Scared, trouble sleeping and it's so stupid! It happens often. I worry too much about things. Germs, boogers, dirt, vomit... that kind of thing because it's cold out now and my dad already was sick twice coughing and sneezing on everything. I had a flu shot but none of that mattered some years. I don't know. I'm just one person. I can't clean everything everyday. I have phobias and nightmares of socializing. You know I can't, it's so hard. I'm scared I'll be bothering people if I talk to them online. So usually, I don't. I also have that stupid fear of haircuts and salons I totally hate talking about it. It burns writing about it. Fear of makeup. I'm never going to grow the hell up unless I get over it. But how? An online tutorial or by myself is ...I tried. Blah...