basic Info:

- I'm 17 and taken

- I'm half Indian, half Australian but I live in England

- Currently doing my A levels: Econ, Maths and German

interests:

- I've been playing the guitar for 9 years (but tbh im still shit)

- I'm an Explorer Scout! Scouting is a big part of my life lol

- I've been doing indoor rock climbing for about 3-4 years now

- I really enjoy creative things, but i don't draw/paint! Recently I've been making some lino prints but I also like taking photos and making things (i'll post some photos soon trust me)

music top 5:

- King Gizzard and the Lizard Wizard

- Amyl and the Sniffers

- Kraftklub

- Conan Gray

- the Pixies

fandoms:

- JoJo's

- Pokemon

- Splatoon

- Dr Who

- the Inbetweeners

- Goodness Gracious Me

i read fanfics about characters i like with sad music and cry over them as static grows and i get a headache again because i refuse to actually exist so instead i pretend i’m fictional and just cry over everything and listen to sad instrumentals all day all night

i wish i didn’t exist . i genuinely debate killing myself often not because i have a solid reason , i just want to be a fictional character and maybe if i died i could be

i know i’m supposed to talk abt this stuff in my google notes or wtv but like idk i wanna rip all of my skin off and get stabbed repeatedly i don’t wanna be alive anymore i hate it here

i constantly wanna go home but i don’t actually know where home is because i’m always in my room . i always feel weird and i constantly have a pit of guilt for idek what in my stomach at all times of the day

maybe i’m overreacting idk but i don’t wanna do this

idk maybe i’ll feel better later after i shower