so much
pairing: bf!Miguel OâHara x f!reader
summary: You give Miguel a handjob for the first time.
warnings: 18+ MDNI, handjob, lots of cum (lmk if i forgot anything)
wc: 2.1k
a/n: i blacked out again.Â
Miguel stopped kissing you maybe fifteen minutes ago. He said he was getting too worked up and that you guys should stop, of course, you respected his wishes. Youâre both now sitting in bed, heâs reading and youâre supposed to be doing some extra research but all you can focus on is the bulge in his pants.Â
This happens a lot, you guys get heated and Miguel stops everything. Itâs been six months and youâve never seen him cum. Youâve told him you love him, heâs made you cum with his fingers and his mouth but youâve never seen him cum. It doesnât bother you too much, you just assumed he wasnât a very sexual person, although you are and you love pleasuring your partner, you love him more. So you decided you could deal with it, but then you noticed that he would get hard, quite hard, and just not let you help him. Youâve offered many times and he always protests, saying âItâs fine, itâll just go away.âÂ
Once he even went into your bathroom for it. He chose to get himself off instead of just letting you do it. You tried to ask Jess about it but she says that Miguel doesn't talk about that stuff, all she knows is that heâs definitely not a virgin. So your last option to understand is to just ask him. So you do.Â
âMiggy?â His head comes up from his book to look over at you, peeking over his glasses like a librarian, making you chuckle. âUm⌠You- Youâreââ You start the sentence but soon realize how awkward this conversation could be. You try and figure out ways to piece it together as Miguel sits up straight, closes his book, and takes his glasses off, giving you his full attention. Now that heâs straightened himself out heâs looming over you a bit, making you even more nervous.Â
âYouâre still⌠hard..?â It comes out as a question more than a statement and mumbles more than words but he understands you. He clears his throat awkwardly as you slowly close your laptop and cast it aside. âY-yes, I am.â Heâs looking around the room now, his eyes avoiding yours.Â
âOkay. So do you not like handjobs or something? I just- I know that youâve gotten something before I just donât- I donât know why you wonât let me.â Youâre looking at him as you speak, heâs looking at the duvet, and from the corner of your eye, you swear you see his dick jump in his pants.Â
âCariĂąo⌠I-â He takes a deep, slightly frustrated breath and looks up at the ceiling, trying to figure out how to explain himself. âI want to⌠Tan jodidamente mala but⌠youâre different.â
(â... So fucking bad butâŚâ)
Insecurity spreads through your body at his words. Your mind is already racing, trying to decipher what he could mean.  Â
What the fuck? How am I different? Oh god, is he not even attracted to me sexually? Maybe Iâm not his type. Is there something Iâm missing? Maybe itâs something that heâs into, maybe I just need to get into whatever that is? Unless it really is just me thatâs the problemâŚ
âI love you so muchâŚâ The words instantly relax you. You believe him when he says it, but his tone implies that itâs a bad thing. âIâve never felt the way I feel about you for anyone else. So-â He sighs again and runs his fingers through his hair. âSo Iâm- Iâm more sensitive⌠when- when it comes to you.â
Arousal pools at the bottom of your stomach as you process his words. âMore sensitiveâ
The thought that he hasnât wanted you to touch him because it would feel too good has you leaking between your legs.Â
Heâs silent as you process, heâs waiting for you to laugh. But when he looks over at you youâre looking up at him with those eyes. The ones that always have him hardening in his pants before you have to say anything. The ones that he pictures on late nights when he canât sleep. The ones that burn into his eyelids as your name falls from his lips and he cums all over his sheets⌠Those eyes.Â
He huffs out a breath and shakes his head, denying you before you can even propose your suggestions. âNo, cariĂąo. I- Itâs embarrassing.â He protests but his voice is getting breathy, arousal leaking its way in as he watches you seat yourself by his knees, facing him. Your hand is placed on his upper thigh which has begun to twitch under your touch. âWe canât, I canât. HabrĂa mucho tambiĂŠn.â
âMucho?â You question, only understanding some of what he said. âA lot, what?â Youâre focused on his face, watching it contort as he whines at the Spanish that rolls off your tongue. Your hand has begun to massage his thigh, you can feel the fabric pull tighter with every pulse of his cock. Your hand slides up, closing in on where he wants you the most. His head falls back against the headrest as pleasure shoots through him.Â
You can tell heâs being honest with his reasoning as you watch him. Heâs letting out tiny moans, little whines like youâve been teasing him all day but youâre just massaging his thigh. You keep it up, just groping his twitching leg as he tries to hold his moans in so he can answer you. âC-cum, habrĂa tanto semen.â His hips start thrusting off the bed, barely noticeable.
(âC-cum. there would be so much cum.â)
âYeah? Youâd cum so much for me, Miggy?â You move from your spot, throwing your leg over him, straddling his thighs as you begin to palm his dick. His eyes roll back into his head as moans rip from his throat. He quickly grabs your wrist, roughly, stopping all your movements. His head raises to look at you.Â
âIâm- Iâm a bit⌠nervous, cariĂąo. It would be a lot for me. I- No one has ever seen me like that. Iâm only like this for you, I- canât help it." His eyebrows furrow, and he huffs at a breath, like he's angry at himself. "I donât want you to think itâs⌠extraĂąo, anormal, or that Iâm- I donât know.â You can see the genuine concern on his face, and the fear in his voice as he anxiously rambles.Â
("... strange, abnormal,")
âMiguelâŚâ He whines at how you say his name, you smile brightly and fondly at the sound. âI love you. In a way I didnât even know was possible. Iâm never going to think youâre- like, weird or something. At least not in a bad way. I-â You sigh gently and look into his eyes, you wrench your hand out of his grip and place it on his face, pulling him in for a soft kiss that he whimpers into. You pull away and give him the most serious look you can manage. âWe donât have to if youâre too nervous but if youâre worried about what Iâll think? Please donât.â
He holds your gaze, considering your words for a moment. âBut thereâs mucho, cariĂąo. No importa lo que yo haga. When- whenever I think of you, thereâs⌠so much.â He tries to express his concern but you really donât understand.
("No matter what I do.")
âMiguel.. That just- That just turns me on even more I- I donât see why thatâs a bad thing.â You speak honestly, watching his face shift into a mix of pleasure and confusion as his head falls back again. His hips press into the air, his legs spread, opening himself up for you as a pathetic âPor favorâ falls from his lips.Â
You spring into action immediately. You pull his pants low enough for his cock to fly out, instantly standing straight, hitting and staining his shirt. A hiss falls from his lips as you wrap your hand around him, and his head comes up to watch you. His eyes are watery as they stare at your little hand around his huge cock. Youâre watching him, you donât move yet, you can see him taking in every detail, committing the scene to memory before meeting your eyes.Â
âReady?â You ask him with a devious smile on your face. He nods vigorously, âSĂ, estoy... estoy tan lista, cariĂąo. Por favor.â
(âYes, I'm... I'm so ready, honey. Please.â)
You run your hand up his cock, swirling around the head before meeting the base again. His reaction is instant and extreme. His hands leave your hips for the bed as his claws rip into the sheet. His body is already shaking as tense, short, and quick moans fall from his lips. All his muscles are pulled tight as you slowly run your hand over him. His eyes are wide, staring at your hands as they pleasure him.Â
Youâre mesmerized by his cock, red, hot, and pulsing in your hand as you stroke him. Pre-cum is spilling from his slit at a consistent pace, making him all wet and sloppy. You hear his head hit the headboard again as his moans grow more unrestrained, shouting out into the open air. âI- I-âm not- Canâtâ He lets out a frustrated whine that morphs into a genuine moan before he tries to speak again. âNo voy a durar. Joder, tus manos son el paraĂso, cariĂąo. No voy a durar mucho, no puedo-â
(âIâm not gonna last. Fuck, your hands are heaven, honey. I won't last long, I can't-â)
You canât understand the words but based on how frantically he says them, the way his hips have started thrusting up into your hand gently and the way his legs are spreading themselves wider underneath you are good clues. âYouâre gonna cum, Miggy?â You finally look away from his saturated cock to observe him. His face is flushed, as he nods at you desperately. He tries to moan your name at you but he canât form the syllables. You love it. Seeing him like this, wet and aching for you. This is definitely going to become a daily thing.Â
âYeah? You promised me a lot, hermoso. I want it all. Give it to me, baby.â He fully shouts your name at the Spanish pet name. He grunts pathetically as he lifts his hand from the bed, willing his claws to retract so he can touch you. His hand squeezes your hip desperately, shaking as his moans quickly rise in pitch and volume. Your eyes are focused back on his erratically twitching cock, you donât see his head lift to look at you.
Heâs cumming the moment he can see your face.Â
You stroke him as fast as you can, listening to his breathy sob as his cock shoots out heavy ropes of cum. Heâs watching your face, trying to gauge your reaction through his cloudy eyes. Youâre watching his cock in awe, his cum runs over your hand, coating your fist as you jerk him through it. Heâs nothing but a bundle of gasps, moans, and sobs as his cock spurts out a whole new load. He watches your face as it morphs from disbelief to burning arousal, your breathing speeds up the longer he cums. He can hear whines start to slip out of you as his hips jerk into your hand. You tear your eyes away from the cum pooling around and coating his cock just in time to see his eyes shift from you to the back of his head. He lets out one last drawn-out wail before his hips rest back on the bed. His cock begins to soften, spurting out tiny ropes as you stroke him softly, helping him down. You try to get the raging fire in your stomach and the flood between your legs under control before getting up for a towel. He was right. There was so much.
You wipe him down as he whines and mumbles deliriously until you hear a little sob and he reaches out for you. You throw the towel to a corner of the room as he pulls you into his chest. He whispers what sounds like thanks and praise into your hair as you kiss his chest.Â
âGracias, cariĂąo. Eso- eso se sintiĂł tan bien, te sentiste tan bien. Te amo.â You giggle at him gently. âYouâre welcome and I love you too, baby. You know I canât understand most of what you said, right?â You feel his chest rumble with a chuckle before he speaks again. âI- I know, it's just⌠El inglĂŠs se me hace difĂcil. Yo olvido. I- Iâmâ He laughs at himself. âYou get my head all mixed up, cariĂąo.âÂ
(âThank you love. That- that felt so good, you felt so good. I love you.â)
(âEnglish is difficult for me. I forgetâ)
He presses a kiss to your forehead. âOh really?â You say in a playful tone as he chuckles at you. You turn and pull him in, his lips just inches from yours. âMe encanta eso.â You had to pull all your Spanish I classes together to figure that sentence out but the reward is worth it. Miguelâs eyes widen and he gasps before smashing his face into yours, you can feel his wide smile against your lips as he kisses you and youâve never felt happier.Â
(âI love that.â)
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