#severe panic attacks

Like how do you walk around without the constant fear of dying ?

My family has shown no concern over the fact that I had a severe panic attack yesterday and had to call somebody else because the left me home alone. Not one word about it. I could not breathe, I could not get up, I could barely use my fingers to dial because they had gone stiff. I was sprawled on the floor turning purple, and not one iota of care. I have bruising on my head, hips and shoulders from convulsing on the ground, and have had lasting affects into the next day. Even after being alerted to the fact that help found me choking on my back on the floor, they did not rush home to check on my well-being, and instead stayed out until 9:30 pm, and did not utter a single word to me until 17 ish hours after the panic attack, words which were actually two, and consisted of 'coffee's on'. I assume this was to get me out of my room, but when I did leave, I was entirely ignored. Reasons for the panic attack? Well it started by being chased uphill on a bike by a snarling loose pit bull, which I was most certainly pissed about, but also sent me into the worst panic attack I'd had since about this time last year. Upon telling my step mother about the near mauling and subsequent panic attack, I received very unhelpful advise to sit down and stay where I was, to which I said hell no, and got a cryptic 'No' for. After getting home and requesting not to get messages like that when having a panic attack, I got screamed at. And cursed out, and belittled, and threatened. And then left at home alone, clearly in distress and in need of care, which I did not receive until approximately an hour later. What kind of messed up pride does one have to have that a two minute fight stops you from showing any care, compassion, or concern over ones child? My step mother even went as far as to message the person that helped me when she did not, and imply that it was some attention-seeking, stress-induced tantrum that I put on. I'm not sure I can say that I feel entirely cared for or safe in my mental or physical well-being in this household, and I'm frankly appalled at the lack of care from my parents.

Had a REALLY severe panic attack last night and am still feeling the effects today. But Sky did his job last night and saved the day with the added help of my wonderful husband!