#selfcafe

Mother's day

Woke up at 5am

I went to my parent's bedroom.

I slept

I had classes

He come over

Lunch: we are celebrating, my mom liked her gifts

Classes

We talked

I explained why I needed to heal

He kind of felt better because que understood

We begged... I felt so bad because I need to put my boundaries and this is the first and hardest one I need to

It hurts me looking at him like this

It hurts me too, really. I just think I had my grief when we were together

Dinner (parents, brother, brother's wife)

We had a good time

I saw tiktoks

He called me

I made my homeworks

He slept

I finished my homeworks

I slept with my parents

2am

I'm trying

My mom woke me up early

Tomorrow is Mother's Day so we went to have breakfast/lunch

I took a shower

We ate

I was in the phone almost all the time (kind of regret)

My parents know I'm not okay, they asked, I'm not ready to tell them

We went back home

I cried

I was hurt

I facetimed

I liked how I look

I liked my eyes, my smile

I did my homework

I forgot to eat

I had dinner

I felt nauseous

I brushed my teeth

1am

Trying

Woke up late

Didn't have breakfast

I did have lunch

I cried

I took a shower

I brushed my teeth

I did have dinner

I tried to dance like I used to do

I cried

I slept at 3am

Trying

Detangled my hair

Candlelit bubble bath

Reading in the tub

Lana del Rey