While Tycho's being uncharacteristically self-aware he wants to add that it makes sense if Timo got all of the desperate 5th grade wanting to do a good job and not feeling capable of doing a good enough job and so fucking guilty about that because he didn't know why he couldn't do things he couldn't do, he could never come up with an answer EVERYONE EVERYONE ALWAYS EVER thought he didn't do a good enough job or that he wasn't trying hard enough so they must be right
And fuck it sucks that he's both the only one optimistic enough to want to exist and get stuck with dealing with the things to continue existing that he shouldn't have to be asked to do without support
Like fuck that's all that's ever happened to all of us
Should probably sleep, because between that and trying to pull the equivalent of a nocturnal all-nighter (all-day-er?) falling asleep late feels the least irresponsible. Pretty sure Timo right now is just exhausted and been feeling both sad and depressed so not feeling like piloting beyond insisting on an actual bath and shave face SOME time between now and the next going to work tomorrow night. As in monday night. Yeah. These things are sometimes confusing to figure out what you mean when you think "today" or "tomorrow" when you're nocturnal. yeah.
Timo WANTS aww wants pretty badly to bath and shave before next sleep, because clean in bed feels nice and itchy neck stubble feels bad. And honestly no one actively disagrees with that it's just outweighed by too much depression inertia and too tired to take all the time of taking clothes off and finding clean clothes and filling up bathtub because yeah Timo wants bath not shower this time, and performing all the washing self motions, and then performing all the rinsing self motions, and then performing all the drying self and draining the tub and rinsing it out motions and particularly the drying self motions feel like they can take forever if you're not thorough enough cause putting on clothes if you're slightly damp and then the clothes are slightly damp feels baaaad. So yeah despite ideally wanting otherwise even Timo is pretty easily convinced to sleep before bath is okay and just compromise and at least brush teeth before sleep.
In case anyone else needs some motivation when brushing teeth regularly is hard. One of Timo's is: "feeling guilty for making his plushies smell his bad breath" 😎👍 hope doesn't come across as sarcastic I mean like genuine "if a motivation to take better care of yourself in some way works then it works and not cringe"
Lot of questioning self. Could identify that as a lilac tag if we make one. Honestly just too tired to look for a fitting emoji especially if we're gonna commit on promise to long-suffering Timo and muster energy to brush teeth before going to bed
...Aww, man, yeah, Tycho now feeling some kind of fucking burden of being sad external observer connecting dots that may not have been connected before without his external perspective, but fuckin' what has been seen cannot be unseen, and Timo ALSO at just about exactly the age of both trying really hard to take really good care of teeth and having grown EXTRA baby teeth TWO of them behind the others like a SHARK and being PROUD of that and really sad when dentists removed them and hating losing baby teeth so much and never wanting to deal with that ever again and making concoctions of toothpaste and ACT bubble gum flavor to dip toothbrush in and brush after brushing with toothpaste and then use like mouthwash, that kind of shit like the dental equivalent of mixing potions of different soaps in the bath and washing the fuck out of yourself, trying to have the cleanest teeth in the world. And also struggling with the ability to consistently do that due to mental illness. AND ALSO at the same time frame the same age range just fucking SO much dentist trauma. SO, SO much dentist trauma and second-hand trauma of being told about my mom's trauma worsening my own fear and no one doing anything to try to help it. So we will brush teeth before sleep for him
