Been Waiting
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Summary: You and Happy have been secretly together behind your family for a year, but when the club goes into lockdown and the only room left for you is Happys dorm things start to unravel, all the secrets come out
Pairing: Happy Lowman x f!reader
Includes: Age Gap, Violence, Pregnancy
ā¢Masterlistā¢
ā¢1 Year Agoā¢
There was a new member to the group who was coming back after being a Nomad for awhile so Mom, the SAMCRO mother, had me help get things ready for the welcoming home party
I wasnāt as involved with the group things as my mother, father and brother are seeing as Iām still in my early twenties they wanted to keep me away from the danger and chaos
But I was always excited for a party, especially a SAMCRO party, I finished up helping with the food in the kitchen, changing into black Jean shorts, a v cut longsleeve white t shirt, black cowgirl boots, and matching silver jewelry with adorning onyx gemstones
I pull into the lot and the party is already started, members all over the place celebrating and drinking, some fighting in the ring while others watched and bet, I found mom and went to check on her
āHey sweetheart, looking pretty nice for all these slimy guysā she smirks as she sets out some hamburgers
āWell I wanted to look my best for the new member to join the family, now where is he?ā She nods as she points over to one of the fires where a man sits, eyes piercing black, sleeves of tattoos and my heart clenches in my chest, never have I seen a member like this but there was something about him that drew me in
I take a hamburger and put it on a plate and get a fresh beer, making my way over to him I sit and he turns to me not saying a word just watchingā¦..observing
āI hear youāre the newcomer, thought Iād welcome you to the family myself!ā I smile as I hand him the burger and beer, he takes it hesitantly but his shoulders seem to relax
āYou a croweater?ā He asks his voice raspy sending a thrilling chill through me
āWhat no, Iām Jaxās sisterā his eyes go wide for a split second
āDidnāt know, never seen you around beforeā he takes a swig of the cool beer
āYeah theyāve been hiding me away for a while now, but Iāve convinced them to let me come around moreā he grunts as his eyes subtly glance over my exposed thighs
āGoodā
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After that day I started dropping by the club more just to get a glimpse of him or anything really, sure it may sound desperate but that man was all I could think about, he was so mysterious it enticed me, when you grow up in this town with guys knowing your family they werenāt too keen on trying their luck, but Happy is apart of this world
I turn the corner heading to Jax dorm to pass out, completely exhausted from cleaning up after one of the guys drunken ragers they had the night before, when I bump into a firm chest
āShit sorry lil girlā that nickname oh god he was killing me, looking up I catch his gaze as they roam my body, heās gotten more comfortable with me since the first night we meet, Jax told me heās not one for trusting immediately
āNo itās my fault Iām just tired, didnāt see where I was goingā I say rubbing my eyes his hands still on my shoulders
āGuys got you running around?ā His voice dropping a level like he was mad
āMom says itās my job, I have to clean up after everyone, and the guys sure like to make a messā I try to laugh it off but heās not laughing
āCome youāre sleeping in my roomā he leads me with no hesitance to his dorm, its clean unlike Jaxās
I sit on the bed and he throws me on of his white shirts
āGet comfortable and relax lil girlā then he was gone leaving me with so many feelings
ā¢Presentā¢
Itās been a year since the first moment I meet the love of my life, sure we had an age gap but I didnāt care and he didnāt either, he treated me amazingly unlike how some members treat their woman, even though Jax is my brother heās a prick to girls, canāt keep his emotions in check, or his dick in his pants, but with Happy I never have to worry about what heās doing when Iām not there because heās mine and Iām his, and he reassures me every chance he gets in his own ways
I huff as I strip out of my clothes and unhook my bra as happy lays in the bed, I walk to the mirror and pull my hair back into a messy bun and pull on one of his SAMCRO shirts
āYou know I love you in my shirts but your sexy as hell without them lil girlā he grunts making me laugh at his filthy mind
I crawl in next to him and he immediately wraps his arms around me, my head to his chest, I trace my finger gently over his multitude of tattoos
āThink the guys are catching onā he says as he hand lifts the bottom of my shirt resting on my lower back
āHow?ā
āWell before you I was all over the ladies, think they see Iām not messing aroundā
āEver the ladies man, but how could they connect that Iām the only woman you want hmmm?ā I tease as I brush my fingers over his cheekbone and he looks down at me
āSooner or later someone will catch us, youāre not the quietest girlā he smirks tapping my ass
āHey I canāt help that you fuck me just rightā
āYou got that rightā
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At the garage Iām sorting through some papers to help mom out since everyoneās been so busy with the white power group coming to town
Hearing the rumble of the bikes we head outside seeing the guys pull up, seeing Happy on his bike always did something to me, weak in my knees seeing him in his kutte showing his muscles and tattoos, all I want to do in that moment is run over like Tara and mom are doing but I canāt, so I just lean against the building as our eyes meet so a while
Chucky comes out of the shop with a burger in hand to see the guys, he was a little ray of sunshine around the place but when the smell of the meat hits me my stomach flips, I run to the garbage can next to the shop and empty everything Iāve eaten today
āShit are you okay?ā He asks worried, I wipe my mouth and nod trying to catch my breath, he helps guide me to the steps to the office to sit down
Looking up happy is crouched in front of me the worry written all over his face
āSick?ā He asks putting his hand on my knee and I feel a little better just at his touch
āI donāt know, just hit me Iām sure Iām fineā looking behind him I see the guys taking glances at us, confused as to why Happy cared
āTheyāre watchingā I whisper as I place my hand ontop of his
āDonāt care right now, had to check if youāre okayā he grumbles
āAre you getting soft on me Happy?ā
āSoft? Never and you know that lil girlā he smirks before squeezing my hand and heading back to the guys
I know itās not just sickness, Iāve been late for my period for 2 months and Iām only now just realizing
I get my purse and head to my car when mom stops me
āAnd where are you going little lady?ā
āI just need to head to the store quickly, need anything?ā
āNo sweetheart you go, donāt be longā
Driving to the store my mind is racing, how do I tell him? We havenāt really talked about kids, we havenāt even told anyone weāre together let alone having a baby together
I speed through the store getting the test and going to the bathroom, the ten minutes were the slowest of my life
When the timer on my phone goes off my hands are shaking as I take the test and turn it over
Two linesā¦ā¦Iām pregnant
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I feel the anxiety in my body the whole day even when Iām at home alone nothing can ease me right now except the man I need to tell
The door to my place opens like every other night and itās Happy, he throws off his boots and slumps down on the couch next to me sighing as he wraps his arm around my shoulders and kissing my temple
āYou still feeling sick Angel?ā He only used Angel when he was worried
āI have something I need to tell you Hapā his eyes bore into mine telling me to go on
āI wasnāt just sick, Iāve been missing my period for two months, I took a testā¦ā¦Iām pregnantā he was still not a single emotion on his face as his eyes went from mine to my stomach
āI know itās a lot, we havenāt even talked about itā he gets up and heās out the door just as quick as he came leaving me with a whole in my heart, I never thought of all his reactions heād leave
I feel the tears pool and canāt help but let them fall, if he leaves Iāll be alone and I wonāt even be able to talk to anyone about it, I just want him heās all Iāve ever wanted and Iām keeping this little baby no matter what happens
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I get ready for work the next day, my eyes red and puffy my hair a mess but I couldnāt bring myself to care at this moment, I walk into the shop and get to work
āSweetheart you look like a mess, rough night?ā
āYou could say thatā I groan rubbing my itchy eyes from all the tears I shed
She pats my shoulder and Chibs walks in dropping off another paper
āThanksā
āYe alright las?ā He asks as he leans against the desk next to wear im sitting
āNot really Chibs, feels like my world is crumbling and Iām all aloneā
āHappy?ā My heart stops I look up at him with wide eyes and he just smiles
āWhat? Iā¦..how did you find outā
āItās easy, for me atleast, say the way he looks at ye, never seen him care if someone was sick beforeā I sigh
āDonāt tell anyone please itāsā¦.complicated right now⦠have you seen him today?ā
āNah, his bike aināt here yetā I was starting to get worried, the more time went passed the more it felt like heās really gone
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Itās mid day and a bunch of cars pull up, mostly woman and kids, confused I go to Jax
āWhatās going on?ā
āWe gotta go into lockdown, zobelle is getting too cocky, canāt risk someone else getting hurtā
āOh should I go grab an overnight bag?ā
āYeah go quick you should be fineā I left driving quickly to my place, throwing together a bag, some clothes, makeup, perfume, all the necessities
I lock up and turn bumping into a chest making me squeal in surprise
āWhyre you here aloneā that gravelly voice, happy
āIā¦..Jax said Iād be fine to go aloneā¦..where have you been?ā I ask looking up at him with a lump in my throat, his eyes ever piercing
āLetās get you backā he lifts me onto the back of his bike, strapping my helmet on and gets infront of me as we drive off in silence
Getting to the lot I feel so many mixed emotions, does he still love me, was this just an order to come get me
āThe place is pretty filled I donāt know where youāre going to stay sisā Jax says, he always seemed to take care of everyone else before me
āSheāll stay in my room, safest placeā Jax gives us both a look but nods
Happy takes my bag and we go to his room and when I step in all that doubt is gone, looking around the room my heart is filled with a joy like no other, a bassinet in the corner, a changing station with little SAMCRO blankets and beanies
āBeen working on it all nightā he says as he sits on the edge of the bed
I turn back to him standing between his legs and his hands come to rubs my hips
āSo you want this? You wanna have this baby with me?ā
āHell yeah, when you told me I was shocked, shit I shouldāve stayed but you know Iām not great with that emotional shitā I run my hands over his shoulders and he drops his head to rest on my belly
āI know but next time donāt leave me Hap, if you need to leave the room and collect your thoughts I get it but walking out on meā¦..I thought you were gone for goodā his head snaps up as he tightens his grip
āYou know youāre mine, youāre not getting rid of me now lil girlā I love when his possessive side comes out
āItās gonna be a boyā he grumbles matter of fact
āNo itāll be a girl, I see you as a girl dadā
āYeah weāll see about thatā he pulls me down onto the bed hovering over me
āDo we tell the others or let them guess why you have baby shit in your room and why Iām sporting a baby bump without them knowing I have an old manā
āI like sneaking you around, makes it hotā
āOh really, well Chibs already figured us out, guess we wait to see how long it takes the restā
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Sitting around a table for dinner, everyoneās having chili and fries, sat next to Chibs and Happy, across from us is Jax Tigs and Tara
āSis want a beer?ā Jax asks trying to hand me one but Happy takes it instead
āOh Iām good still feeling a bit sickā I lie as happy takes a sip of the beer like it was no big deal but the guys gave us a look
āAm I missing something here?ā Tigs asks
āNo?ā
Chucky comes out of the back straight to Happy
āHey happy sir, whatās with the baby stuff in your roomā chucky was always scared of happy, as he should
āWhat the hell were you doing in my roomā he growls staring daggers at him
āIā¦..Gemma wanted me to drop of something for y/n and sheās staying in your roomā I look back at the others and I can see things click
āWait wait wait, happy you better explain yourselfā Jax groans
āItās privateā I place my hand on his thigh under the table trying my best not to smirk, everyone knows happy keeps things private so they didnāt ask much further, mostly out of fear
Looking next to me to Chibs he gives me a knowing smile of congrats, he leans in whispering
āBit old for ye aye lassyā he laughs making me blush
āEven betterā
After supper Iām feeling tired from the roller coaster of a day, deciding to head to bed early
The crew hanging around the poll tables
āIām gonna head to bed, night guysā without a second though and almost on instinct I lean up and pull happy into a kiss and walk off not even thinking twice about it until arms are wrapped around me carrying me back to the guys, juice sits me down on the table and every is just looking at me shocked
āWhat? Did I do something wrong?ā Happy stands across from me smirking
āYou just kissed me lil girlā my face completely flushed as I look at everyone around me wanting to shrink in on myself
āLil girl? What the hell when did you start calling her that?ā Clay asks and a chill runs down my spine he was always very protective
āLook it was just a mistake, just a thank you for helping me todayā I try to intervene
āYou sure?ā Bobby asks with a raised eyebrow
āCome on Angel just tell themā happy grumbles wrapping his arms around my waist after I jump down from the table
āAre you sure?ā I ask looking up and back at him, his hands placed over my belly, he nods and grunts in agreement
āIām Happys ol ladyā
āUuuuuuuuuh since when?ā Juice asks dumbfounded
āAbout a year, kinda hit it off during his welcome partyā
āA year? And out of everyone happy that psychoā Tigs says making happy laugh
āI like them a little crazy, plus he makes me feel like an angelā
āYou better or youāre deadā clay says
āHold up a minuteā¦ā¦the baby shit in your room happy? Are you pregnant sis?ā
āYeah, just found out todayā the guys cheer congratulating us both
āMust be pretty pussy whipped to finally settle down brotherā Tigs adds making me smack him up side the head
āYouāre just jealousā
āYeah sheās all mine, youāre stuck with pass arounds, I got the best piece of ass out thereā happy smirks as he smacks my ass making me blush, shit I love this man
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Itās been a few days now of this lock down and I was going a little crazy and these pregnancy cravings were kicking in high gear
Sighing I sit at the bench outside the club waiting for the guys to get back, too many people in there and I canāt stand the constant chatter, I like my peace and I always got that with Happy
Halfsack comes out and sits across from me, heās sweet heās around my age so we get along well
āWhoāre you feeling? Heard youāre pregnant!ā
āFine just reeeeeeeeally hungry, I want a chocolate brownie milkshake and pizza but I canāt leaveā he laughs
āWant me to order it for you?ā
āPlease! Iāll put in a good word for you with the infamous Tacoma killerā he perks up like a little boy and whips out his phone
āIām on it!ā
We wait a while and the gates open and the guys pull into the lot just in time for Half sack to get my food coming back and placing it infront of me, a whole pizza and a large milkshake making me look ridiculous as the guys come over
āA little hungry there lassyā Chibs laughs and I look down embarrassed
Happy leans down next to me kissing my temple
āThe baby has cravings and Iām hungryā I groan
āNo one comments on what she eats againā happy growls as he hands me my drink and opens the box for me
āYeah heās totally pussy whippedā
āWatch yourself tiggy donāt think I wonāt beat your ass just because Iām pregnantā I say making everyone laugh
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Itās been 5 months and Iām about 7 months along now, today we are having the baby reveal at the club, mom insisted we celebrate since itāll be a new member to the family, walking into the club with Happy, his hand on my lower back guiding me along, heās become extra touchy with me since he found out I was pregnant
āOkay everyone put in your guesses on what you think the baby will be!ā Mom says going around from each person
āDefinitely a boyā Jax said
āNah man Happys totally a girl dadā tig adds and chibs agrees
āIām with Jax itās a boyā juice cheers, Opie agrees, halfsack says itāll be a girl, dad thinks a boy and mom does too
āFrom mothers intuition I think itās a little girlā
āSo Iāll have two lil girls nowā happy whispers to me
āNo im your lil girl, thisāll be your baby girlā he smiles rubbing my belly
āCome on you two plenty of time for that on your own time letās find out!ā Mom says motioning for us to come up, she hands us both guns, paint ball guns with a target weāre meant to shot
āAlright 3ā¦..2ā¦.1!ā We both shoot and pink paint explodes across the targets, I scream jumping into Happys arms
āI told you!!!!ā I canāt believe Iām have a little girl, happy holds me close and kisses my temple
āIām gonna protect you both for the rest of my life lil girlā and in that moment I knew he was all Iāll ever need
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