#smallpoem

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Tear me from these dreams of pills,

Of bubbling skin, of flesh pulling from nerve and bone.

Bring me back to the land of the living.

For a blissful moment,

Let me live in serenity

Before I remember

The bottle on my nightstand

GOD i want all of them to be real too.... if i had the brain and the time i would be unstoppable. i was literally talking to my friend last night about how like even if i spent every minute of every day for the rest of my life writing i still wouldn't be about of things to write... a tragedy.

maps and constellations (chan x felix; college au, angst, growing pains ig?; explicit) - at the end of their senior year, chan, felix, and all their friends decide to take a road trip together over spring break. they're all going to be going their separate ways after graduation, and chan isn't sure how he's going to handle being on his own—especially with Felix an ocean away.

12) favorite character to write about this year

oh GOD oh god man probably my hyunchan.... they were simply so... FUN. i remember sitting there at my computer just grinning at the wall because I enjoyed writing those two so much.

14) a fic you didn’t expect to write

also the hyunchan ahahaha i didn't expect red lights to be THAT .... the way that it was like. really turned my year around let me tell you

15) something you learned this year

oh gosh. i guess that i still have NO IDEA what my audience wants like... idk i can typically tell when a fic is gonna do good or bad before i post it but like. my hyunchan for example did really well on tumblr which i didn't expect? meanwhile that yuta/reader i wrote for halloween completely flopped? i still don't get it HDNSKJD but that's okay! what matters still is that I write for me because... it's worked so far ^^

JSHDFJD oops lol .... i do think though that you seem to be a person who has a lot of love, it's just that it's difficult to access it sometimes because of like the everything else. which is fair lmao.

I will say also that places is the result i got when i took this quiz (which i think is accurate bc a) yeah and b) I truly don't remember what i assigned to each answer I thought hard about it Once and then let it escape my brain) so i'm glad we seem to be same brain in that regard... might be that we're both water signs lol

yeah, i haven't written any (tho tbh i would like to) but this is how i conceptualize them in my head:

jaehyun's like always kind of a loser but ESPPPP w yuta he's like oh no.... my brain.... it's broken! but its ok bc yuta kind of finds it endearing