#shootingup

Read this and take note you tumblr wannabe junkies....

FUCK WITHDRAWAL RATHER SHOOT UP TILL I FALL!

Who the fuck even reads this shit?  I can’t find it if I search a million different things.  I thinik this TUMBLR thing sucks..   Anyhow, back to the diary.. What a wonderful moment:  when you get into the dealers’ car, and he knows your partner is away, and he casually lays his hand on your thigh.  Nothing further happens, but I know what he wants, what he is hinting at..  I live in a place where drugs are so cheap, that you could live easily without having to whore yourself -- why do you think I moved here?  And it ain’t in Asia -- been there, done that, would have been broke within 2 weeks.  Life as a junkie.. So who cares?  Suck that dick -- I could have put my hand on his,. and I am positive he would have given me my 20 or 40$ worth of drugs for free.  Probably ask to see a tit or two.  And he knows I am married.  And he knows that my man is a scary man to fuck with.  I am really angry right now.  I wrote something really funny on Facebook, shared a funny thing I found, and of course, as always,. all the ‘grown-ups’ that you HAVE to be FB friends with start admonishing me.  It makes me want to spread my legs and take a picture of a tampon string and post it on Facebook -- but that would not be really that funny to me.... I like funny and shocking shit.  This blog is not working.  Nobody is reading this.  I think I need to change to blogger.  Went to the needle exchange today -- they are supposed to be open until 6pm -- it was 3 pm and they were closed.  We called an affiliate of theirs. and were told that they have been doing that alot. Fuck you -- we aren’t worth anything?? Now I have to poke myself with old rigs -- and what if I had no ascorbine -- I have to risk a heart infection with lemon juice!??  I went to the free exchange (where you need an annual TB test to get shit and only between 10-12pm are the hours for the test which is impossible for me), and amazingly, they were out of BD syringes. FInally, I tried a pharmacy. where they send the poor people with no insurance to get medications -- they don’t carry rigs -- the guy said “it is illegal to sell them without a script” -- then how come I buy them all the time at my local pharmacy (which was closed as it was Sunday today).  I told him this, and then he said “oh well not in this neighbourhood” (right in the heart of the city).  I looked down and saw a sign on the counter that said “We do not sell syringes or needles” -- in English,, and this is not an English country. So wtf to do? Use old ones!?  Fuck this mentality -- as if we are not people that deserve access to clean medical equipment!!!  Thank FUCKING god (no capitol g) that we had 3 clean ones at home (we had been taking a break, and so had luckily a couple of new ones), and THANK GOD we both got it in one shot -- often I have to use 30 needles to hit. and that sucks with old needles.  This is a bitch entry.. I am bitching. But nobody will read or see this.  I don’t even know what the fuck tumblr is -- thought it was a way to reach ppl, but i think i will just take my posts and copy and paste them elsewhere. Fuck you Tumblr, Fuck You who don’t find shit funny, and Fuck FUCK SCROOGE McDUCK! And if nobody writes me back, then fuck this, Drella go elsewhere.