well since Iām sick and can say anything Iāve had this mh fairytale au turning circles in my head for a while now. this was written mostly in the ER waiting room so you have to be nice to me
in which there is a kingdom with two princes (not actually related). the eldest, Alex, is serious and detail-oriented. the younger, Brian, is cheerful and never loses sight of the peopleās welfare. they balance each other out and things are good for a while, until one day Alex followsā something, I dunno, a white stag, maybeā deep into the wilds of Rosswood Forest. when he catches up to it he finds only rotten wood, the antlers now twisting cracking branches. deep within the Forest lies a crumbling ruin, its purpose long lost to time. no one lingers long there. the fog has a way of creeping in and curling around your bones as every nerve in your body screams that you should not be here. heās unnerved, obviously, and runs home. something follows him.
you know this part. itās the part where the good prince Alex is slowly overtaken by something very very old and very very hungry. he hides his blackened veins beneath long sleeves, and his smile is tight, teeth gritted. Brian is many things, but not unobservant, and he soon notices the change and confronts Alex about it. it goes badly. when the smoke clears, the castle is on fire and both princes have vanished.
meanwhile: in a wooden shack on the very edge of the Forest lives a woodsman. youāll know heās a woodsman by his red checked shirt and the axe in his hand, and the silent way he moves between the trees. he has lived here as long as he can rememberā which, granted, is not as long as youād expect. Tim has no family and no friends except for the creatures of the wild, which recognize him as one of their own. he knows their names and their voices, and he follows their trails around bogs and thick briars. heās gotten pretty good at this wilderness-survival thing. one day a new visitor comes to his window: a blue jay, screaming loud enough to wake the dead like some kind of demented cockerel. Tim tells it this, and the bird cocks its head and says: āYouāre Tim Wright, right?ā in the language of birds.
Tim does not actually know if he is Tim Wright, or the right Tim Wright, orā forget it. But the bluejay is pretty convinced and alarmingly persistent, and so eventually they set off into the Forest together. Tim slips soundlessly over tangled roots and thick moss. The jay flies overhead, making an unholy racket. Neither of them spots the huge, shaggy shadow trailing them through the Forest. Neither of them catches a glimpse of its burning red eyes. eventually they come to the place where the fog starts to rise and strange stones jut from the earth. something about it is familiar. mostly, itās just really unsettling. Tim Does Not want to be here, which he makes very clear. The bluejay, unheeding, flits away between the remains of long forgotten arches. furious, Tim chases it.
he sees glimpses of the white stag, and glimpses of deadly white mushrooms sprouting up from its decaying form. fleeting shadows of a man, two men, a wolf: there and gone. he breaks into a sprint, and suddenly finds himself in a clearing ringed by standing stones. in the middle of it stands something too tall to be a man. its face is beautiful, captivating. Tim blinks. it has no face. it sweeps one long, twisting, cracking arm at the bluejay, nearly knocking it from the sky. Tim and the bird donāt waste any time. they run (and fly) as if the devil is at their heels, although the thing sending curling roots and branches to trip and hinder them is much, much older than the devil. in their single-minded drive to get AWAY they crash through the brambles into another clearing. in it stands a man(?), his face hidden by a blue hooded cloak. he draws his sword and advances. Tim and the bird are, to put it lightly, fucked. (or Tim is, and the bluejay refuses to leave him. take your pick.)
just then a great dark shape lunges from the trees: a terrible beast covered in black fur. its teeth are very big and very sharp, its gums red, red, red as it bares them in a snarl. its eyes burn like coals in the hearth. it closes its massive jaws around the strangerās arm. he overcomes his surprise quickly and turns his blade on the wolf (for that is what it is, a wolf) but eventually sees sense and flees. the wolf starts after him, as if considering pursuit, but turns its fiery gaze on our unlucky heroes. Tim swallows hard and holds his axe between the wolf and himself and the bird on his shoulder. His knuckles are white on the handle and his hands tremble. The wolf comes closer. Closer still, until he can feel its hot breath on his face and watch the blood dripping red red red from its maw. Tim stands before death and keeps his gaze steady. He hopes it doesnāt eat the bird, which is probably too small to be anything more than a snack. The woodsman, on the other handā¦
The wolf licks Timās face. Itās awful, and disgusting, and gross. The wolf does it again. the wolf crouches on its massive front paws and wags its ponderous tail. Then rises, and plants those paws on his shoulders, and bears him down to the earth. the bluejay darts into the air, squawking. Tim is rethinking this whole death with dignity thing and considering maybe just closing his eyes and waiting for it to be over. but the wolf just huffs and presses its cold, wet nose to the underside of his jaw. he waits. it doesnāt budge. actually, it seems quite content to stay there forever, until the bluejay dives at its head and it rolls off, snapping its teeth (playfully?)
there are no wolves in Rosswood Forest, and there havenāt been for many, many years. but the wolf-shaped shadow trots after Tim and the bird as they continue their trek through the forest. at one point the bluejay notices that the wolfās uneven gate. it screeches and swoops and makes a general nuisance of itself until the wolf, guiltily (can a wolf ever truly feel guilt?), shows Tim the wicked thorn lodged in its footpad. gently, carefully, Tim draws it out, the jay on his shoulder offering unwanted advice the whole time. he binds the wound with a torn piece of red flannel. the wolf butts its great shaggy head into his chest in gratitude. it does not seem to talk, in the long silent tongue of wolves or any other.
so they continue on, through many troubles and arguments and wrong turns (for they are nearing the heart of the Forest again, where trails may shift and disappear as soon as you turn your back on them). and with the three of them the path seems less rocky, the nights less frightening, the shadows less sinister.
they come once again to the mist, the crumbled arches. they sneak through a graveyard of shattered stones, and this time they lose sight of each other through the fog. it is very very obvious that this is not a silence that should be disturbed, so they stumble blindly through the ruins. Tim finds himself again at the edge of the great stone circle. something about this place is so very very familiar. something about the sense of unease that radiates from these ancient stones strikes a chord in some forgotten memory. he knows this place, as well as he knows the rest of Rosswood. heās never once gotten lost in its twisting labyrinth of stone. and suddenly he remembers being very small and very frightened, crouching behind a toppled pillar as a long shadow swept across his hiding place. he remembers holding his breath against the sickly sweet smell of decay. he remembers running, and running, and running until his feet knew every cracked flagstone, until he could navigate the maze and find himself in a part of the forest heād never seen before, where sunlight poured like honey through the canopy.
he has no time to think about that now, though, because a figure in a tattered blue cloak materializes from the fog. he draws his sword with a spine-chilling scrape of metal on metal. Tim tightens his grip on the axe. they circle warily. letās be real for a second. considering the average level of training for a nobleman compared to a peasant who probably hasnāt seen another sword before this one: letās just say the odds are not in Timās favor. they never have been before. Tim puts his all into one desperate swing. a flash of metal swipes the axe from his hand. the swordsman laughs, mockingly, and charges. he probably would have skewered Tim if not for the desperate plunge of the bluejay, diving out of the mist with a battle cry. the jay swoops around the swordsmanās head, sharp beak and sharp talons aiming for his eyes. the swordsman curses and Tim scrambles for his fallen weapon.
he looks up just in time to see a spray of blue feathers flecked with red, the sharp point jutting from the birdās breast.
a howl of grief tears itself from his throat. it is a sound not found in any language spoken, except perhaps the vanished language of wolves. he charges the swordsman again. their blades clash and strain against each other. what Tim lacks in practice he certainly makes up for in strengthā the swordsman is lanky, spindly, even. unfortunately, heās also very, very fast, and with a flick of his wrist the edge of his blade is pressing into Timās throat. beneath the hood, Tim gets a glimpse of a strange cold smile. then: a growl like thunder rolling across the sky. the wolf barrels into the swordsman, knocking him down. its teeth are very very big and very very sharp.
the swordsmanās face contorts with rage. itās something inhumanā something very very old, and pretty used to getting its way. he snarls, matching the wolf for ferocity, and slashes at its great black flank. this time, he draws blood. it drips red red red on the broken tiles as they separate to face off once more. (while all of this is going on, Tim studies the battlefieldā the arrangement of stones. if he can just surprise their opponentā) the wolf has done just that, its massive jaws snapping shut on the swordsmanās ragged blue cloak, which tears easily. the swordsman staggers back, now exposed to the world. black veins of rot twine around his arms and throat like creeping vines, and cross his face like cracks in porcelain. the wolf pauses too, as if struck by the sight. then the fight is on again. the swordsmanās strikes are wild now, his motions jerky with fury. on one of these uncontrolled attacks, the wolf closes its jaws around the wrist attached to the hand holding the sword. with a vicious wrench it bites down. the swordsman screams, his weapon clattering to the stones.
the wolf wastes no time in pressing its advantage, pinning the swordsman to the ground with its paws on his shoulders. thereās blood on its teeth and it drips to run down his face. the wolfās breath is hot and laced with iron, its prey finally brought low. it closes in for the kill, andā stops. the scent of the swordsmanās skin is familiar. too familiar, in the way of something once well loved. so is his face, once beloved, now twisted into a mask of hatred. once it had licked this face affectionatelyā or if not that, then something close. when had that love changed? what happened? the wolf noses at the swordsmanās bloody cheek as if to find the answers there. the swordsman lifts his mangled hand to the wolfās neck. with the other he plunges a dagger into its heart.
this time grief is silent. it does not speak a word, not in any language spoken now or ever. we must imagine it, though, as something like a lightning strike, sending a wave of energy radiating out from the site of contact. leaves skitter outwards, away from fallen stones. the canopy rustles as if stirred by the wind. throughout Rosswood Forest, the birds fall silent.
Tim lunges from behind the pillar supporting the last standing arch and collides with the swordsman. there is no hesitation now. he swings the axe as if itās as light as a feather, and the butt end smashes into the swordsmanās ribs with the force of a hammer coming down on an anvil. the dagger glances against his ribs, he wraps his hand around the blade and flings it across the stone circle. the swordsman makes a grab for the axe and Tim tosses it aside. his knuckles split on the swordsmanās jaw and they go down together in a flurry of blows. the swordsman lies below him now, bruised and bloodied. three parallel scratches across his cheek, a gift from the jay. blood running from his hairline courtesy of the wolf. bruises blooming on his too-pale skin. Tim shoves himself up and away, half horrified at his own ferocity, half crowing victory and the sweet song of survival.
the swordsman rises shakily to his knees. Tim approaches with caution. it is never wise to assume that a swordsman has no blades left on his person. the swordsmanās nose is broken, his lip split, red red red streaking from his mouth. he watches Tim with hollow eyes. his lips move soundlessly, a creaking breath scraping from his throat. Tim isnāt fool enough to lean in. the swordsman narrows his eyes in irritation and repeats himself. itās no louder than a whisper, but it carries.
the axe separates his head from his shoulders in one swing.
Tim sinks to his knees, panting, gasping, laughing, sobbing. out of the corner of his eye he registers movement: something white darting between the stones. he sees antlers, bone-white and deadly, then blackened and crumbling to ash. he sees the stag silhouetted in the archway and then he sees something very old, and beautiful in its terror and terrible in its beauty. something very, very tall, towering above the standing stones. something very still. something very familiar.
Tim stands on shaky legs and steps over the swordsmanās body. He steps closer to something that might have been eyeing him with interest if it had eyes to do it with. An ancient fear grips his heart in its icy fingers, something older than mankind screaming run, now, leave this place, survive. Tim squares his shoulders and takes another step. āI know you,ā he tells something that has existed long before words, before thoughts. āI remember you.ā
the something in question may have inclined its featureless head, or maybe it had always done so, since the beginning of time. Timās blood freezes in his veins and his hands begin to tremble. He curls them into fists.
āI know that you are older than trees, older than stone. I know that you are very strong and very hungry. Years youāve chased me, years youāve stolen from me. I know axes and swords can never kill you, and you can take my life in an instant.ā
āBut Iāll tell you whatās about to happen. When Iāve said my piece, Iām turning around and walking out of here. What you do then is up to you. But I wonāt run, and I wonāt cower. Iām sick of you, sick of death, sick of rot. But Iām not afraid of you. Not anymore.ā
with that the woodsman turns and does exactly as he said. he turns and walks out of the stone circle, then the twisting paths. at any moment a cold and terrible hand might land on his shoulder and yank him back. but he never looks backwards, and the cold and terrible touch never comes. eventually he arrives to the place where the stones end and the mist disappears in the honey-gold sun. he closes his eyes and breathes in the smell of life and green growing things and listens to the cries of birds in the treetops (a robin, a crow, a cardinal, notā) and knows that it never will.
when he opens his eyes again he finds himself surrounded by a very strange company. before he can get a good look at any of them heās pulled into a crushing embrace.
āTim!ā exclaims a beanpole of a man, all elbows and bony edges digging into his sides. It hurts, a little, but the joy in the strangerās voice tugs sharply at his heart. He has never heard his name said like that before, let alone by a man heās never seen before in his life.
āā¦do I know you?ā he asks, leaning back to peer at the manās face, searching for something, anything he recognized. all he finds is a frustrating hint ofā something, warm and fond.
āIād hope so,ā says the stranger. āDid you forget my voice?ā He tips his head back and laughs, and the sound of his laughter is a distinctive teasing cackle Tim has heard many times before. The language of birds always sounds strange coming from a human throat, but a woodsman always knows it when he hears it. āMy nameās Jay,ā says the man who up until very recently had been small and blue and covered in feathers.
Tim blinks, dazed. before he can ask any of the thousand questions on his mind his attention is pulled to the other man currently burying his face in Timās hair. he jerks back, affronted. āwere you sniffing me?!ā
the other man doesnāt have the decency to look embarrassed. he shrugs halfheartedly, and breaks out into a brilliant smile. itās like the sun coming out. Tim feels like maybe he shouldnāt be staring directly at it, except that his eyes keep catching on the gap between the strangerās⦠oddly sharp front teeth. the man steps back into Timās personal space easily, wrapping strong arms around his middle and burying his face in the crook of Timās neck.
āso youāreā the wolf,ā Tim manages, still a little dumbstruck. the man wrapped around him like a clinging vine looks nothing like the tremendous shaggy beast that followed him through the forest, but again something feels the same.
āBrian,ā the man whose eyes no longer burn says into the skin of his jaw. Brian lifts his head and fixes Tim with adoring eyes. Thereās really no other word for it. Then a smile tugs at his lips and Timās eyes narrow and soon heās got a hand shoving Brianās face away.
āDonāt even think about it,ā Tim warns. Something hot and wet slides across the palm of his hand. He drops it, disgusted, and wipes the spit off on Brianās coat. Which is, for the record, very finely made, and very very yellow. Jay snickers and Tim looks between the two of them like he canāt believe his eyes. āButā you were dead,ā he says flatly. āI saw it, I saw you bothāā
Jay squeezes the back of his neck and scuffs his shoe on the ground. āItās kind of a long story,ā he tries. Tim glares. āOkay, long story shortā we were cursed. Him as a wolf, me asā well, you know.ā Tim raises an eyebrow. Heās never really gone in for curses and associated woo-woo bullshit, but the day heās had is the kind that makes a man believe in the impossible. āAnywaysā I was stuck. As a bird. Until I did something truly selfless,ā Jay continues. His hand hovers over the place where not long before a sword point had burst through.
āAnd I,ā Brian cuts in, āhad to do something truly honest. Which I guess I did. I looked at the man I hated most in the world and knew that I still loved him. And then he stabbed me, but, well.ā He runs a hand through his hair, suddenly sheepish. āHey, Tim, listen, donāt freak outāā
āI said donāt freak out!ā
āAbout me,ā says a third voice. This man is no stranger. Tim has seen his face in a rictus mask of anger, has seen him cold and remorseless, has seen him bloodied, bruised, and broken. His blood runs cold and he instinctively takes a step backward, arms spread in front of Jay and Brian to shield them. But the swordsman carries no blade, and thereās no hatred in his eyes. Only relief and regret. āIām Alex, by the way. And I am sorry about. Well. All of it.ā Alex shakes his head ruefully. Tim stares.
āAnd I owe you more than I can ever repay,ā Alex continues. āThe decay made me a monster. It rotted me from the inside out. I could feel myself slipping away, deeper and deeper into the nightmare. I watched the people I love die at my own hands and I wished more than anything for the strength to end it.ā He meets Timās incredulous gaze. āI didnāt have it. You did.ā He falls silent and looks away.
Tim takes a deep breath, and a leap of faith. He reaches out to touch Alexās hand where it hangs limp by his side. Alex looks at him again, startled.
āOne thing you can be sure of,ā Alex says quietly, āis that none of us would be standing here right now if you hadnāt done your part.ā
Tim gives him an questioning look. āWhich was?ā
Alex squeezes his hand. āIt took an act of true bravery to break thatā that thingās hold on all of us. That one was all yours.ā
And they all lived happily ever afterā
(this is the part where Tim blinks awake. he stares up at Brianās grinning face blearily. āI was having the weirdest dream,ā he starts, throat hoarse. āI wasā a lumberjack, or something, and you wereāā he stops. āDid you make me Snow White?!ā he demands. heās suddenly aware of a cool cloth on his forehead and a hand tracing gently through his hair. āMore like Sleeping Beauty,ā Alex teases. āYou were out for a while, but your fever broke about half an hour ago. I think weāre in the clear.ā the mattress dips beneath a new weight and thereās a hand wrapped around Timās clammy palm. āAnd anyways, you got off easy,ā Jay groans. āHe made me a talking bird!ā)