If it wasn't for the fact i've found a lifelong partner and we help each other out i'd be in such financial misery rn
I have a job that pays minimum wage for 39h a week, a rent that has gone up 200$ in 5 years, bills that keep accumulating and cost of life increasing so hard, im barely making ends meet most months, so i only owe it to her and her job to still get to have a life.
And i consider myself rich. I have friends who buy food for their cats and not themselves at the end of the month. My rent increased but not nearly as fast as the rest of the town. My dreams of ever owning a house are dead and buried, but i had them at one point. I have anxiety about a fucking wedding because of the stupid cost of it!!!
And if it was JUST my own ego and personal life. But everywhere I look, news are terrible. I grew up in the 2000s, and it's starting to look like back then, only i cant be a kid anymore and live naively. I can't make any ethical choices, because it's either pollution or genocide support. It's making me loose my damn mind!
I force myself to listen to good news. To block all celebrities, and only follow people who are giving a shit about the state of the world and want to try and fix it.
Idk. I also see myself joining more and more radical circles and it scares me. I dont want to have to resort to violence. I wish peace was an option.
