Madaparty theme 4 - Angst
And even when I'm all alone, I won't change, this is not my world....
Ok so I'm not very good with angsting, because I'm quite picky with the media I choose to angst (and mada franchise isn't one of them unfortunately) BUT I'LL TRY
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Hans always felt a lonesome regret while thinking about what happened in Denmark, and never quite knew why. That was the plan right? Make Skipper the traitor to the state, get his meed and never think about that again. But what if it all went differently? He lived through so much with his penguin companion, was it all for nothing?
The little puffin stood at the old train platform, staring at the faces of bypassers rushing on about their days. Some time ago, he used to come here with Skipper to eat the most delicious ice cream he's ever had - were they that good because the penguin always knew the best snack spots, or the lovely companion made them delicious? With every passing minute, the passerbys started to blur, their figures shifting into the one he betrayed - the little hatchling who hasn't even molted yet, was looking at him with eyes full of hope - hans, as a danish citizen, would give him a tour around the city - that was their first shared memory. How could he do this to this little fluffball?
Everything started to blur even more - all the shared conversations, little gestures, celebrated birthdays, Christmas evenings and Easter mornings - laughs and cries they had together. Hans was struggling to see through his dark glasses - he had to wear them due to the light flash he saw at the embassy - but this wasn't due to his eye damage. He felt a small tear pooling up in his eyecorner, while all the voices and images flashed before his eyes. He thought about what can he do to fix it, tell him that it was a mistake? Get him a huge bouquet of flowers, bake him his extra special danish pastries, write him a poem, kill all the Danes-
The look on the face of that little penguin, the moment he learned his best friend just sold him out. Eyes full of shock and thorough sadness, were looking at him, asking just one question.
Everything stopped. Hans thought he knew the answer, but after further thinking, he didn't. How could he?
But after looking at these eyes, at these sad, lonely eyes, he knew something else.
He will never fix this, even if he tries. He'll always be a traitor.
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For the song - I feel like it's a go-to sad song for the young Polish people. It's called "Długość dźwięku samotności" - "A length of the sound of loneliness" by Myslovitz and it's about never changing and hiding one's true self, because that's what we chosen and we have to always fit into society's standards.
Spotify link today, because it doesn't have a music video >w<
