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TW: GORE

chapter 01: daylight.

ah.

there it is again. the familiar sting of your parents’ harsh words. the same accusations, the same scolding, for things that you couldn’t control.

you wondered what were wrong from the start? what did you do to be treated like this?

they don’t want to have you at the first place. it’s just like… an accident - they said.

oh, poor girl, even your parents don’t want you.

you don’t want yourself either.

why though?

because you weren’t talented enough? or maybe it was because you weren’t as brilliant as your older brother, the one they cherished above all else?

“i told you! how naive of you to think that daughters are better than sons. now look at her, that bitch’s useless, not even 1 percent like her brother.” - your father shouted, didn’t mind you hearing those harsh words.

“it was a mistake, okay?! and you’re responsible for this too! so stop blaming me for her being born a girl. like I wanted that!” your mother replied, frustration lacing her voice.

ah

you heard it million of times.

it was because you were born a girl.

hmmm.

being a girl seemed so complicated. they made you do all the chores, yet forced you to study as hard as your brother. they wouldn’t let you wear what you wanted. they’d praise him when he did the smallest thing, like sharing the chores, which you did every day, only to be scolded when one little thing went wrong. your brother, always their golden child. you, nothing more than a disappointment. you know they wanted another lovely son.. yet you were born. how pathetic

_____

you thought that your brother loves you, at least. then just to found out that he was just like your parents.

“we’re just blood-related, who were happened to be brother and sister, it’s just a coincidence.”

you heard it when you tried to convince your brother to stay with you after he decided to go to USA and work for NASA. you didn’t like the thought of being separated from your beloved brother. it may look like you were being super nonsense and didn’t consider about his future. but. you was just a child.

you were just 10.

just 10 when you bitterly learned that no one want to be with you. no one want you. not even your brother who you thought would count one. yet you guys are just “blood-related” by “coincidence”. it was too much for a 10-year old brain but you knew it too well.

all too well.

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your parents were yelling at you, again, for whatever the reason was. it was too much this time.

you knew it, you knew that nobody wants you. they didn’t have to remind you.

you knew it, you knew that the fact you were just born as an accident to them. they didn’t have to remind you.

you knew it, you knew that no matter how hard you tried, you can’t be like your brother, “boys are always excelled at science or anything else, science are not for girls, girls are for the housework.”. they didn’t have to remind you.

you knew it, you knew that you’re such an disappointment, useless, dumb, sometimes you are a bitch, you looked ridiculous, you’ll never meet their demands since you are a girl. they didn’t have to remind you.

you maybe are you, but you are nothing.

they didn’t even stop even when tears started draining down your cheeks for half an hour now.

oh,

it hurts.

“aha, what should i do now?” - you thought.

even self-degrading can’t help you forgot about the pain anymore, they talked too much.

the world was too loud tonight.

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that’s when you found yourself ran away from home, again.

you ran away, but where you went? you didn’t know, didn’t want to know. you just wanted to hide away, anywhere if it was far from home.

home?

you stopped on a bridge, such a beautiful sight.

what day was this? - you wondered.

oh.

it’s almost New Year’s Eve. people looked so excited preparing for it.

together.

with their beloved.

with their family.

family.

you looked down from the bridge. it was just a sight you, and the moon, reflected on the water. new year? you were about to turn 16 soon.

you just stopped and stared for a long while, didn’t mind people passing by giving you their curious look.

you chuckled, “were you following me, moon?” such a dumb question. at anytime like this, it was always just you and the moon.

“the moon doesn’t follow you, it was just a phenomenon of angular displacement.” you heard a stranger.

“huh?” - you turned to look at where the voice came from.

that one was a teenager, having a neutral expression on his face. his eyes.. red, ‘a bit abnormal heh? but they were beautiful, shining under the moon like this. he looked like he’s at my age.. or a bit older. what was he saying again?’

‘he was.. wait.. what the fuck with that hair??? are his gel products running out of date or something???’

the thought made you giggled a bit.

“i said the moon didn’t follow you, it was just too far away from the Earth.” - the boy repeated, explained his point.

“ah.. sorry, i was too dumb for such science i guess.” - you chuckled a bit, insulted yourself for a joke to ease the tension. of course you knew that the moon didn’t follow you, but.. you just want someone, or even just something to stay by your side at such time like this, the moon happened to be it.

“i’m a girl after all.” - you added, jokingly.

“what the hell are you talking about?” - the red-eye boy snapped at you. “science is for everyone, whether you’re a boy or a girl.”

it is?

still having that depressing mood, you sighed “not for me though.”

“why’d you think that? have you given it a try?” the crimson eyes of his narrowed a bit.

“oh, i did, but my parents say so. they said i’m useless for this world after all, science doesn’t need someone like me.” the bitterness in your voice was impossible to hide as you stared down at the moon’s reflection again.

“this world needs every single person on Earth, that’s why you were born.” such beautiful voice, you thought. his voice was gentle, but it carried an undeniable truth that made you pause.

he really meant it.

“nah it was just an accident.” you replied with a hollow laugh.

please don’t say so. don’t make it harder for me to.

for me to-

give up on this world.

silence then hung between you both.

“you were 10 billion percent wrong, “ the young teenager, as if to broke the tension, came standing beside you on the bridge, glazing at the view.

no, please don’t say anything more, i knew who i am, i knew i didn’t deserve to be born!!

“even people without any special skills, would always find a way to be useful.”

the world was so loud, yet it was so quiet.

you looked up to face him, stared into his eyes for a moment, just to immediately caught yourself wishing that you’d meet him sooner.

then you noticed something.

it was daylight already.

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