#self contemplation

Why people stopped writing hand written letters is still highly debatable in my eyes and i know that, I am contradicting my very self by typing this long extended letter in my tablet.

A very warm afternoon to myself, a letter for me with an embrace, an embrace invisible yet so powerful that i can live in it for the rest of my life.

People do not understand me yet I yearn for understanding. There are people who like me, my presence, my smile yet there are people who feel a taste of disgust at the very thought of my existence. The answer still remain incomprehensible. There are things which are certain in life, which holds significance, which are destined to happen yet I am the one who is uncertain and non-serious. I am the one who does not correct my flaws and blames the situations and circumstances. There are threads inside the mind of humans unbothered, unexplained, and unpopularized. These threads do not care about other threads, neither they are bothered by their own existence nor they bother others. If they can be harmless in their existence while living inside the cramped, confused, and hemmed place like the mind and still lives in harmony then why the same formula can't be applied on human beings? Or maybe I am too pragmatical in this approach, maybe I am not thinking the other way around. What about their emotions? It is true that they can't be emotionless. Survival depends on many things and one of them is emotions. The heart which pumps blood carries the existence of emotions. It is provable also, veins carry the blood to pump the heart isn't it the most relevant and noticeable fact about it? Veins appear to be extremely thin and fragile yet they carry the weight of blood inside them without any theatrical pride. Simultaneously, If I hear the counter-narrative, the veins which looks frail and sometime lifeless actually possesses certain qualities inside them. They do carries the entirety of blood because without the existence of blood they will shrink to death which means they have executive function and political strategy through the existence of blood. So, shall I call it a meeting point or a balanced union of two individual elements? Because their existence depends on each other. They can't flourish without each other. Or what if I apply this theory to human will they stop overshadowing one another and appreciates themselves and others too with respectability for the inherent qualities they naturally possess in themselves? I am still in search of the answer.

Dunia nyata itu apa yang bisa kamu lihat, sentuh, dan rasakan langsung. Ini adalah tempat kita hidup, berinteraksi, dan berbagi pengalaman. Dunia nyata punya aturannya sendiri, dan kita harus menyesuaikan diri.

Sementara dunia dipikiranmu adalah hasil dari pikiran, perasaan, dan imajinasi. Di sini, kamu bisa bebas memikirkan apa aja, mengeksplorasi kemungkinan, dan menciptakan sesuatu yang baru. Dunia di pikiranmu sangat fleksibel dan bebas, tapi juga bisa membuat kamu khawatir jika tidak diatur dengan baik.

Nikmatilah waktu yang kamu miliki sekarang, karena di setiap detiknya tersembunyi keindahan yang mungkin tak dilihat oleh mata orang lain. Lihatlah dengan hati yang terbuka, perhatikan detail-detail kecil yang sering terabaikan dan kamu akan menjumpai hal-hal tak terduga. Inspirasi akan datang menghampiri dari arah yang tak terduga, membuatmu melihat dunia dengan lensa yang berbeda, penuh warna dan kemungkinan.

Bangunlah lebih awal, mulailah hari yang baru dengan senyum yang tulus, seperti membuka jendela ke arah cahaya yang baru saja terbit. Dengan kesadaran yang tumbuh, kamu akan lebih peka terhadap hal-hal kecil yang sering luput dari perhatian.

Dari film yang membangkitkan tawa, buku yang menyentuh hati, percakapan yang menginspirasi, hingga patah hati yang menjadi guru kehidupan. Setiap pengalaman, baik atau buruk, akan meninggalkan jejak yang membentukmu menjadi versi terbaik dirimu. Hari-hari buruk dan kegagalan pun tak akan sia-sia.

So The hunt for a new car has finally come to an end, just got it insured and I can feel the anxiety over the whole situation begin to die down.

Kinda a weird feeling to finally have a new vehicle that doesn't scare the shit out of me to drive. I guess i also really wish the first one didn't turn out as bad as it did. Like it was pretty much buggered from the get go but at the same time i wish i was able to take better care of it overall.