#skydxddy

Steven Universe - "Disobedient" // The Mountain Goats - "Sept 15th 1983" // Virginia Woolf - Carlyle's House and Other Sketches // SkyDxddy - "DON'T TALK ABOUT IT"

I’m keeping things up to date while during this situation. I have a lot of videos scheduled ahead of time, but this was rather sudden.

"i used to be so happy- where'd that person go?" "every time i look in the mirror, it's someone i don't know." "i hate myself. i'm not the same, the light in me is gone." "i'm crying every single day, but i'm trying to be strong." "your pity parties aren't that fun. you've been crying for a while- are you almost done?" "don't you want your power back? don't you want revenge?" "aren't you sick of always being last? you have no discipline." "when someone tries to fuck with you, you have every right to bite them." "you please everybody but yourself, you know that right?" "no, it's not my fault. i was raised to be kind." "but if i'm not nice, they'll leave." "they think that you're just not digestible so let them fucking choke." "i just can't be that person." "i won't let you fucking die." "you said i'd never get out, but i did." "you hate that you can't control me." "you hate that i know the real you- hollow, shallow, see-through." "you say that you're gonna save me, but you fucking hate me." "you don't like who i've become- only want me when i'm numb." "i've got a closet full of skeletons, but i don't think you could handle them." "there's danger in expressing & safety in suppressing." "i'd rather die than let you see me break." "they don't know you like i do." "that isn't the story i remember, someone lied to you." "damn, you act so brave until i'm calling you out." "how much more am i supposed to take?" "why is it harder just to breathe?" "maybe i'm not weak. maybe i'm just tired." "i won't quit, but honestly, sometimes it's too much for me." "you've been chasing after something you may never achieve."

you say that you’re gonna save me, but you fuckin’ hate me 🎶