâd leave
I feel the tears pool and canât help but let them fall, if he leaves Iâll be alone and I wonât even be able to talk to anyone about it, I just want him heâs all Iâve ever wanted and Iâm keeping this little baby no matter what happens
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I get ready for work the next day, my eyes red and puffy my hair a mess but I couldnât bring myself to care at this moment, I walk into the shop and get to work
âSweetheart you look like a mess, rough night?â
âYou could say thatâ I groan rubbing my itchy eyes from all the tears I shed
She pats my shoulder and Chibs walks in dropping off another paper
âThanksâ
âYe alright las?â He asks as he leans against the desk next to wear im sitting
âNot really Chibs, feels like my world is crumbling and Iâm all aloneâ
âHappy?â My heart stops I look up at him with wide eyes and he just smiles
âWhat? IâŚ..how did you find outâ
âItâs easy, for me atleast, say the way he looks at ye, never seen him care if someone was sick beforeâ I sigh
âDonât tell anyone please itâsâŚ.complicated right now⌠have you seen him today?â
âNah, his bike ainât here yetâ I was starting to get worried, the more time went passed the more it felt like heâs really gone
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Itâs mid day and a bunch of cars pull up, mostly woman and kids, confused I go to Jax
âWhatâs going on?â
âWe gotta go into lockdown, zobelle is getting too cocky, canât risk someone else getting hurtâ
âOh should I go grab an overnight bag?â
âYeah go quick you should be fineâ I left driving quickly to my place, throwing together a bag, some clothes, makeup, perfume, all the necessities
I lock up and turn bumping into a chest making me squeal in surprise
âWhyre you here aloneâ that gravelly voice, happy
âIâŚ..Jax said Iâd be fine to go aloneâŚ..where have you been?â I ask looking up at him with a lump in my throat, his eyes ever piercing
âLetâs get you backâ he lifts me onto the back of his bike, strapping my helmet on and gets infront of me as we drive off in silence
Getting to the lot I feel so many mixed emotions, does he still love me, was this just an order to come get me
âThe place is pretty filled I donât know where youâre going to stay sisâ Jax says, he always seemed to take care of everyone else before me
âSheâll stay in my room, safest placeâ Jax gives us both a look but nods
Happy takes my bag and we go to his room and when I step in all that doubt is gone, looking around the room my heart is filled with a joy like no other, a bassinet in the corner, a changing station with little SAMCRO blankets and beanies
âBeen working on it all nightâ he says as he sits on the edge of the bed
I turn back to him standing between his legs and his hands come to rubs my hips
âSo you want this? You wanna have this baby with me?â
âHell yeah, when you told me I was shocked, shit I shouldâve stayed but you know Iâm not great with that emotional shitâ I run my hands over his shoulders and he drops his head to rest on my belly
âI know but next time donât leave me Hap, if you need to leave the room and collect your thoughts I get it but walking out on meâŚ..I thought you were gone for goodâ his head snaps up as he tightens his grip
âYou know youâre mine, youâre not getting rid of me now lil girlâ I love when his possessive side comes out
âItâs gonna be a boyâ he grumbles matter of fact
âNo itâll be a girl, I see you as a girl dadâ
âYeah weâll see about thatâ he pulls me down onto the bed hovering over me
âDo we tell the others or let them guess why you have baby shit in your room and why Iâm sporting a baby bump without them knowing I have an old manâ
âI like sneaking you around, makes it hotâ
âOh really, well Chibs already figured us out, guess we wait to see how long it takes the restâ
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Sitting around a table for dinner, everyoneâs having chili and fries, sat next to Chibs and Happy, across from us is Jax Tigs and Tara
âSis want a beer?â Jax asks trying to hand me one but Happy takes it instead
âOh Iâm good still feeling a bit sickâ I lie as happy takes a sip of the beer like it was no big deal but the guys gave us a look
âAm I missing something here?â Tigs asks
âNo?â
Chucky comes out of the back straight to Happy
âHey happy sir, whatâs with the baby stuff in your roomâ chucky was always scared of happy, as he should
âWhat the hell were you doing in my roomâ he growls staring daggers at him
âIâŚ..Gemma wanted me to drop of something for y/n and sheâs staying in your roomâ I look back at the others and I can see things click
âWait wait wait, happy you better explain yourselfâ Jax groans
âItâs privateâ I place my hand on his thigh under the table trying my best not to smirk, everyone knows happy keeps things private so they didnât ask much further, mostly out of fear
Looking next to me to Chibs he gives me a knowing smile of congrats, he leans in whispering
âBit old for ye aye lassyâ he laughs making me blush
âEven betterâ
After supper Iâm feeling tired from the roller coaster of a day, deciding to head to bed early
The crew hanging around the poll tables
âIâm gonna head to bed, night guysâ without a second though and almost on instinct I lean up and pull happy into a kiss and walk off not even thinking twice about it until arms are wrapped around me carrying me back to the guys, juice sits me down on the table and every is just looking at me shocked
âWhat? Did I do something wrong?â Happy stands across from me smirking
âYou just kissed me lil girlâ my face completely flushed as I look at everyone around me wanting to shrink in on myself
âLil girl? What the hell when did you start calling her that?â Clay asks and a chill runs down my spine he was always very protective
âLook it was just a mistake, just a thank you for helping me todayâ I try to intervene
âYou sure?â Bobby asks with a raised eyebrow
âCome on Angel just tell themâ happy grumbles wrapping his arms around my waist after I jump down from the table
âAre you sure?â I ask looking up and back at him, his hands placed over my belly, he nods and grunts in agreement
âIâm Happys ol ladyâ
âUuuuuuuuuh since when?â Juice asks dumbfounded
âAbout a year, kinda hit it off during his welcome partyâ
âA year? And out of everyone happy that psychoâ Tigs says making happy laugh
âI like them a little crazy, plus he makes me feel like an angelâ
âYou better or youâre deadâ clay says
âHold up a minuteâŚâŚthe baby shit in your room happy? Are you pregnant sis?â
âYeah, just found out todayâ the guys cheer congratulating us both
âMust be pretty pussy whipped to finally settle down brotherâ Tigs adds making me smack him up side the head
âYouâre just jealousâ
âYeah sheâs all mine, youâre stuck with pass arounds, I got the best piece of ass out thereâ happy smirks as he smacks my ass making me blush, shit I love this man
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Itâs been a few days now of this lock down and I was going a little crazy and these pregnancy cravings were kicking in high gear
Sighing I sit at the bench outside the club waiting for the guys to get back, too many people in there and I canât stand the constant chatter, I like my peace and I always got that with Happy
Halfsack comes out and sits across from me, heâs sweet heâs around my age so we get along well
âWhoâre you feeling? Heard youâre pregnant!â
âFine just reeeeeeeeally hungry, I want a chocolate brownie milkshake and pizza but I canât leaveâ he laughs
âWant me to order it for you?â
âPlease! Iâll put in a good word for you with the infamous Tacoma killerâ he perks up like a little boy and whips out his phone
âIâm on it!â
We wait a while and the gates open and the guys pull into the lot just in time for Half sack to get my food coming back and placing it infront of me, a whole pizza and a large milkshake making me look ridiculous as the guys come over
âA little hungry there lassyâ Chibs laughs and I look down embarrassed
Happy leans down next to me kissing my temple
âThe baby has cravings and Iâm hungryâ I groan
âNo one comments on what she eats againâ happy growls as he hands me my drink and opens the box for me
âYeah heâs totally pussy whippedâ
âWatch yourself tiggy donât think I wonât beat your ass just because Iâm pregnantâ I say making everyone laugh
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Itâs been 5 months and Iâm about 7 months along now, today we are having the baby reveal at the club, mom insisted we celebrate since itâll be a new member to the family, walking into the club with Happy, his hand on my lower back guiding me along, heâs become extra touchy with me since he found out I was pregnant
âOkay everyone put in your guesses on what you think the baby will be!â Mom says going around from each person
âDefinitely a boyâ Jax said
âNah man Happys totally a girl dadâ tig adds and chibs agrees
âIâm with Jax itâs a boyâ juice cheers, Opie agrees, halfsack says itâll be a girl, dad thinks a boy and mom does too
âFrom mothers intuition I think itâs a little girlâ
âSo Iâll have two lil girls nowâ happy whispers to me
âNo im your lil girl, thisâll be your baby girlâ he smiles rubbing my belly
âCome on you two plenty of time for that on your own time letâs find out!â Mom says motioning for us to come up, she hands us both guns, paint ball guns with a target weâre meant to shot
âAlright 3âŚ..2âŚ.1!â We both shoot and pink paint explodes across the targets, I scream jumping into Happys arms
âI told you!!!!â I canât believe Iâm have a little girl, happy holds me close and kisses my temple
âIâm gonna protect you both for the rest of my life lil girlâ and in that moment I knew he was all Iâll ever need
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